This book is about us, all of us and of those that we only imagine to be our angelic hierarchies that watch over us, for few of us have had the ecstasy to be conscious after having interfaced with them. Many of us do not want to interface nor communicate with them, and a few of us do not even want to think that they exist. Just because we do not believe something, does not mean that it is not true.
God is everywhere and is everything, known as 'Love'.
We have all heard that said before, but what does it really mean? God is Love we are told, but then what is Love? God, Love, thus the chicken and the egg routine, or a paradox that gives us a headache and turns us away from it all.
God is Love that is unconditional in beauty, truthful in all manners and conscious of the justice of it all.
God is not wrathful, God does not have favorites, nor is impudent of anything. God is our creator having made the cosmos of Love, balanced energies with a few cosmic 'rules of the game'. Life is a beautiful game that some say is hide and seek with God; we just don't like to admit it as such.
God did not create war, destruction nor evil, God made cosmic rules of balance and we did the rest with the transformation of those energies, for the good and for the not so good of life. And, just as God has many facets to us, each one of us has our own 'soul growth' facet at a different level. We cannot all be in University or Kinder-garden at the same time.
To this end we have written this book that you now anticipating to 'devour' with keenness, in Five parts and some tables. This will allow each one to go into that section which seems the most appropriate, for further investigation. Let your intuition be your guide as to where you want to start.
Each part is a whole unto itself, and is not necessarily put in any order, other than that which we had it pouring out of us as we sat at the laptop and watched our fingers fly across the keyboard. There is a psychological/spiritual section; a section on the higher knowledge or science of ourselves aka 'Gnosis'; a religious section on Jesus the Christ and other ascended masters; a philosophical section (one with humor on our anthropology, or the 'game plan' if you will); and one on fixing it all.
Psychology is scientific and spirituality is not. Spirituality is about our soul and psychology is not. But, when we merge the two, when we go back over the formation of either group, and bring into it the equations the other groups via 'Gnosis', then we start to see our own, inner gnosis and what all this beautiful stuff means. For it is beautiful as it was sent by God and God is everywhere and everything with Love.
During your reading you will find out things about our inner workings that you did not know, that you did not know. You will be amazed, amused and enlightened. Just what life is all about and you may also find out why we are here. There maybe a few tears along the road, but, most importantly you will find that God does in fact exist. That God is in fact everywhere and everything. And, that there is only four words needed to describe God:
Truthful, Conscious, Unconditional LOVE.
L I F E
G O D
Looks like God intersecting with Love is Life going forward, from the Id.
This book is dedicated to my father who was the greatest example of God (truthful, conscious and unconditional Love) I have yet to meet and to my mother who is the greatest example of Venus.
It is dedicated to my daughter Samantha for choosing me as her Dad and for being a spiritual teacher and student.
To my many friends, alive and dead who have given me so much to live for in this wonderful journey of life (and they still do weather in the here and now or from beyond), from kind words and deeds, to some of the greatest esoteric encounters.
But most of all to that' Lady of unconditional Love', who shared a cosmic dance with me and we found 'God Itself' together. I call her Venus (after my own mother’s ways), and I know that she did incarnate and manifest Venus here and now. From the bottom of my exalted heart and from the universal energy flowing through my soul, I know her as my true soul mate.
I thank her as I would thank God for all that they have taught.
Love, unconditional, conscious and truthful.
May we all, always help and need to help each other and mankind.
Namaste and God forever.
Edward the Guardian
Earl the defender
Kemp the fighter
As defined by Oxford dictionary: ‘Investigation, knowledge, especially a higher knowledge of spiritual things’. Coined by the Gnostics of biblical time, today it is used more loosely to mean, knowledge, truth of spiritual matters of all religions, cultures and people. When married to anthropology it becomes the study of, the evolution of, that knowledge. Remember to be careful with words, as your egos can use it to fool you into thinking it means one thing, when in reality something else was meant. Neuro-linguistics explains the problems with words. Investigate the word for yourself and decide what it means to you.
A good starting point to help answer this question is in the books of Samael Aun Weor father of contemporary Gnosis, as well as in the teachings/ readings of Edgar Cayce in his capacity to see into the other dimensions and thus into the energies that surround us. Of course there are dozens and dozens of books and websites that will give you glimpse into where we have our origins, but for all intense purposes we need to focus on the here and now, with the minimum realization that we are souls and are reborn many times on earth, we are not just here today and gone tomorrow. This gnosis well help us to act and react better to all of life's challenges.
Hopefully the first answer for all of us is ‘being happy and having fun’, for all work and no play makes us a sour lot. With all the problems that exist throughout humanity we need to know that we are at least on a path to enlightenment and that we are focusing on and improving on our strengths which in and of itself will weaken our ‘challenges’ that we have.
The bottom line for most is that we are trying to consciously awaken our souls to know God and be ‘God-like’. While most of the work is already done inside us, we need to tap into that energy flow known as ‘Chi’ (Ying-Yang) so that we can wake it up and be all that we can be in this life. Let your intuition be your guide and let your soul feed on the Gnosis contained herein. Be careful as you start to starve off the egoic mind for they (the egos therein) may get even hungrier than before and want to take over more then they already have.
Some say to ‘hell’ in a hand-basket, but why focus on the challenges, unless we really know ourselves and where we are from and what really makes us tick and do the things we do, they will just aggravate our 'narcissistic egos'. We can only face challenges when we have the strength and energy source to do so. It would be better to state that we are heading toward total enlightenment and consciousness, so that we may complete our mission and attain the Gnosis of all that we set out to attain.
That is to say that we should focus on our strengths while, being conscious of our weaknesses, and transmute all the energies within us, into that which we really are, loving souls. We have been here before and done this and done that, but never from the point that we are now. Things are both vertical and horizontal in life and it is up to each of us to find that spot where we are and the where we need to be. This is best and easiest done with our mission in life at least partly mapped out, for if you want to go to New York from London, you don't want to end up in Tokyo first.
Our mission is already inside of us as we set it up before our soul took the body we are in, now all we need do it wake up to it. While this is a matter that is individual in focus, it is also the point that is the most common for all of us to head towards as real 'Love' (God to us that is lived with truth, consciousness and is unconditional) is always the answer, but we more often than not forget how to formulate the question.
What is my mission in life and what are some of my sub goals.
P.S. a place to start is if you said a goal of mine in life is to be happy, you already have a challenge, as, if you are not happy now then when will you be. Sort of Zen like, but all the motivational speakers and psychologists will tell you it should be here and now.
To my divine mother Kundalini also known as Venus, Mary, Maya and all her daughters, before, now, and in the future. To my eternal and that ½ of my internal feminine aspect, especially my soul mate(s).
I apologize for the males and male energies of all times, for their trespasses committed and their lapses in manners and conduct. It is totally unacceptable. I just found out (oh boy was I asleep) how pathetically we have really been treating you. This realization has made me sick (physically and mentally) and I sincerely seek your forgiveness from all of us and (atonement) through repentance. There is no excuse for the way we have treated you and, from what I understand, still do. There is no reason for anything but unconditional love, unselfish sharing and total caring for who and what you are, Goddess in creation.
For so many years, lives, and aeons, we have done you all so very wrong abusing you one way or another, consciously or not (no excuse will ever be acceptable here), and have in fact fueled the fire that retarded humanity's advancement to total enlightenment. We did evil, because we have been absent of guilt. We did evil because we have been absent of God within us, for all evil is, is the absence of a Love that is truthful, conscious and unconditional, aka God.
If some of us do in fact feel guilty then this is a good sign that we are not entirely evil, that there is some consciousness within.
No more, I promise in the name of
God which is in the name of real, true, pure Love.
From the wholeness of my soul and with all the life force that flows through me, I/we will communicate the reverence and respect that we have for you all and we will thus start the process of atonement. While JC has already forgiven us of our trespasses, we must take stock and be conscious of what we have done in order to be forgiven of our transgressions. No matter what has happened in the communications of women to men, there is never a justification for any manner that is not divine, godly or pure loving from us to you.
As of now all of this will change in the name of all that we hold sacred.
From now on we will respect you all with the utmost adoration for the giving, nurturing energy of the universe that you are.
From now on we will revere your souls more than we do our own, in hopes of atoning for at least some of what we have done, hopefully for it all.
From now on we will extol all the virtues of what your womanhood means to the Enlightenment of Humanity.
From now on we will keep you on a pedestal so that you can see from up high that we are genuine in our reverence to you and that we really understand and believe we (you and us) are the same all around.
The shapes may differ from life to life, but the soul is
still the same. It will further protect you and allow those that are not pure
of heart to never get near you again and do wrong unto you.
We have such corrupted minds and thoughts that lead us constantly into the abyss and as we are quick minded, devious and evil, it is easy for anyone to be caught in our traps. I guess that we just could not dis-entangle ourselves from our animal behavior of power of the strongest and thus the greed for that power, over anything, seemingly weaker, especially innocent and pure of energy from the heart (that is extolled, represented and 'just is' by you ladies). That we could control and manipulate you with our fear mongering, whether it was active or passive, obvious or not; it was there, is there but I / We promise it will be removed, we will become conscious of all that we have done unto you.
THE BEAUTY OF THE UNIVERSE IS WHAT YOU ALL REPRESENT, SO THERE IS NO REASON UNDER THE SUN TO MAKE IT UGLY... ALL WE NEED DO IS TO BASK IN ITS ENERGY, ITS' LIGHT, ITS' UNCONDITIONAL, TOTALLY PURE, HARMONIC DANCING, LOVE...
NAMASTE TO ALL OF YOU... YESTERDAY, TODAY AND ALWAYS FOREVER...
I was born to live life, which is love. Therefore I was born to live love. I have been looking for it always, and from what I have found, I have been looking in all the wrong places. Yet I was not able to look elsewhere, I was frozen by my father's egos which you have inside of you.
Why did I think that you could bring me love, when in fact I did not really love myself? Why did I think that you learned from your mother what love really is, when in fact my mother did not really teach me? Why did I think you learned from your father when he did not respect women, because he really did not respect himself?
I am really sorry to have put this burden on you. I am sorry that you do not realize that you do not know what love is. I know what it is not, and that is what we have been doing together. All I understand that with love there is life and life is respect and reverence for it and each other above all else.
I am sorry that I did not teach you enough by the fact that I did not love myself enough and just accommodated myself to you and your way for security. I am so insecure as I was parented that way. I am so afraid to be alone, poor, without, that I let myself fall asleep to life, thinking I was doing it for love, when in fact love had no place in it at all. I was never told of my soul and how to germinated and nurture it. If I tell you that I love you, but I do not respect myself, it means that I really fear you as I do not respect myself. I want, so I say those words for I do not know what love is. My soul needs, but I have not been conscious of it. If I accommodate you, it means I sell myself short for what I believe to be security, safety and three meals a day. I do not want to be a harlot, I became one by default of my upbringing, of not being parented and nurtured correctly.
I never knew a love that is divine to start, love from God or that universal energy. I forgot the reverence for life, my life, my offspring's life and thus your life as well. I fell into the abyss and could not find my way out. I always was awaiting a white knight to save me and those that came and got too close I chased them away out of fear, and those that did not come too close knew that I was not ready as I did not love myself. I did not set out not to love, and sometimes I believe that I really do love, but without the love of God or that universal energy, without the love for myself in the ways of respect and caring of myself, how can I say that I love. Love is conscious, love is the truth no matter what, love is unconditional. Who taught me? Who taught them and so on? Did somebody miss something somewhere?
I should have known that just because that my mother did something in a certain way, or that your father did something in a different way etc. that it did not make it right; it did not make it divine. I should have known that divine love is innate in all of us and it is up to us to live it, to be it. After all it is life.
So please forgive me for all that I have done up
to now, for my lack of respect and reverence for myself and therefore for
others. From now I will live my life based on the divine love from God, the
universal energy, respect of myself and thus for others; reverence for every
life that is. This will be done by the fact that I will be more conscious of
myself and secure in the fact that as God feeds all the non-humans, why should
I fear that he would not feed me? And what does God feed us but Love, real and
I promise to dissipate the fear that has keep me frozen with in-action; in disrespect, in 'sleep mode' to make the pain go away. I will embrace the pain that I have caused to others and myself and by really loving, divinely, consciously and respectfully, I will make restitution for all and any selfish, unconscious acts towards you.
As love is life and life is love, respect and reverence for both is of the utmost importance to all beings. If I should slip, please lend me a hand, for you are stronger than me and I do love you, even though I am only learning about it all, as Love is innate in me as a child bearer. Please work with me on all this so that we can share that road less traveled together, healing one and all, without selfish considerations, for the atonement of our souls. If you watch over me, and I you, then we are in communion with the Divine.
I know that I have a powerful energy (known as Kundalini) that you need to live your life to the fullest, and I know that you have that same powerful energy. By making our love Divine then we will have fused our energies and, by osmosis, we will become that love which we seek.
While you may have in the past miss-used and abused that energy, I apologize for not having been assertive in making sure that it is worked with and used properly. You may have felt the need to attain this energy via other means or from younger and younger females, knowing that the more innocent the energy the stronger and more powerful it can be. And I know that this type of energy does not last, for the fire is quickly extinguished when it not kept fueled with Divine love. And I know that you may have gone through one then another then another, all to no avail for it never was Divine, only egoic.
I promise you my Divine love that is
un-extinguishable; for it is based in that single spark of essence we all have
inside of us. I have learned the hard way through traumas with other males in
my life, through abuses of all kinds, from not being parented and nurtured
properly. But now I know that with Divine love all is possible and will allow
us to live life, which is love, and to love each other, which is life. I will
be stronger and just do it.
Forgive me for my unconscious re-actions, I promise that they will be no more.
Forever and ever...together
C. Casey wrote a book titled "How to make the Gods work for you", but 'ask' seems more humble and an easier route into the inner sanctum of the universal energies that make up our universe. Knock and someone will answer, ask and you will receive a reply, a gift, a miracle. Miracle, only because we do not understand it or how it works, but it does work, for everyone, no matter what the request, just be ready to hear the answer and deal with any karma you might make for yourself.
The Gods we are talking of here, are the planetary ones that oversee what is going on in each planet's energy system and the ones that have being loving us since it all began. We once knew them well, but since falling asleep, we have lost contact with them, lost touch with those energies. Each aspect of, or more to the point manifestation of our Creator, commonly known as God, has an energy that first of all is within us here and now in some shape of form, and secondly it can be awoken and used to heal us to help us and it really does love us. It really is up to each and every one of us to seek it out and find what we can do to make ourselves better and then be all that we can be.
The funny thing is that we do it every night. While our body sleeps our soul goes into the astral world to do what it must and teach us things that we need to know. Remember the soul will only allow us to deal with that which we can handle, and the mind will only believe that which we have accepted. So there is no need to worry about the unconscious part that the soul does every night. Then as we move along to a more conscious process of astral traveling such as projection and in advanced cases, at will, we need to first make sure that we are prepared. As the ego is mostly in charge of our minds, we do not necessarily understand the magnitude of what can happen, what we can influence, and the ramifications of these actions. We can help out a lot either to ourselves or those who allow us to help them, and we can also go or do things that we are not ready for as we did not do our homework first. Most of us are still in elementary school with all of this and need to study more so that we are ready for the change to high school.
Therefore, we must firstly understand our motives, (or those of the ego) and find out what we are trying to do and why. Secondly we must always state that it be 'Within Universal Karmic Harmony' for if we forget this part then we may inadvertently affect something that could have a karmic action needing to be re-balanced. Thirdly we need to have our own inner safety switch or valve that is like an escape hatch, 'just in case'. This would be something like the Lord's Prayer for protection, which may simply end up being us (our soul) protecting ourselves from ourselves (our egos). Fourthly we can ask for help in the practice from any of the entities that we believe and love that are just waiting to help us. It could be J.C. or it might be Anael prince of astral light, etc.; you choose whom you are comfortable with.
Ask for guidance in what you are trying to do and be clear about it, or they may not understand how to best help you. They are not God doing the helping, just a servant. So with clarity of mind and purity of heart, seek to envision yourself attaining your mission through them. See yourself traveling as you wish throughout the universe and understanding the gnosis of what you seek. As you start to fall asleep keep repeating to yourself that you will remember astral traveling when you wake up and keep practicing until you have it. Persistence always pays off.
Believe it or not it is right
inside of you now. It always has been, is and forever will be. You just may not
be awaken or conscious to it fully. It has been very well described that 'God
is love' at its highest level of vibration and life is living that love. So all
we need do is live love and we will be living life at its highest vibrational
level. We will be our inner soul's God, manifested. If you are skeptical, then
contemplate the following:
For x number of years you have lived the way you have, struggled the way you have and coped with the way you have. You have chosen, consciously or not to be exactly where you are. Thank yourself for you. You are O.K. in the eyes of your supreme being. You are on your path to enlightenment, when you do not forget your soul. Given that you are not seeking the Holy Grail, which is already in you and not yet awake, try vibrating at a higher level than you have. As everything we know (and don't know) is energy, it vibrates. Even egos vibrate, usually faster than our soul for they do not think per se, they just re-act, based upon some pre-conditioned programmed behavior pattern that we made over a given time line. Just remember that just because you may not believe it, it does not mean that it is not true. Consciousness has different levels and degrees.
So try vibrating. At a faster rate than you have been doing up till now and see what happens. Be conscious of God our Creator and all that has been done for us. Do not get hooked on semantics. Just try and be conscious of the vibrating. Then the lights will start to go on and while bickering of the egos may start from time to time, do not stop. Just allow yourself the joy of flowing with the universe instead of against it. Allow yourself to be part of the universe and it will allow you to be a director of it sometimes (known as synchronicity) and thus do the will of universal karmic harmony for that is within your reach, if you choose it to be so, so will it be.
As you vibrate you will raise your conscious and thus be more aware of all that you do and that you should do. You will have a closer connection with your loved ones and that itself will help you develop that deep inner part of you which is unconditional love and therefore universal God.
Love is what it is all about. Don’t ever kid yourself or let someone try to tell you otherwise. The love we are talking of is of course, unconditional in all aspects and most of all it is conscious. For how can we really love if we are not really conscious? Try by asking your spouse, friend and children what love is and you will get as many answers as there are their numerous matrix of egos. For most of us are unconscious to ourselves and thus unconscious to the other. Unconscious in the sense that we do not really know what makes them tick, only what egos we can please with this and that, or which ones we can agitate with that and this, but not as far as love goes. Pure love that is and always will be truthful and divine. They will talk of what the TV taught them or what they saw in a movie. They may talk of the spiritual side or part, but look a little confused about this. All of these answers are pre-packaged by the ego, from growing up with a conditioned cause/effect, action/reaction or stimulus/response. Where is the divinity that it really is? All the great sages, saints, teachers throughout the ages tried to teach us of love, of God, which is what love really is. For in God/love contains the totality of consciousness and life itself without the baggage of the ego weighting it down.
So as you become enlightened/conscious, your virtues transform your egoic responses into a new experience that is quite otherworldly. It becomes what is called transcendental, that is to say it transcends the ego and attains the purity of the soul in its externalization. Love to most people is what mom or dad or other adults did to us. Thus, with their pre-conditioned responses or with their own egoic situations problems etc; they taught us only what they knew and nothing more and then it was up to each of us to find the truth of love, the true meaning and feelings of love. The divinity of it and thus, yes finding God.
To many, love is what is said or felt during the physical ‘love act’ or sex. In many write-ups today we are starting to realize that in most cases the act of ‘making love’ is actually just having sex, like rutting. So we need to revisit our inner mindset and see if we cannot rectify this misunderstanding. Love has been, is and always will be the answer to everything that ails the human soul or spirit or psyche. Conscious love, without putting conditions on it like, 'if you do this or that I will love you', or worst, 'if you don’t do this or that I will not love you', which is all pure egoic garbage. Love is what made us and what propels us forward. God our creator. Love is the energy of the cosmos. Love is divine, as it is the greatest manifestation of the divine. In fact Love is what we are meant to be, God energy itself, living life as the love life for all that it can be. It is up to each and every one of us to maximize this process. It is our only real 'raison d’etre'.
Love is not sexual, as that is for procreation of the animal kingdom. Love is physical when in the greatest energy field and when with the greatest reverence and the greatest respect for each other. In other words if you and your mate profoundly find the divine depth in each other then you will have found true pure love and you will in fact start the dance of the universe. Think about it for a while. Why does having sex only give limited pleasure for a limited time and usually to only one of the two? Why does it leave you tired to want to sleep and why does it make you a little wobbly or unbalanced after or the next day. Your energy was zapped in the mating ritual of rutting. Why? Sexual energy is the energy that makes us live and grow. It also makes weak people strong and strong people weak. For it is used incorrectly. People usually have some inner ulterior motive for having sex other than for being love itself, and thus call it love to camouflage the truth. Thus we always need to make sure that we are communicating with each other, truthfully.
If you where to approach it as really being ‘making conscious pure love’ with God beside you all the way, (remember God is in you and has plans to help you be the best you can be for yourself, for God and your mate and all others) then there would be no sense of an act but of communicating with the divine, in you and in your mate. Sort of like a God making conscious love with a Goddess. Makes you wonder what you have been doing all along. Yet the worst part is that you then really realize what you have been missing, ugh. Thank God, thank you, that you have now awoken to what is really going on inside and what it will bring about is nothing less than miracles. It is said in the holy writings that when two people are of a like mind, with a common goal, having included God in their quest, then the most favorable outcome is assured. For it is the unison of the two energies, the duality of God that is at work, and with this, miracles do happen. Try it and see. With this you will find, improved relationships (you really need that first to get somewhere in trying this all out) improved health, as you will not be trying to steal or lose energy but work with it, and most of all you will be starting to be all that you can be for yourself, God and all others.
So don’t let them say what is love, or did you make love, or I love you, say it always as ‘conscious love, profound, divine, Godly, unconditional as if the cosmos is speaking’. Because in reality it is as you are the creator of your part of the cosmos. So make conscious love, not, 'have sex'.
While we were told that the mythological Gods where male and female, the happiest ones where those who where making conscious love, the ones having sex where always having problems and a lot sadder, even if seemingly more powerful. Things are not always as the appear to be…
In neuro linguistic usage, to us it reads as the CON of a TROL. You know those bad ugly guys from the fairy tales that would trip up and frighten the travelers, especially young innocent girls. As for the con, well let’s face it, it really is because it is not the truth and that is how we are fooled into it.
It has been the most problematic word and action since the beginning of time. Who controls who or who controls what? And yet when we really dig into it, we find that it is not our soul or the other person’s soul, but in fact just our little (or big) egos/sins looking for attention. We all need control in many ways, from controlling bodily movements to thoughts that allow us to do our job. There are good uses, but the complication arises when we use it in communication with other people. Try a little test by using your soul to communicate with someone that seldom does. See how they react to your action while you continue to act from your soul and not react from your egos. At some point you will get into a discussion or worst an argument and then who wins. The one with the stronger ego usually wins, unless you allow your soul to transcend the situation and step back and out of it.
We have seen over time how men control their environment and put women below them. We have seen men do the same with their families and anybody else they can, control. Men often say it is just survival of the fittest, and therefore accept that they are just like the animal kingdom. We have seen how women, controlled by men (starting with a father and maybe a brother and ending up with the mate) control their own children and not in a good way. This is the pecking order, whereby the one at the top dumps on the next one and they dump on the next and so on. Women often do this out of frustration as their mate controls them as their parents did and they have no sense of control over another and thus feel they have no control over themselves.
Control has shown itself time and time again to be tied into a lack of a mission in life. A lack of a fixed purpose and understanding of the answers, in whole or in part to, ‘Where are we from? What are we doing here? Where are we going?’ When we are focused on a mission, we know where it is we are headed and have a good understanding on how to get there. Without this we are just drifting along the journey of life living whatever people and situations have to through at us, doing it all as a reaction from our egoic mind. Thus, others who are more fixed in what they want to do can easily sway us, and we think to ourselves, ‘let me follow that person it looks interesting’. In doing so we will at some point give ourselves up to them and let them lead. As they lead they can easily have power over us and thus do end up controlling us. With our own vision of our own mission, we will be less likely to get side tracked by anyone or thing that will control us and at the same time because we are in fact focused, conscious of ourselves, it is highly unlikely that we will seek to control another for we have our peace of mind of what to do and our work cut up for ourselves. We do not need to control someone else to do it.
Without our own mission and the mini goals that go with it, we feel lost and drifting aimlessly in the sea of life with no direction, without a wheel to steer our boat. Literally out of control. So our egos set in motion to seek control of a situation in whatever manner possible, or even give it over to someone else. This then clicks on to the learned behavior patterns from the ego/sins of those that brought us up and that we just repeat. Repeat what? Control they had over us we continue to seek over others, just like the pecking order. The ego reasons subconsciously that if we cannot control ourselves, maybe and for sure like others did to us, we can do to others. So as we allowed others to do unto us, willingly or not, we seek to do unto others to give ourselves the satisfaction of controlling something or someone else. Usually that control means controlling someone else’s egos, which in life today is usually not to hard given that we are living 80% ego and maybe 20% soul. This does lead to problems of all kinds and strife of all kinds and yes it does lead to fighting and wars. The fighting can be a simple argument and the war can be simply between mates or friends, it does not have to mean world wars etc. yet it all does lead to that one way or another.
Control actually comes from our cosmic inner process. We have egos/sins within that drive us to do certain things. This drive can be viewed as our karmic penitence dealt out to us by another person as they have to put us through a test, and for ourselves it is a test to see if we can detach from the egoic strangle hold. Thus as much as we may think and believe that we are in control, the controlling is actually being done to us, by our egoic mind. That is where all of the sins reside. When our society created the phase ‘being of sound mind’ and used the so-called ‘normal’ person to make the average, they should have termed it ‘being of egoic mind’ as the egos/sins are the ones in control. So the only ones ‘being of sound mind’ are those that have worked on really understanding themselves and their egos and how they acquired them. They have been able to attain consciousness of themselves and of their egos/sins, and if not completely dissolved at least more than less, and totally under control of their soul. So we can see how the saying ‘Why are we here?, to raise our consciousness!’ rings true for all of us.
We actually give other people the control and thus the power over us. So when someone complains that so and so is controlling me; it can mean one of two things, that the other person was given permission (albeit unconscious) to control us, or that we are not in control of those things that we want to be and so strike out at the first target we can. Believe it or not it is usually a combination of both. For we usually give the control to the other hoping to gain something and then try to do the same thing with another which is just the pecking order of the egos. This works when everyone is in the same game and no one is conscious of who is doing what to whom, it just happens. But as we look at all of society around us we can see that with all the problems, disputes and unhappiness, there are more working with their egos than there are not. Thus if we could only tap into our understanding of our own egos, be conscious of them, then we could get out of this mess and at the same time, end the paying of karmic debt and penitence.
How can we really get away from the control of the tyrants (or whatever you want to call them) when they are all around us? First start by looking deep into yourself and finding out about your own issues of control. He may have had a tyrannical mother he copied from and she may have copied her dad’s. In any case you usually only need to look at your parents to start with, to see what you most likely have buried inside yourself.
The next part is that of your own spirituality. Your own God (not creator) that helps you every day get more and more connected to your soul and be all you can be. It is pure unconditional love and conscious truth. Remember you are not in a courtroom to beat out the other guy on legalities that do not require the truth at all costs; you are inside you and must give the complete conscious truth for your enlightenment. Otherwise why bother trying to figure it out when you are just going to end up lying to yourself. Lying is a sin so it is better not sin and just stay as my brother likes to say 'stupid'.
Given the fact, that all the great messiahs died one way or another for us to be forgiven of our sins, rest assured that as soon as you embrace the path, ask for forgiveness of your ‘stupidity’, you will start getting answers. It is a little bit of work and sometimes we cry over it all, but that is just one of the egos looking to take control or change our mind. The real crying is one of joy when we open up ourselves and start to see the real beauty that we have inside, warts and all. We are a manifestation of God and we can be a God (not a creator) if we so choose. Or, we can just let the control issue be a problem that we carry around just like a backpack, taking it out once in awhile, or a lot, to see what it looks like and how it feels and let it control us, because it does and not, we it. Only our soul can really control something of us for it is of God; our mind, our ego, our sins are just the penitence that we have to go through to see the real beauty and fuse with it. You are not your soul until your attain consciousness of 'It' and that means first knowing your egos/sins consciously and truthfully. As you are on the path, the journey of life, define a mission and see how much easier it is to live without the issue of control cramping your style. Ask God and JC for help, they are waiting 24/7 and the cost is free. For all the best things in life are for free, we have to pay for our egos/sins, and we know that they are not the best life has to offer.
Being what it is, karma can come to you as an ego transferred from another person when we are young, or even stranger yet, from cellular and molecular remembrance as in family lineage. Wherever it comes from, you have to become conscious of it or else you get to spend time on the wheel of Samsura going around and around, repeating the same actions and reactions to the situation at hand. It is the manner of extracting penitence for our miss-deeds now and before, yes, previous lives. We broke something so now we have to fix it, make it right, rebalance it.
But the ego loves this roller coaster ride and does not want you to get off. It just wants to continue turning and avoiding anything that maybe considered by it as 'uncomfortable'. While our soul and intuition may already sense that something is wrong or at least not quite right, we just continue to go and go without a conscious thought of what is happening. The perfect Groundhog Day movie, only we are the actor and we get to do the repeating. Thankfully we can wake up and find a way off the ride. However, first we must take stock of what is happening.
When the egos were formed in us at an early age, they set patterns for the rest of our life. We do and will repeat that which we were taught, knowingly or unknowingly for it is imprinted into our psychological song and unless we re-write the tape that is playing in our head we cannot get off the ride. To re-write the tape, we must necessarily first look at it much as a scientist would examine some object. We must ask the multitude of questions, with 'why' being the most common next question. We must look at our own psychological monsters in the eye and see what it is afraid of. Once we see it then we must come to grips on how to cut it off, that is how to stop feeding it and thus how to get us off the ride that is going nowhere but around and around.
J.C. was one of the most learned men of his time, and in many cases he was more adamant about keeping the laws than many of the ‘elder’ religious people of the time. However, one thing that is known today of his manners is that he would not accept any law or administration of it without question, especially if it interfered with the person accessing the divine. God. For he knew that it was the ego that stopped man from knowing God and it was man made things that tried to stop people from doing anything about it. How could a devoted believer of God, of a deep religious faith continue to live with another person as a couple, if the other person interfered with their attaining God? How could one person ask or demand obedience of another if it took away their religious and spiritual freedom to find God for themselves? As it is said in the Bible, any two people that agree on some common goal in unison with God in the picture will have it attained, as it is in fact a Godly process.
How can one person give up their God given right to freedom of thought and action (Godly for sure) to another who is not seeking God but seeking to control the other person or coheres them to abandoning the search? It is not acceptable or lawful in any Godly manner. To some man made ideas it might work, submission and control over the weaker, but not by God's standard. So when someone is not on the same track as you, when someone does not hold your beliefs, you are just stunting each other's growth, you are just holding each other away from what both are really looking for. Cut your losses, or you will not attain your goals this life. Unless submission to what is not godly, is your goal.
It is not an easy process to go through, for sure. The egos will fight it tooth and nail till the bitter end. Your own egos will be full of fear and give in so many times that you will have lost count, lost heart and given up on your own soul's journey to enlightenment. Ask for divine help and guidance and it will all come to pass. No problem, situation big or small is too much for the Boss. The energy of cosmos will always help those who help themselves, especially to find God. So the breakup can be viewed egoically as very frightening, or it can be viewed divinely as setting each other's soul free to find what it is looking for. Often the irony is that the egos of both people involved would rather be set free unless the fear of one is greater than the other, and in that case you have a lot of praying for divine help to have it all worked out in due time and circumstance, after paying penitence to the other that is. Just remember that when we consciously choose to stay in an un-Godly situation, we should at least protect our soul via our psyche as much as possible. It is for the love of life that we do this. And the love of life is God.
Then again many of the mystics also know that if a conscious person gives to and feeds an unconscious person, then it is there own Fate that is being pulled into the other person's karma and thus their wheel of life. Do you want to add on the other person's karma to your own ? It happens as we are not conscious to it. Wake up and then decide, consciously, if that is what you really want to do.
When you are down and you need a helping hand all you need do is call God, the Boss, Mary, Mother Kundalini and they will help you be that reflection of Jesus that you are inside and trying to emulate outside. What J.C. and the others had was the attainment of being '(bad) ego-less'. This allowed them to be themselves; pure souls without obstructive or defensive learned behavior, beliefs or thought processes. Their connection with the Universal Oneness was their being ego less, not thinking or acting or contemplating, but being. They had felt the love of everything and had the gnosis of unconditional love and unselfishness towards all energies in the universe. They focused on what they aspired to on a positive note " I am love" as oppose to saying 'I do not want fear/hate'. Both meaning the same thing in words, but the first being a proactive state of being and the second a reactive one.
They attained the gnosis of their own egos long before they were born in previous incarnations and have, do, and will continue to bring us this insight when we knock on heaven's door. When we find ourselves in times of life's turmoil, psychological strife and emotional upheaval, we need to turn to our inner guide, 'The Boss', and ask for help, love and direction. We should not try to fight the ego or actually acknowledge it, but ask for divine guidance and the gnosis of our situation at hand. These egos (dark-side) do not like it when they are exposed to the light (good-side) and want to do battle within us for domination. However, given each one of our own levels of consciousness, we may fight and win the battle but not the war over ourselves.
God said, "let there be light and there was". So let the Oneness shine on you through your supplications, requests or begging to 'let there be light on the situation', for when we understand what is going on, when we have the gnosis of a situation, then we are living in the light and doing the Boss's will, not our own (our ego's own that is). We don't have to beg for help, although it may help our emotions to deal with the situation and take us to a profoundness not yet seen in ourselves, all we need do is to ask and let 'them' answer. BE vigilant and BE open to what will come, not what you want and expect, but what will come, for it will be the truth/gnosis of that situation.
Once this process happens, you will most likely repeat it over various situations and you will find that the ego in question has less of a hold over you than you thought, all thanks (and don't forget to say thanks) to asking for help from the Oneness of the universe. The ego will then start a process of attacking, (they usually are not smart enough to set up a battle plan, although whatever your biggest one is, most certainly will) and causing mental havoc and anguish to get a better grip on you. In these times, remember your love for yourself, ask for help from the divine and please, Do Not Re-Act. Re-action, is not a action that will give you any results (other than in dangerous physical situations) for your total benefit. It is actually called 'feeding the ego'. So when you find yourself feeding the ego or it feeding itself, BUST IT. Put it under house arrest and call the ego-busters to help. Divine Oneness is always there, but you have the free will to ask for help or not. Most likely, with you reading this now, you have tried many ways over the years, and feeding the egos did not really do it for you. So try this on and ask for help and see where it takes you. Remember love conquers all and 'they' do love us unconditionally no matter which path we take.
This is not a practice, nor a part, for the faint of heart or those who have yet to at least understand their egos and how they twist and turn within us. A good place to start would be to read James Redfield the "Celestine Prophecies" for it contains, in a very interesting story format, the various processes of what energy is around us and how it all affects us. The more scientific process is that our bodies can function because of our own energy that we transform inside of from various elements that we take in.
So working backward we have our own energy, which is directed by the pineal and thyroid glands. They, in turn, control our gonads, which is the seat of where all the various elements come together in order to have our hormones functioning correctly. The gonads receive nutrients from the blood stream, which has been injected with that of food, water, air as well as thinking, without which our body is actually dead. So we are what we eat and think. For the day-to-day practical matters, we need to focus on what is going on inside our heads and what stimulus we are allowing to enter our minds. With the power, energy, of thought we can move mountains or freeze up our soul so that there is no enlightenment to be had.
Think of how animals react to different people, they sense better than us the energy of humans and can become totally happy in that energy or sometimes threatened by us. A newborn is even better example, for the child has yet to learn any conditioned responses and thus only acts from its soulful instinct. It can in fact be frightened by our energy, our Aura.
As a child growing up we move into the thinking and the
various energy levels. This can happen when one parent is kinder or more
understanding than the other who may even be mean. As we communicate and
inter-act we may find that to us one is a kinder, gentler energy for us with
means more loving and caring. When we reach the teenage years our egos are already
well formed and growing stronger all the time, each automatic reaction feeds
them and they get bigger. At some point, usually around puberty, we start to
feel the sexual energies kicking in to play. They want to procreate and boil up
our hormones. A person of the opposite sex senses this, or sees it in us and
then the mating dance begins.
This is usually a very critical point for it determines, by
setting precedent, how our sexual behavior will be. Some of us mature and some
of us do not. Thus we end up with the root cause of some life-long problems, or
we find the balance that is needed within ourselves to stay vigilant and know
who we are and what we should be doing. This type of energy is the strongest
and with it we can do the greatest good or the most evil to ourselves, and to
Sexual energy is the base to all that is in the cosmos, for without it there is no creation and the light could not produce day and the day night. So we need to really understand it and how it affects us at every level as well as to its' subtleties.
First and foremost we need to become conscious of our sexuality, which will show us our sexual energy and thus how we can best handle ourselves in various situations. Then how we can best use the energy for the love of who and what we are and not for the instant or continual gratification of a lust nature. Breathe, do your mantras, ask for divine guidance and we will find what we are all about. Be mindful of how your body responses to the vibration of the mantras and how it responds to your sexual energy when activated. This will help you tune into your inner being and as such will allow you to eventually tune into others as well.
The big break through is that we can finally clear up what it is. All of this thanks to Dr.Laura Slesinger’s tape, 'how could you do that to yourself.'
Evil is the absent of any guilty feeling by the doer, even knowing that perhaps what was done is wrong. So, if someone does wrong to another or to themselves, and does not feel any guilt, then we can call that an evil act, and thus an evil person. It goes without saying that if the person does the action and says they were not conscious of it being evil and thus that is why they do not have guilty feelings, then they are evil and unconscious, which leads to psycho-pathology.
This psycho-pathology has created in most people what is known as 'ambulatory schizophrenia'. This term was coined by Dr. Scott Peck of 'The Road Less Traveled' fame. He has tried to have it included in the American Psychological Diagnostic Test on Personality Traits and Disorders, but who wants to know that the mass of society is schizophrenic. Just because we do not believe something, does not mean that it is not true.
This trait was created by our psychological process in order to cope with our own lies, first to ourselves and then to those of others. Read his book 'People of the Lie' curing humanities crisis and you will get the full picture.
Copyright Samael Aun Weor
Ed.n. This section is for your 'enlightenment' on what 'Gnosticism' is all about.
Chapter III of the book "Esoteric Schools", 1st edition, January 1985, Barcelona, Spain.
The Gnostic Movement is the synthesis movement of the new Age of Aquarius.
The Seven Schools of Yoga are present in Gnosis, but in a synthetical and fully practical form.
There is Tantric Hatha Yoga in Maithuna (Sexual Magic). There is practical Raja Yoga in the work with the chakras; there is Gnana Yoga in the mental tasks and disciplines we have been cultivating in secret for millions of years. We have Bhakti Yoga in our prayers and rituals; Laya Yoga in meditation and breathing exercises; Samadhi (Oneness of mind) in our practical work with Maithuna and during deep meditation. We live the way of Karma Yoga in fair action, thought and feeling.
The secret science of the Sufis and dancing dervishes is present in Gnosticism, as well as the secret doctrines of Buddhism and Taoism. The Sacred Magic of the Nordics is also found here, as is the wisdom of Hermes, Buddha, Confucius, Mohammed, Quetzalcoatl, and so on. The Doctrine of Christ is Gnosis.
Jesus of Nazareth, is, in fact, the Synthetical Man. He was an Essenian who studied Hebrew knowledge; he had two rabbi masters during his childhood. Moreover, besides his profound knowledge of the Zohar, the Talmud and the Torah, he was an Egyptian Initiate, an Egyptian Mason, who studied in the Kefren pyramid. He is an Egyptian Hierophant, who also traveled to Chaldea, Persia, Europe, India and Tibet. These journeys of His were not pleasure tours, Jesus traveled for study purposes.
Secret Tibetan documents indicate that Jesus, the Great Gnostic Master, was in Lhasa, the Tibetan capital, and sacred seat of the Dalai Lama.
Jesus visited the sacred Jo Kang Cathedral in Tibet; he acquired magnificent knowledge in these countries and all those ancient Schools of Mysteries...
The Great Master handed us all that Yogic wisdom, all those Buddhist, Hermetic, Zoroastrian, Talmudic, Chaldean and Tibetan teachings in a condensed form, "digested" in His Gnosis.
Jesus did not institute the Roman Catholic Church; He established the Gnostic Church, the one that existed in the times of St. Augustine, to which belonged Geronimo, Empedocles, Saint Thomas, Marcio of Ponto, Clement of Alexandria, Tertulian, Saint Ambrose, Harpocrates and all those early priests of the Church, which, at that time, called itself the Gnostic-Catholic Church.
The Roman Catholic Church in its present form was not established by Jesus; it is a deviation or corruption; a branch detached from the Holy Gnosis; a corpse. The human race needs to return to the starting point; to return to the sacred Gnosis of Jesus the hierophant, to primitive Christianity, the Christianity of Gnosis.
Jesus Christ's teaching is the Doctrine of the Essenians, the Nazarenes, Peratisens or Perates, and so on. In the Doctrine of Jesus Christ there is essential and fundamental Yoga, Tibetan magic, Zen Buddhism, practical Buddhism, Hermetic science, and so on. In Gnosis, all ancient wisdom is fully assimilated, chewed and digested.
Jesus, the Divine Master, is the Instructor of the World. If we truly want inner Self-realization, we should study, practice, and live the path of the gnostic arhat.
The best statement of the Secret Doctrine is found in the Gnosis of Jesus Christ the Hierophant. Gnosis saves us work and study; if it weren't for the synthesis of the Christ, we would have to memorize millions of volumes and travel around the world in search of the Way.
Fortunately, however, One (Man), the Christ, has already done this; He studied in the Buddhist Jo Kang Cathedral, researching ancient Tibetan texts. Why would we need to undertake the same investigation? He has already done this and brought us the whole Yoga, the complete Secret Science under a synthetic form. What more do we want?
Our duty is to study Gnosis and to live it; this is important. That we are laughed at, attacked or slandered, what does it matter to [the] Science, or to us?
Be assured, dear reader, that the best of Yoga is in Gnosis. The best of Buddhism, of Egyptian Science, Zoroastrianism and Caldean teachings is found in Gnosis; so, what more do we want? What else are we looking for?
The Gnostic Movement is the revolutionary of the new Age of Aquarius. At present there are many reactionary, ill-timed, inconvenient individuals and many latecomers who call themselves "gnostics" and who excommunicate us because we teach the Great Arcanum, the Maithuna. They say we are involved in pansexual, sinful work. They do not want mankind to receive the key of inner Self-realization. The Secretary of the Gnostic Institutes has received letters from one of these pseudo-mystic, pseudo-gnostic individuals, who claims to practice Gnosis and Sexual Magic (Maithuna); yet he does not want this key to be delivered to the poor, sickened human race. He says people should be prepared and instructed before giving them Maithuna, etc. Nevertheless, this so-called leader contradicts himself denouncing the Gnostic Movement and the Great Arcanum to certain students, and accusing us of pornography.
Actually, this "leader" does not want other people to enter the Path of the Razor's Edge. These are the people who do not enter, and who will not allow others to enter. He knows the sexual secret, he knows Maithuna, but does not want others to know; he is committed to hiding the truth from the poor human race.
Quite frankly, we have decided to go into a battle without frontiers, a battle to the death in order to bring about the new Age of Aquarius. It makes no difference that we are criticized or betrayed. Gnosis should be delivered to the mankind whatever the consequences. Jesus taught Gnosis and we will deliver it to the human race, whatever the cost.
The Gnostic Movement presents its knowledge in a revolutionary way; it is one hundred percent revolutionary. The Gnostic Movement was formed in order to start a new era, directed by a revolutionary planet, Uranus, the planet of sexuality, of revolution in progress.
In this year of Aquarius, the Universal [Christian] Gnostic Movement must fight strongly the good battle for the new Age of Aquarius.
Each Gnostic Sanctuary should appoint a missionary, and all missionaries should commit themselves to a battle for the victory of Jesus, the Christ.
Each Gnostic Lumisial should undertake the most intense advertising for the Movement, involving leaflets, papers, invitations, lectures, books, communications via radio, TV and so on.
Whoever wants to become Christ-like should be willing to give until the last drop of blood for Christ and for the ailing human race.
The egotists, those who think only of themselves and their own progress, will never reach such a Christ-like state.
At present [N.T.: 1970], the Gnostic Movement has over four million followers throughout America. However, it needs to grow more, to become powerful, massive, and ready to transform the world for the new Age that has already come about.
Last year was terrible ... we were betrayed by a pretentious villain ... but we were victorious, we have won the battle. Now we are more powerful, stronger, more numerous; last year came to an end with complete success for the Gnostic Movement.
This year of Aquarius requires a battle to death against ignorance, fanaticism and error. It is necessary to involve ourselves intensely in the Great Work of the Father, and to bring thousands of people to our ranks. We need to strengthen the World Salvation Army.
Remember, Gnostic brothers and sisters, that the Gnosis of the Cosmic Christ synthesizes the practice of all Yogas, Lodges, orders, religions, schools, systems, and so on.
Our Great Master Jesus Christ studied this Yoga deeply, along with all of ancient wisdom. He immediately delivered his gnosticism to us - already digested, simplified to perfection and under a totally practical form.
There is Gnosticism in the Buddhist Doctrine, in Tibetan Tantric Buddhism, Japanese Zen Buddhism, Chinese Chan Buddhism, Sufism, in the dancing dervishes and in the wisdom of Egypt, Chaldea, Persia, and Pythagoras, in the Greeks, the Aztecs, the Mayans and the Incas.
Studying the Christian Gospels closely we will find Pythagorean Mathematics, the Chaldean and Babylonian parables and the formidable Buddhist ethics.
The system of teaching adopted by Jesus was that of the Essenes. Certainly, the Essenes were one hundred percent Gnostic in nature.
The Four Gospels are Gnostic, and cannot be understood without Maithuna (Sexual Magic). It is absurd to adulterate Gnosis with different teachings; the Christian Gospels forbid adultery. It is absurd to conceive Gnosis without Maithuna.
We may drink the wine of Gnosis (Divine Wisdom) in a Greek, Buddhist, Sufi, Aztec or Egyptian cup, but we should not adulterate this delicious wine with foreign doctrines.
The Gnostic Movement embodies the Practical Synthesis of Gnosis under a totally revolutionary form.
The Gnostic Movement corresponds to the zodiacal sign of Aquarius and is, thus, totally revolutionary.
Gnostic Lumisials should be esoteric academies and Temples of Solar Liturgy.
The Gnostic Rituals are really Solar Liturgy. Humans do not have, up to now, a Solar Body (Astral Body); this is a luxury for the very few. Presently, man, that is, the "intellectual animal", only possesses a Lunar Body (Molecular Body).
The intellectual animal is a slave to lunar influence. He carries the Moon in his Molecular, negative, ghost-like body. In fact, humans are presently a hybrid mix of plant and ghost.
What the intellectual animal carries within his Lunar Body is only the Legion of the Ego and the sleeping Buddhata.
The Gnostic Movement teaches Maithuna so that humans can fabricate the Solar Body. Man must break free from the Moon to be converted into a Solar Spirit.
The Gnostic Rituals identify us with the solar force. We need to fight the lunar force, to become really free. This is the aim of the Gnostic Movement.
The Moon is death, the Sun is abundant life. The Moon is materialism, drinking binges, banquets, lust, hate, greed, envy, vanity, laziness, disbelief, etc., etc.
The Sun is Fire, Wisdom, Love, Divine Spirit, Splendor, etc.
The Sun is the Cosmic Christ, the Word, the Great Word. The four Gnostic Gospels embody the Solar Drama, the Drama of the Christ.
We must live the Solar Drama; we need to become the center of this Cosmic Drama.
It doesn't matter if we are criticized, detested, hated for teaching Maithuna (Sexual Magic) for the sake of this poor, defeated, stranded human kind.
The degenerate infra-sexuals will never forgive us for advocating Supra-Sexuality.
It is truly painful to see these poor infra-sexuals in the Molecular Worlds after their death. Their lunar bodies turn them into lunar women who wander in the Molecular World like sleepwalkers, asleep, cold, unconscious.
What use would be to these poor infra-sexuals all their subjective practices? What use are to them all their Creeds, Systems, Orders, etc.? In vain will the infra-sexuals search for liberation while they despise sex and renounce Maithuna (Sexual Magic), abstaining from sex or abusing it, following the degenerate way of homosexuals, masturbators, etc.
In vain the sincerely mistaken will try to create the Solar Bodies practicing breathing exercises, Yoga without Maithuna, other exercises or vegetarian diets.
It is totally demonstrated that we were born from sex and that only through sex one can create.
In fact, only through sex we can engender the Solar Bodies. Only the wonderful force of the Third Logos can turn us into Solar Spirits.
We want to teach mankind the Solar Religion. We want to hand over to these lunar ghosts the Solar Doctrine of the Cosmic Christ, with the sole objective that man can Christify himself.
It is urgent that the Christ be born within the heart of Man. Each human being must be turned into a Solar Angel.
The Gnostic Movement has a titanic task in the Age of Aquarius, which we have just entered. We have the Sacred Mission of teaching this poor human race the Doctrine of the Solar Logos.
We should fight to the death to make the Gnostic Movement more and more powerful. This Movement must become Omnipotent for the sake of so many millions of humans who are on their way to the Second Death. We must be compassionate and hand over to Mankind the Solar Doctrine, whatever the cost.
God created the world and all that is in it…but what is with all the egos and sins? Why? Why? Why?
Bill Gates created mass computing and all that it allows us to do…but what is with all the viruses? Why? Why? Why?
Did God create the sins/egos?????
Did Bill Gates create the viruses?????
Interesting paradox given that in all esoteric studies we learn that the Gnosis of the cosmos is 'as it is above, so it is below', sort of the duality of 'good-bad' 'up-down', God in heaven God in us…Bill Gates computing, we are computing.
Put it into perspective; the human machine is really a massive highly advanced computer system that is has one extra thing, God and the soul essence. Our brain is the central processing unit, calculating massive amounts of data per Nan-no second throughout the hardware, our body. The Taoist call the organs the software as it has writings from the planets. The PC is the same thing processing mass amounts throughout.
Both are only as smart as the user. Both can be foolish depending on the reason for using it. Both can receive garbage in so naturally garbage out. Both need to have maintenance done once in awhile and of course the CPU must be upgraded regularly as the brain must be cleaned out of old stuff or it does not evolve.
So along comes the sins that sit inside the egos waiting for a chance to muck up the system. Along comes some viruses that if not caught in time muck up the system.
So what is it that allows this to happen? Problems where not created in order to live and run our lives, we created problems based on too much focus on our being God and not allowing our God within to be conscious, unselfish, unconditionally loving and thus too egotistical. Bad or evil as they call it is just the disorder of the order that we should be living as and under.
So as we decided that we are God without being Godly, we started to create our inner sin network of what psychologists call egos. We take it from the Id, Ego and Superego to the egos of Desire, Bad-Will, Fear, of Anger, Envy, Pride, Greed, Lust, Gluttony, Sloth or the seven deadly sins for they corrupt our environment just as viruses corrupt the computers environment. We will most likely find that upon tracking a virus maker and analyzing them, their internal mechanism has been corrupted by some ego(s) or sin(s).
Narcissism being what it is, ones egos will take control over the system (as a virus does) and will created havoc, problems and some type of destruction. They do this for the want of the materialism of the world, which is the activator and catalyst, and the fuel that propels it. The virus is less damaging as it will only follow its' program. Then again, as we have our own unique genetic programming, can the ego manipulate the codes to its' advantage once inside, sort of like the super-bugs of late, re-writing code and taking over the system?
But what is there to do about all of this???
Well as with the anti-viruses, we first need to stop the bug from entering the system. In the case of humans we need to stop feeding the ego or sin by being virtuous and conscious of what is happening within ourselves. We need to stop all images, thoughts and contemplate the gnosis of them. Then we need to find their origins and completely understand how they where created if we are going to be successful in deconstructing them. Be sure at least that they do not to file themselves away somewhere and hide thus leaving us out of the light. If we love ourselves consciously enough and with the belief in a higher energy than us, we will be able to enlighten ourselves and continuously fix and upgrade ourselves, just like the monthly anti-virus upgrades do.
The higher energy has many names, symbols and manifestations, but on the top of it all is the infamous 'conscious love', Godly and unconditional. Without this love we have a chaotic environment as the world is now and we have no support for our CPU and internal systems that allow for evolution. If we all work in harmonious conscious love, then we will be able to spot the narcissistic ego before it enters the system. We will then be able to activate the anti-virus that can bring about a cure for what is already inside and for what new things are trying to get in as well.
In essence God did not make sins/egos just as Bill Gates did not make viruses. We did with our own narcissistic ways and thoughts.
We are lazy and not diligent.
We are gluttons and have not temperance.
We are lustful of a lot of things and not chaste.
We are greedy and not unselfish.
We are proud and not humble.
We are envious and not altruistic.
We are angry and not loving.
And we live:
Desire instead of aspirations.
Bad-will instead of strength.
And most of all,
Fear instead of courage.
Thank God for all the love, and thank Bill for making a system that helps us better understand our own inner workings, and thus helps us attain consciousness and with the grace of God, enlightenment. One thing for sure the Internet sure does pick up where the churches all ran short.
How can you (heal old wounds) when you do not know where they have come from or why they still haunt you or your spouse? Simple. Figure it out. Find out what the core of the problem is and you can work on it and make it better. Be careful, as we all have the wounded inner child to some degree or another, and unless the child is analyzed and understood from the egoic point of spirituality then we cannot really work on the healing.
If you have issues that lay unresolved from your past with roots to your childhood, you can be sure that it will affect your couple at some time or another. If your spouse has some issues and even if you cleared and cleaned yours up, you can be sure that it will affect to couple. For old wounds are un-listened to egos that want to be heard and are trying to find a way to get attention. They need an audience to listen to them lament and then someone needs to dissolve them into consciousness. That someone is you. You are the only one (with the help of the energies and God) that can start the healing process.
But first you need to know that you have a loved one helping you and understanding what you are going through and working with you. The combined energies of two loving souls can move mountains, for it is said that any two people working on a common goal with the help of God shall succeed as it is the will of God that they do. If you go it alone, if your spouse is not there to help you or ignores the problem you face, then you will very likely resent them at some point, especially when the work or psychoanalysis gets deep and heavy, as you are in fact extracting an ego that does not want to be extracted.
Healing is a loving process of working with divine energy (God) and can bring miracles to your life, but without a supportive loving person helping you, the process can be longer and in most cases more difficult, for many wounds are so deep that it takes a lot to heal them. If your wound is in fact something from the couple, then at least be sure that you have some divine intervention helping you both out and being on the same wavelength, you can both help each other get over it. For there is nothing that unconditional pure divine love cannot conquer. The universe wants to help and it is just waiting to be asked by both parties.
Not unlike instinct, intuition is innate in every being that thinks. It is a faculty that is more active in females than males due to their instinctual mothering nature. Yet, it is a faculty that can be and should be developed by males as well. To work on this area of our being, we need to work on our egos and keep them in check, as they like to try and control whatever aspects of our mind that they can get their hands on. Ideally we need to dissolve them so that they are no longer a reactionary part of our being and have been replaced by the corresponding virtue. Your intuitive nature comes from deep within and is connected directly to your soul and is in fact your consciousness at work. However, with the multitude of reactionary egos inside of us, we need to be very careful as to weather it is our intuition or our soul talking, the ego can play games with all things.
To strengthen this faculty we need to meditate on who we are and what life is for us and how we process our thoughts. When we arrive at understanding ourselves, we arrive at that inner sanctum that allows us the peace of mind and the flow through of Universal energies that are all around us. By calming the mind we allow that energy to speak to us without the ego intercepting the flow and interpreting it its' way. We in essence become that energy and thus know what is really happening and thus we know the meaning intuitively. To test what we feel, ask the question what would pure love think or do about the thought! How do you feel about what you are thinking? Does it naturally feel right as if it just is, no more no less?
Intuition can help us a lot when we are awakening our conscious and dealing with those around us who do not want us to change, who do not want to see us grow. We can sense and thus prevent a lot of uneasy situations as well as deal with it all and thus even help the other person better understand who they are.
What and how is the Evil in us and how is it transmitted from generation to generation…
In psychology we know that we all have egos. Some say good ones and others say bad ones. Thus the duality of whom we are and how we can be the duality that we are. You cannot know good if you think there is no evil for how can one be without the other. This is a paradox that just keeps cropping up and up. Just as we cannot understand hot if there is no cold, love if there is no hate, one is the opposite of the other. Thus we can find and understand evil once we know and understand God and not the other way around as most of society teaches us and focuses on the bad. Don’t do this don’t do that. How about, be divine, be Godly, be loving and thus you give fewer chances for the other side. Although by this alone, evil will not just go away, you will be able to see and feel love and then find courage. Courage is found in the Love that is conscious, truthful and unconditional.
One of the early Popes wrote out the seven deadly sins based upon biblical texts and life up to that time, what we do not know is why those ones and how come they are so exact, even today. Today we have come to understand that the sins are in fact externalization of the egos that sit in wait in our head to buy us and sometimes drive us crazy. Think about the way you re-act to any given situation and you will have found the effect of what a original egoic cause did to you. This is the law of cause and effect, which governs us weather we like it or not.
Ex. You are a child (just about all development of egos is in the early years up to say 8 years old) and you want to go out to play and your parents say no. You keep asking and the more you ask the louder the no gets, until they scream at you NO which puts fear into you. You start to cry and they get angry and you cry more and they get angrier. All of this being a cause and effect, action reaction process going on. Parental ego says no, your ego cries, their ego throws out fear to control you and the rest of your life when someone says NO in that same tone, you become fearful. Now take that example and use it with any of the sins or egos and you start to see that you developed a program that has stayed with you since childhood. It became your psychological song. So now run down the list of fears and see what you can remember from when they first hit you and who was doing it to you as that child. Was it that infamous, 'The other guy'. Why?
Because they learned the same pattern as you did from the adults in their life and can only teach you what they know and have no way of teaching you what they do not know. Later we say to ourselves that we will not be like our parents on this or that aspect, yet we really do become just like them unless we make a radical change or transformation. For the apple does not fall far from the tree. We think that all those things that we did 'covertly' from our children, (be it psychological or sexual in nature) were not picked up by them, but if we can envision our own childhood we will remember that we picked up on things that they (the caregiver parents) did not realize that we did. Just look around you and your friends that are in their 20-30-40s etc. and see if their parents are not like them in many ways, especially the egoic ones. For they learned erroneously from their parents and unless someone helped them change the pattern, it stayed put. Each ego needs to be fed so when we create a pattern inside ourselves it seeks to repeat and repeat itself (like in the movie 'Ground Hog Day') until we wake up to what is going on and become conscious to what is really controlling our re-actions, that is to say what is the effect from the cause. So we think that we are in control of things when in fact all we do is re-act as we where taught at an early age. Just maybe some evil things were coming towards us then and we didn't know it, heck, we still don't know it now. As the wise-ones say ‘We do not know that we do not know’ and they are not kidding.
Given these negative, these erroneously learned patterns, the bad egos; how can evil not be fed through all of this process. It is quite simple for evil to be and get fed, for all of us live with psychological injury(s) or prejudice(s) from a young age, and who is there to help us stop it. Yes all that is Godly and divine, but how are they really helping if we have lapses, do not see them enough or do not re-write the script in our head that keeps going around and around. If we do not actively work on acknowledging them daily, they are powerless, as we have kept them out. So without the divine in our minds constantly, we fall back to what we where doing before, feeding the ego. Sort of like it takes over by default when we are not vigilant, on guard, conscious of what we are doing or saying and why. If we do not consciously choose to change something, then it stays the same forever. Well almost forever, you see with our own divine inner compass we slowly begin to works things out to help ourselves even though we are not really conscious of it. That is Gods plan for us all. Then again, if we are innately feeding the ego, the bad, the evil in us, we don’t get a chance to live our divinity our Godliness. So why do we keep feeding it?
Narcissism is a funny word that seems to be so powerful and frightening, but not to those who suffer under it. For within it lays the evolutionary process of us all now living the evil that is around and controlling us. Those that suffer from it are completely oblivious to it and when you bring it up to them, that is where you really start to see how it works inside of them, denial becomes the first step, then when agitated a defensive egos kick in. But most of all we can see it from their greed, selfishness etc, all of the things that a conscious, sharing and unselfish person is not.
The dictionary describes narcissism as: self-love, exaggerated concern with the self; lack of concern for others; associated with genital excitation; one is willing to renounce other satisfactions if rewards of affection are promised; immature relationship to life; exaggerated underestimation of oneself; inadequacy and self-accusation; ego growing stronger attempts to obtain possession of the object it seeks and force itself; but mostly seen as having a number of the following traits:
Visions of grandeur
Power over others
Lack of Empathy and Emotions
Vanity / Arrogance
(Better still; search the 'internet' for the explanations, definitions on what it is and how it is viewed psychologically).
Look back at all those not nice, not good things that happened in your life and try to see if one of the above explanations could describe what was happening. If you use more of your intuition and less of the mind to grasp it all then you should see the clear Godly truth shinning through. But if evil perpetuates itself, feeds itself, then how does it? You just saw how you where affected by some adult doing something to you at some point, then the natural conclusion is that of evil perpetuating itself. To test it just ask yourself 'Do you not remember any similar thing during your lifetime that fits into this, being done by you'? Look for the thing you hate most in others and you will find your own ego (bad sin) behind it all. If you turn it around, then evil becomes live and that is what we are suppose to strive to do. Yet we must dissolve the ego in order to really live or we stay frozen in the fear etc. and thus stop living, loving, expanding and knowing the gnosis of ourselves.
With this general understanding is that the ego picks up bad patterns, and without our divinity we fall into the cycle of reacting, to the causes we learned at a young age, and that our parents taught us just as they had learned at a young age. Unless we consciously want to change and work hard to change, change does not happen.
As part of the baby-boom generation I can attest to the fact that we all wanted things to improve and wanted peace and love to be extolled from all around the world. But what happened and why? Enter the egos of narcissism. What most of us said was that we did not want to be like our parents and raping the world of its truth and beauty. But once we all got into playing unconsciously with the sexual energies (remember free love with every and any one) we froze our psyche at the second lowest vibration-al level. Then we went into the work/money force and really started to live or so we thought. But without our Godliness, without the divine intervention, without our souls consciousness we just ended up feeding our egos.
We learned that we needed to take care of ourselves and get the best of everything that we could even if we stepped on our brother/sister to do so. We did not feel over empathetic or sympathetic to them, to our planet and we repeated what our parents did to us with our own children.
Have you ever contemplate the fact that some people for various reasons should not have had children? I am sure that being honest with yourself you will see something narcissistic behind the various reasons. Honestly we did not feel nor live many virtues (opposite to sin) but loved living the ego/sins and what it could bring us. With the number of baby-boomers it was sure to be a mass perpetuation of evil. Even today with the many things that can be done, what is the most prevalent is that which feeds narcissistic tendencies. Just look around, and what do we see; the problems, power struggles over who will dominate whom. Knowledge is power and as gnosis is knowledge you can see that all things can be used for a dual purpose when you have that knowledge as you can control another or fix your own problems. But with all the selfishness and lack of empathy, where have the virtues of caring and sharing with tender love gone? Just look in the hospitals, old age homes and the like. We don’t have time nor want to care for the elders of our tribes. Let someone else do it and we will show up once in awhile to 'make it look good'.
It is conditional love for if you do this for me then I will do that for you. It is the song all egos sing when they find an ego-mate. Someone that each can share and fight for the control of the egos over, as in a marriage, as most marriages are not built on divine love, but on what is known as 'narcissistic sources of food supply'. That way you can have them feed your egos when you lack the nourishment your ego requires. Self-importance and grandeur go hand in hand so why should I do some lower level thing when I can buy/force (my food supply) do it. I am too important to stoop down to the level of the commoner. I am too special.
This is quite true as all egos / sins are quite special. Aberrant behavior is everywhere today as our Godliness has lost it’s footing as the seat of our soul. We have very little reverence for life and revere only what the dollar can buy us. The bumper sticker of the baby-boomers reads ‘It is not how you play the game, but how many toys you have when you die’. So who cares about whom? God who is love, who is life, does. If we are not living life as in live then we are in the opposite mode dying as in evil.
Well the main point seems to be, that we left God at the rest stop and kept on driving without his energy or even thoughts of God. While it is still and will always be in us we simply stopped contacting it and using it daily, each hour, each minute. We are not conscious. We are sleepwalking like 'Ground Hog Day' and don’t care to know that this is what we are doing. We are the living dead as talked of so often in the bible. We do not love ourselves in the divine sense but in the egoic one, which leads to too many people loving their 'self' too much and this is just feeding narcissism.
Go back to the time of J.C. and you will see an unfolding of it all. At that time he was extolling the truth of One God, One Law of Life - Love- unconditional, unselfish and universal in its divine dance as it was pure truthful and lack of ego. Then the bad guys got a hold of him and put him to death. Later we are told it was to forgive man’s sins in front of God, a kind of a mass absolution. So as we pray to him that the sins get wiped away. Which when taken textually and psychologically is true. However as the elders of the time saw a way to control the masses with yet another process, they went gusto on it. They managed to manipulate what he was saying into what they needed in order to have power over us. The did not want him really telling the truth to everyone out there. And, even to this day they do not like the writings of Nag Hammadi so they kept it all out of the bible(s). Thus we enter the age of organized religion for the power of the elders.
Their thinking went something like, we want to control the masses and this new religion, which with a built in martyr it can do it for us. They needed to put something between the masses and God so they could get a cut and ultimate control over us. Like going to a carnival and you have to pay to see what is inside.
Even today you have to pay but they have hid the price in so many ways. Thus creating organized religion with its’ hierarchy did the trick. So far so good as a process of evil did not play that great a role. Just narcissistic people wanting control, power, and the money it could bring, without empathy for the masses. So not evil in itself, as they were doing it for the good of everyone, yet with their own selfish desires attached to it all.
This is one of the things that Jesus talked a lot about how the elders would be the power over us. The next stage we see is the good people of the cloth (monks missionaries nuns) doing good for all people while the power monger or narcissistic ones (the hierarchy) tightened the controls and the laws for the masses to abide by. Laws on top of laws on top of laws, which Jesus was so against within spirituality. Ever wonder why the legal system does not say the 'Truth at all Costs' but instead uses the 'Best Defense' you can afford. Its’ base is right here.
Hierarchy control, which maybe an important process for many things, but not where God is concerned. There is no one that can come between the Boss and you. Your soul knows that and your soul knows good from evil when it is conscious of the truth. But, try telling that to someone who is narcissistic and they will tell you that you are nuts. Of course they have to say that in order to protect there nourishment for the narcissistic ego, otherwise they get mad and some do go nuts. Control freaks need control and power over others. They need that to steal the energy of the others in order to use it against the other and anyone else they deem necessary, yet defending as they are oblivious as they do not know who they really are.
In the next wave of narcissism came the present government system, with all their multitude of levels, laws, waste and lack of moral empathy for us human beings. They do a somewhat good job for the masses of people who are unconscious and cannot follow the inner workings of themselves let alone a hierarchy system. Just read the papers, watch the news, and follow the mass of TV programs, all tailor made to keep up asleep. For they that run the system knowing what they know and acting as they do, weather it is a dictatorial regime or a so-called democratic society, are all made up of people with narcissistic traits.
This is professionals and anyone with a financial interest in business that can directly or indirectly profit from what is happening. So at this point we see that it is not the money that is the problem but the people using it. Like they say, guns do not shoot people, people shoot people. Money does not feed the ego, people and what they do, think of, feeds the egos.
So now we are stuck with a narcissistic control system all around us, from the organized religions, to governments, schools, work life and then finally to our own families. For how can a person be narcissistic if not learned from the family unit, the parent(s) and supported by the cast of sleep walking people who cannot standup for themselves nor have the courage to give it all over to God? (Not the evangelist or gurus, but the Boss him/herself/Love, when they do not yet love themselves).
The lack of love for themselves comes from all the egos / sins that where injected into them as a child and as they grew up. They did not develop a healthy 'self-esteem', yet knew people who have a narcissistic one that controls theirs’. They did not develop a healthy solid reverence for God but knew someone that could help them find God, connect to God, for a price. They did not have the chance to have real divine unselfish love, Godly in every way but they knew someone that could make them believe that they are it, if they follow their ways, do their bidding, heed their call. The perplexing problem of this for all of us is, why getting older did we not grow, expand and fix the problems in us? Easily understood when we know that a narcissistic system needs its narcissistic nourishment from those it can control and keep as its’ submissive energy as feed and this is done in so many ways that it takes a psychologist to weed it all out. So become your own psychologist and start weeding, don’t be afraid to ask for qualified help when you need it. Your soul is counting on it.
Ever wonder what it would be like if only 20% where. No wars to fight over who controls who, no weapons to kill who is killing whom, crime down to a minimum with the truth as the paramount process, and of course minimal sexual, physical, and verbal abuse. Sounds like a lot less narcissistic stuff going on does it not. Why? Because, of the need of feeding the ego of narcissism, they control us and they order us as to what or what not to do.
They give us the news, give us the money issues and most abhorrent of all, they give us sex and its' abuses, thus not erotica of some lost thought of poetry, but pornography. Not nudie pictures but sleazy stuff, from child to snuff. Free speech for the un-Godly as they are at the center of everything and the Boss is not real to them. If God was real to them then they would be looking for help to unload their problems of control, aggression and lack of empathy for their fellow human beings.
A bad soul is what it comes down to, lack of guilt for what they do and lack of consciousness with lack of aspirations to be conscious. To say that it is because of power is an understatement, they really think that they are God and don't have room for another one.
So they are evil and they may or may not know this, but being narcissistic and getting fed is all that counts for them. How? The use of sexual energy by man up to now; women are getting into the swing of it but up to now it seems that they are mostly just emulating men, for the power. What happened to empowerment? Insecurity. It still is a man’s world and he brings her false security, which she will sell herself for as she 'thinks' (with her egoic mind) that she has no other choice. We all have free will and do as we want, so when we are asked why we choose the bad over the good, we can defend ourselves with free will. Maybe our karma will not be so tough the next time around!
Most people are aware that matter/energy (as in sexual) cannot be created nor destroyed only transformed. With this transformation process we can use it for whatever we focus ourselves on from helping a person to being a dictator. In the days before sexual differences, men and women did all things together, hunted, fought and made a home. Once man realized that it took a male animal to make the baby animals he gained knowledge and then power over the women. While societies that revered mother earth where not narcissistic, those that did not developed it and helped to perpetuate evil, as we know it today.
Even with all the messiahs, even with all the Saints, male or female, we still have not learned to be ego-less, to be without the narcissistic process of power over the other, to sense the guilt when we do something bad, to seek forgiveness for our trespasses and in general, listen to and try to emulate the energy of those who tried to teach us. So evil survives and thrives.
Man developed a strong attraction to sex as the power base for his feeling good, feeling strong and invincible. Yet he did not transmute that energy to a higher level of vibration within himself, for an awakening, it was just for a power over the others. The Tibetans taught sacred divine Tantric Yoga Sex and man just found a way to exploit it to further his own narcissistic feedings. Buddha taught transmutation of sexual energies, and the gurus knew how to capitalize on it, by setting up Tantric brothels. J.C. taught loving feelings and caring which women wanted and man learned how to use as abuse over her. All so that he could feed his narcissistic egos. He was the center of the universe and no one was going to displace him from it. Live free or die, is his battle cry, which is o.k. if it is live free of egos and getting better, or give up and throw in the towel. Better a dead narcissus ego than a live one. So what happened and how can we fix it?
Maybe it should be something like the female side good and male side evil, or maybe it should be the female side feeding and the male side eating, for that is about the reality of how things are right now in the world. Why?
Man became to realize that he wanted all of the sexual energy he could get. When his wife could not feed him the way he wanted her to he found a lover, then another, then he went younger as they where easier to manipulate, as he got older and wiser. Then he found out, that it is the really young ones, teens, totally innocent of all contaminations of life that he wanted, to take her energy, be the first one to feed off of her innocence. He was not against doing the same with young boys who knew not of sexuality, as they nourished him the same way. Besides the older ones were wiser and aware of his tricks. And all of those that he contaminated with his ways taught their own children that it was acceptable, the way things are done. Remember you cannot teach what you do not know nor can you learn what you will not accept after any abuse/trauma. Thus the ego becomes evil for it has now been tainted and traumatized. With more than 50% of North American children abused in some form or another, how could it be otherwise? You learn and you repeat unless you change your way of thinking.
Women have always been the sexual energy force that the men went after. Their innocence was pure untainted sexual energy that was actually looking for sensuality. They gave their sexuality to the man in exchange for his sensuality. But being the center of his universe as a narcissus he kept it all for himself and just kept on feeding. She was insecure as society showed him to be the provider and she the nurturer, so she could not stop feeding him what he wanted for himself and not for the good of the whole, just for his selfishness. If she changes something in the mix, then he will look elsewhere to be fed or feed on her by aggression. Thus the abuse we see all around us. So she learned that the sensuality she sought was the sexuality he wanted.
Her insecurity created by the man’s world is assuredly going to keep her there unless she changes her way of thinking and mostly, unless she re-connects to the divine in herself. When we are conscious we recognize what is good and what is bad. That is the starting point for changes deep within ourselves. His aggressiveness needs to be put through the psychotherapy process in order to be corrected and she needs to feel secure of herself and what she can do with divine help.
So, yes, evil exists, it is all around us every day and unless we choose to change our way of thinking with divine guidance and the Love of God, which is life, it will not dissipate. Only your divine soul can make it happen, but with it being bottled up by the egos / sins of the mind, what chance does it have, so please free your soul from the grips of the ego. Yes, you are God and with all of that which is around us, make up the universal consciousness that we all look for outside of ourselves, yet it is inside. When they said 'know yourself and you will know God', they really meant it literally. For without your psychological process how can you attain your Godliness and thus free your soul from the narcissistic process that seems to have the hold on everyone and everything. Start by repeating in the mirror each morning the beautiful words from India “Namaste” “Namaste” “Namaste”. God will bless you; that you can count on.
Why does self-centeredness still propagate itself today? How is it done? How is it possible in a so-called evolved mankind? And most of all, how do we make it right?
When we were the cave man our brains, functioning and values were no better than that of the animal kingdom, survival of the fittest. As we evolved we shared most things with those around us and the women partook in all things with the men, until 'husbandry' (mating of domesticated animals), as we did not understand how copulation worked. But, once man figured out that it took the male to impregnate the female, he just took over all the control he could muster and placed the women in the receiving role, and thus the main nurturer of offspring. He went hunting to feed the family with food other than what the farm animals provided or what the female grew in the garden.
With the onset of more inventions to help out the work, man started to have more 'thinking time' and started to be his own philosopher. As he was right with the breeding of farm animals it stood to reason that he was right in thought. He was stronger than she as she become more and more domesticated and stayed with the children. His ideas of himself grew more and more egoic, I am strong, I am smart, I am right. He started to do more and more things that were pleasing to him and for his own interests, like sex of course. God was some abstract thing that even today most people believe is outside of them and only revered at the religious mass. He had it all worked out and no one could tell him otherwise. Even if they did, when he got home he was still controlling that environment. So at work and play if someone was stronger than he or controlled him, he would get revenge at home.
She was dumped with all the child rearing work and house stuff so when he came home she did not have the energy to debate with him and if she put up a fuss he would take it out on her or the children. Thus she would go into a defensive mode to protect the children. Sort of like the male animals that try to eat the young so the female protects them. From this he would develop and strengthen his self-centeredness that would be part and parcel of most families, even today.
Narcissism is what it is called and it really is part of our early childhood growth process from a psychological point of view. We need to overcome this stage and move on and grow into sharing for all, knowing that we are not the omni potent one, but that God is. Unfortunately, with just over half of mankind believing in God and a lot of this is in some mixed up way (just in case), we are on a clear descent to nowhere. The road to hell is paved with good intentions, meaning that we think with our egoic mind that we are right and therefore do not look for God, saying that he is all around us and will take care of us, saying see I am right and if there was a God why does he let this or that happen, it does not make sense.
Of course it does when we know God as total unconditional truthful conscious love. We managed to figure out 'husbandry' so we should be able to see and be with that one thing that is everywhere. Yet we are still narcissist and thus negating God and the real energy, the real Power.
Man likes to think that the power is of his doing and under his control or at least he keeps working to control it. Yet how can a egoic mind living its' own process of sins and the wheel of Samsura be 'Power'. It may end up being in control over others, over this and that, yet it is not even in real control over the person's own being as the egos/sins have that one worked out, locked in place and playing its' game. Fate has the real control and we just refuse to understand it. It is part of our lives, just as God is and we just insist on ignoring it all.
So man goes and has a family, then being the head of the house etc. controls his family to the nth degree, from where they live (with minimal justified reasons) to what they will think and say. Just as he went out to find food for them before, he has now setup a way to have his own narcissist food supply at his fingertips. While he works in a more and more competitive world, he smiles, tows the line and fits into where the stronger one has control over him. He then goes home and repeats the same actions done to him, to the family. So as he is controlled by a self-centered boss he controls the family. He is the boss and everyone must do his deeds and beckoning. By injecting his way onto his mate, she has taken on the attitude that he is somehow, somewhat, better, stronger and to be accommodated, even if it is just to protect the children from his ranting etc. He controls her and thus the children.
As the children grow, and have been learning by copying those nurturing them, they become just like dad and mom. When they try to think for themselves and be all that their little hearts and souls are trying to be, they are quickly put in their place, 'children are to be seen not heard etc'. As their own psychological growth via nurturing is being distorted and not flowed through properly, they end up completely controlled by the parents. Should they be insubordinate then things like 'God will punish you for that' (thus making God a wrathful one and not Love), 'good children don't do that' (guilt), and 'what would the neighbors say' (guilty-fear) will be thrown at them to bring them under control. Added onto these fear statements is any other manner that the parental ego can come up with.
The parents egos, remember, were built based upon what their own parents did to them. The children go through 'abuses', 'traumas' without ever knowing it (although sometimes at mid-life they have crisis over it all) and with no one around to guide them, to nurture them, they stagnate in their psychological growth and the ego takes over in a form of survival in a hostile world. The ego seeks control in the chaos and to make sense of things by controlling. When God has been well extolled in the family as the total unconditional conscious love It is, then these problems are not seen, at least to a much less degree.
So Dad has a full control over the family with his various egos, usually with anger the strongest and Mom has it (in the pecking order) with fear and guilt of this and that. As Dad usually has a lot of desires of this and that; (for the family he says with it being actually for his own narcissist needs, as the family needs God and he is not extolling it daily or in a way to propagate unconditional conscious love, besides he usually believes he is God or a close copy and given God is not here in body he will do the job) he instills the ego/sin of desire into the family and controls it that way. They need him to get what they want, they depend on him for all things, they are not taught to hunt for themselves but to do his bidding so he can get what he wants and continuously have control over them, even into adulthood.
Problems arise at mid-life for the children when they start to realize that they are not happy and cannot figure out what is wrong, as Dad the copy of God here and now cannot be wrong, for if he is, then the morals, beliefs etc taught by him are wrong. The super-ego will not allow that to happen, unless there is something to replace it. If they are taught enough to make most of their own decisions then they would have taken the good stuff and let go of the bad, unfortunately between Dad/Mom and the society/culture they were told the parents know best.
Mom has been working with guilt on the children and if not guilt then fear with 'wait until your father gets home'. She has been protecting the children from the Dad until the children sort of rebel against her and as she loses control over them, and as she never had control over the Dad (unless she had learned to manipulate with the withholding of sex) she seeks her manner of getting it back. So as her mom taught her and she has seen with others, out comes the guilt. Using societies morals and whatever she can think of she does against her own offspring, what was done against her, who then become accommodating to her, not wanting to hurt her feelings etc. and thus subservient to others, via guilt and when needed fear, just like Dad's anger. There is also a myriad of other 'symptoms' that mom uses to control the offspring or any other children that may fall under her influence, symptoms that she created in herself from her own egos.
So the emotion-less Dad (towards the soul full needs of the children and mate) has his supply of narcissist reverence towards him and he uses all manners of reward for their paying him homage (actually for putting up with his ways, but this is unconscious as is most of the stuff) from praises of this and that, after yelling at them, to this most widely one used by us North Americans, money. Money was what he was after in order to get the gratification he wanted (feed his narcissist wants) and giving it at times like this, the children appease themselves with something different and do not think about what precipitated all of this. He buys their loyalty and they having been given money, even after something so called bad that they did, are reinforced to pleasing their own egos and forgiving anything Dad did. Mom does the same thing of course, but usually it is with other than a monetary exchange, it could be allowing this or that to be done. So now we equate money to control over the other by appeasing their egos.
With all this stuff going on from the self-centeredness of Dad, Mom and children, who has time for God? Besides where is God? Oh well, when he comes we will pay attention at that point. After all we are good people, doing good things and not hurting anyone.
Yet, when we look at the family unit of this narcissus we see that they will in turn go out and have their own offspring and thus raise them in the same manner. They lacked proper nurturing, so will their children. They lacked unconditional conscious love just as their children will. We cannot give to our children that which we did not receive but we can give them whatever we did receive, no matter where it came from. So if our parent's egos/sins are transferred to us, then we will transfer them to ours. If we where shown narcissism and control, then we will transfer it to our children. All of this is fact, unless a miracle happens, and they do happen, but in the meantime narcissism just keeps growing and getting worst.
If we can see that something is wrong between how we were indoctrinated and how God that totally unconditionally conscious loving energy works, then we have a chance to rise above the present chaos of our egos and start to work in earnest on what is happening. It maybe only at the mid-life crisis or when a friend keeps bugging us and reminding us that something is wrong with us and or the family. If that friend really loves us just as the Love of God would be here and now, and if we have not expelled that person from our lives as they affected our own narcissism, then with that loving feeling we have a chance to go inside and dig around.
Looking back over time we come to realize some of the danger signs that narcissism is at work:
Self-centeredness of the elder (even if masked by 'I am doing this for the family' which actually means that I am doing this to have control over my family for it is a dictatorship and not a democracy) is quite evident from the problems of society and the hierarchy process.
There were signs of grandiose self-importance commonly known a bragging and much exaggerated.
They are special and somehow unique, thus only understood by the same type which usually means the family, as they were trained to pay homage and outsiders were not and of course do not understand our special situation. Besides by keeping it all in the family, the secrets are safe. The joint encouragement means that any outside influence could never succeed in helping, and all outsiders are not welcomed unless they tow the line, give up their freedom and control to the head narcissist.
They required a lot of attention, admiration and often would pay to get it, one way or another. The head always had the sense that they were entitled to what they could get out of the family, after all it is their family and no one would tell them otherwise on any issue.
They often showed envy (especially in the money department) and would suggest that others were envious of them. This is often how an ego works, seeing in others what we really have inside of ourselves, thus in fact they were envious of others and what they had, thus the infamous 'keeping up with the Joneses'.
This would lead them all to showing degrees of haughtiness and arrogance.
Remember that by now the children are also demonstrating most of these signs, especially envy and arrogance. They took advantage of others, weather the family or outsiders it did not matter, as long as they could achieve their goal. Mostly, it was the family, as they were trained to perform. Just like circus animals.
Unfortunately, they also had a great lack and no adequate amount of empathy of others, being unable to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others. Their stuff was and still is always first. Who cares for the others as the others never cared for us? Sort of like the real McCoy family feuds going on all the time and unfortunately it really is, as money, prestige and pride are all at stake.
The quite sick aspect of it all is that they have few real friends that are not members of their own family and this is usually the biggest tell tale sign of all, for if we are always with our own family, then we cannot expand and take in new thoughts, new ideas from others. We live the same morals and beliefs all the time, right or wrong and we do not develop the discernment to fix this and make that better. We are not seeking enlightenment or consciousness, we are just sleep walking as we were taught as the circus animals that we have become, for a dollar we can jump through the hoop. If we are weekly being fed that same doctrine from within a family nucleus that is narcissist then we cannot change and grow. If we spend more time with the family than with non-family member friends we are stuck in the mud, on the wheel of Samsura going around and around. All organisms need what is known as 'new blood' in order to survive, expand and evolve. These types of people really do show little evidence of any real abilities outside of what their fantasy self and lives is.
As narcissism is a disorder of self-esteem we see that these people are very much lacking in real self-esteem and fabricate it by making a huge Self. This self becomes, self-interest, self-concern, self-love and all the self-words giving birth to pure self-centeredness. The only way to right all of this wrong within ourselves is to first admit that we have some kind of a problem, especially with self-esteem. Then we need to go within and do our own self-analysis to find out what created all of this. Once we have found the various sources we will then be able to re-write the tape in our head by forgiving those who helped us get into or who put us into this place and sincerely ask God to help so that we can focus our work on dissolving all the egos/sins that were created.
If we choose to ignore this pattern, then just as children are more food product sensitive today or needing 'Ritalin" to calm them down for school, so will we see more and more self-centeredness with the children. And it is happening, just ask any psychologist or teacher not afraid to speak up, or better still take a look around and think of your own children and those of others. If you are partly guilty to it all then don't be ambivalent, help fix it. You are part of the solution or part of the problem.
I came upon an angel that the universe had sent. She sang beautifully and had such an extraordinary yet simple message. RECONCILE. Reconciliation is what the world needs now at many levels and from many viewpoints. However, the most important and far reaching is that of the one between man and woman because while we work towards and at this, we will also be developing a sense of knowing or gnosis of ourselves, and it will show us how this process can be really successful.
Any one of the egos (those nasty sins inside of us that the bible talks of) that we allow to live in us can create great trials and tribulations in such a process. Yet, thanks to the love that the universe has for us and that our soul knows as the ultimate truth, we can comprehend what exactly is going on if we self-psychoanalyze ourselves and truly get to the root of our being. When we start to understand, to know and to love ourselves, then we can share that gnosis with our loved ones, with our mate. Then we can start the process of reconciliation. BLUNTLY put, too many men treat women improperly and too many women take it, put up with it. As well, too many women treat men badly with men usually rebelling in nasty ways, many down right evil. What ever happened to chivalry?
Too bad that we could not have been fathered by say Joseph, Buddha,JC or any one of the great loving beings that we know of. Yet in some ways we have and it is just that somehow we lost contact with the meaning of it all. For within each one of us, in the depth of our souls, lies the possible manifestation of a enlightened being just waiting to awaken. We want to and need to imitate someone that is 'love' so that we can be 'love'. So we seek reconciliation.
Start first with the end in mind. The total harmonic union of two individual beings, one man the other woman, creating a third being, the couple. Pure in its conception and pure in its' mind or goal of what it is for, the reunion of man to woman and woman to man. Then move onto what it is you want/need to be doing with each other, sharing equally, caring equally and knowing each profoundly, equally. 'Know yourselves and you will know the God(desses)'. We are all the same within and deserve equality. Thus at some point you will be creating equally and in total harmonic union, sort of like nuclear fusion, but without the contaminants. Talk about seeing things never seen or felt before. Watch out because here it comes.
So the first thing on your 'to do' list is a thorough examination and cleaning of the head, brain, gray matter or what ever else you like to call it. If you do not know why you do something, then how to you expect someone else to understand you and what you are all about. Thus why should they be your mate and be with you. Sex unfortunately is just a form or prostitution, as in most cases marriages are not marriages as God was not really there making it official as in cosmic talk.
Then add on a number of self-help tapes, books, courses, etc in the art of how to talk to the opposite sex. This should be for divine communication and not some quirky way of manipulation. Remember to do unto others, as you would have them do unto you. Watch some of the old fashion movies that while sometimes corny, do offer direct viewing to ways and methods of gentleman ship and ladyship. Don’t get carried away with others, try to find your own comfort zone so that you are sincere.
Be sure to have respect and reverence at all times for the other party. They are human beings living loving and searching and if they fail to meet your standards, gently walk away in a compassionate manner that is conscious, and not in an idiotic non-conscious way, the latter being but a hindrance to everyone and the former sometimes being tough or stinging, but nonetheless, caring and loving. Listen to the other party with two ears and talk with one mouth, that is why God made them in that proportion. Always check to see if your egos are getting in the way. Most of us do not really see what is happening until they come after us and inject all kinds of havoc and chaos. Remember that both man and woman are equal in all senses of the word and before all universal laws, with love being the ultimate one and the one which explains why man and why woman.
A little story about soul mates, or not.
He is a sentinel an observer and he never really saw it coming, he was stuck
on the wheel of Samsura. She is a loving, caring being, and unknowingly paying
karmic debts to raise her consciousness. Fate would bring them together. What
each had learned as behavior patterns at a younger age, what each had planned
as a young adult, what each believed was their duty and moral obligations to
God, their families and themselves; was created from free will, which is never
devoid of egos, unless consciously enlightened. Thus began the process of
coming of age for two sentient beings that had known each other before, had
shared pure love and worked miracles for the universe and were to come together
again for 'their love of mankind'.
He would grow spiritually thorough trial and error, finding out what did not work, what could not be believed and thus what could not be done. She would grow psychologically, seeing fear as the tyrant that it is and stalling her own growth. Only through the intercession of universal harmony could God's will be done and not theirs'. They always had, still do and forever will have, the freedom to do their own will or that of God's, that universal harmony, that Love and life for all souls.
Mars is a fighter and a diplomat always trying to expand, to evolve and be all he can be. Venus was a lover and a mother always trying to take care of and be tender to all who needed love. He forgot to fight for his own honor and she forgot to mother her 'self' and take care of her tender and loving needs. And thus the world was devoid of honor and love for a time while men and women forgot themselves and were pre-occupied by worldly, material things and not things of the heart and soul. Where were the fighters for love? Pure love.
Dis-harmony can only last so long within any given setting before the universe re-sets the course that allows things to right themselves and learn what pure love is and what unselfishness is. Fate demands this, as Fate is the controller when God is absent within the being. So whilst Mars was fighting invisible dragons, Venus woke from her slumber to the energies of what once was: of a love known, felt and that was eternal, from incarnation to incarnation. While Mars tried to remain focused on being with God at all times, through many tears; Venus was learning to love again. Once Mars re-balanced the karma and learned to be with God, God sent Venus to wake up in Mars' arms. Mars would take care of and watch out for her. Once Venus woke from the slumber from one of Mars' kisses and was back to being with God she would slay the invisible dragons that challenged Mars. Mars could love her better, Venus could love him more.
Only vigilance and the maintaining of being with God at all times can keep them growing and knowing each other. Only the vibrations of the universe listened to and heard can be manifested in their love for each other. Only unconditional love and unselfishness can be their goal and answer. All else is not of God but of man.
Any ego, big or small, bad or good, can unbalance the vibrations and lead them back to dis-harmony. It is easier to fall back into old patterns of learned behavior than it is to awaken to the mysteries and miracles that are done for us by the universe each and every day; yet they are not of our free will and thus not of our belief. Change a belief to unconditional love and unselfishness and you have God, pure love for all. Have God with our own free will and then the miracles happen.
Then and only then will we recognize our mate of the soul. But just as we may have the joy of meeting them in this incarnation, it does not necessarily mean that we will be ready to be with them, or that they will be ready to be with us.
(Copyright by Samael Aun Weor)
Ed.N. This material is for your understanding of how a perfect marriage is possible.
Translated from 5th edition in Spanish, Monterrey, Mexico, and September 1976.
I have written this book for the few; and I say it’s for the few because the many, the majority, do not accept it, do not understand it, do not want it.
The first edition of El Matrimonio Perfecto met with an enthusiastic reception from the students and followers of all Schools, Religions, Orders, Sects and Esoteric Societies.
The result of such overwhelming enthusiasm was the establishment of the Gnostic Movement. This Movement began with a handful of reflective people, and became fully international.
Many students of the occult have browsed this book; but very few have grasped its meaning. Many, in their enthusiasm for its thrilling, beautiful theme, joined the ranks of the Gnostic Movement. But those who have remained in the Gnostic Movement can be counted on the fingers of one hand. Many have pledged their loyalty before the Gnostic altar, but, in fact, almost all of them betrayed their pledge and vows.
Some sounded as true Apostles; it would indeed seem a real sacrilege to doubt their commitment, but, on the long run, we had to accept, with infinite sorrow, the fact that they were also traitors. Many times it was enough for these false brothers / brethren to read a book or listen to a new lecturer who had just arrived in town to leave the Gnostic Movement.
In this battle for the New Age of Aquarius starting on February 4th, 1962, between 2 and 3 o’clock in the afternoon, we have had to learn that the Abyss is crowded with sincere, well-meaning mistaken people with the best intents and designs.
“El Matrimonio Perfecto” (The Perfect Marriage) and “El Cristo Cosmico” (The Cosmic Christ) embody the Synthesis of all Religions, Schools, Orders, Sects, Lodges, Yogas, etc., etc. But the sad truth is that many who had found the Practical Synthesis have left it to enmesh themselves in the intricate, abstruse maze of theories.
Tradition has it that at the heart, in the middle of the labyrinth there was the Synthesis, that is, the labarum of the Temple. The word “labyrinth” has its ethimological origin in the word “labarum”. The latter was a double-edged axe symbolizing the sexual, Masculine-Feminine force. He who finds the Synthesis in fact commits the greatest of follies in leaving the Center to return to the complex, puzzling corridors of all the theories, which form the labyrinth of the mind. Christ and Sexual Magic are in themselves the Religious Synthesis.
A comparative study of religions will show us that Phalism is the hidden meaning of all Religions, Esoteric Schools and Sects. Let us remember Peristera, a Nymph from the retinue of Venus turned into a pigeon by Love. Remember the Virtuous Venus, remember the procession in honor of the god Priapus in the ancient, august Rome of the Ceasars, when the temple Priestesses, possessed by ecstasies, carried majestically an enormous Phallus made of sacred wood. Freud, the founder of Psychoanalysis, was right in saying that all Religions have a sexual origin.
The Mysteries of Fire are hidden in Hierogamy, the Sacred Marriage. All fire cults are wholly Sexual. The Vestals were true Love Priestesses; with their help the Celibate priests reached the rank of Adepts. It is a pity that the modern priestesses (nuns) ignore the Sexual Magic key. It is a pity that modern-day priests have forgotten the secret sexual key. With the deepest sorrow we see so many Yogis who ignore the supreme key of all Yoga, Sexual Magic, the Paramount Synthesis of the whole Yoga system.
People are struck with horror on being introduced to Sexual Magic, but they do not feel the same horror at giving in to all their sexual “refinements” and carnal passions.
Here you have, dear reader, the Synthesis of all Religions, Schools and Sects. Ours is the Doctrine of the Synthesis.
In the deep night of the centuries there have been powerful civilizations and great mysteries. The great temples of the Higher Mysteries never lacked Priestesses. These holy women were the most beautiful thoughts of Creation turned Flesh. They were the Gates of Eden.
That’s why, dearest brothers, we insist on the Perfect Marriage and the need to learn how to savor love with the utmost wisdom.
Before God took Eve from Adam’s rib, he was alone in Eden.
Man and Woman must become One again, a single being, to return to Eden.
God shines in glory over the perfect couple.
It is better to relish love than to get old amidst the dust of libraries.
He who wants to be converted into a God should not spill his semen (sperm).
One must transmute water into wine.
Water is turned into the wine of Light when we refrain the animal impulse [orgasm].
Man must depart from the woman’s embrace without spilling his semen.
Desire refrained pushes our seminal liquor up to the brain’s Chalice.
Thus the Sacred Fire of the Holy Ghost awakens in us.
Thus awaken all our powers and we are converted into Gods.
The Hindus talk about the awakening of Kundalini, and we state that the Kundalini awakens with the practice of Sexual Magic with the woman in a legitimate home [within monogamous marriage] - that is, with only one woman. One woman can turn us into saints; two will turn us into Devils.
When a man learns to leave the woman without spilling his semen, he acquires the following powers: intuition, clairvoyance, the magic ear, powers over life and death, power for never dying, power over lightning, hurricanes and the earth.
Man left Eden through the gates of sex, and only through these he can enter Eden. Woman is the gate of Eden.
Let’s love woman intensely.
We invite the devotes and faithful of all Cults, Schools and Creeds to undertake a comparative study of Religions.
We invite the students of all inner self-education systems to study the Sexual Esoterism of all the Secret Schools of Mysteries.
We invite all Yogis to study Sexual Yoga, India’s White Tantrism, without which no Yogi can attain absolute Liberation.
Sexual Magic and the Christ are the Synthesis of all Esoteric studies, whatever their name, religious form or educational system.
The attacks to which we have been subject, the persecution, anathemas, ex-communions, etc., are due to ignorance and want of study.
Any religious form or esoteric system is enriched by synthesis. Synthesis can hurt no one. This is the Doctrine of Synthesis. We love dearly all forms of religion; we know them to be the loving manifestation of the Great Cosmic Universal Religion. In the Perfect Marriage lies the Supreme Religious Synthesis. God is Love and Wisdom. In the Christ and in Sex lies the ultimate Synthesis of all Lodges, Orders, Schools, Sects, Systems and Methods for Inner Self-Realization, of East and West, North and South.
notes from the book by J.Livingston
Perspective: use it or lose it…You are forgetting that what is going on around you is not reality…Think about that…Remember where you came from, where you're going, and why you created the mess you got yourself into in the first place. You're going to die a horrible death, remember. It's all good training, and you'll enjoy it more if you keep the facts in mind. Take your dying with some seriousness, however. Laughing on the way to your execution is not generally understood by less-advanced life forms, and they'll call you crazy.
Learning is finding out what you already know, while doing is demonstrating that you know it and teaching is reminding others that they know just as well as you do. We are all learners, doers and teachers. You teach best what you most need to learn.
Your only obligation in any lifetime is to be true to yourself. Being true to anyone else or anything else is not only impossible, but the mark of a fake messiah. The simplest questions are the most profound. Where were you born? Where is your home? Where are you going? What are you doing? Think about these once in awhile, and watch your answers change.
Live never to be ashamed if anything you do or say is published around the world- even if what is published is not true. Your friends will know you better in the first minute you meet than your acquaintances will know you in a thousand years. The best way to avoid responsibility is to say 'I've got responsibilities'.
You are led through your lifetime by the inner learning creature, the playful spiritual being that is your real self. Don't turn away from possible futures before you're certain you don't have anything to learn from them. You're always free to change your mind and choose a different future, or a different past. There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. You seek problems because you need their gifts.
The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life. Rarely do members of one family grow up under the same roof.
Argue for your limitations, and sure enough, they're yours. Imagine the universe beautiful, just and perfect…Then be sure of one thing: the 'Is' has imagined it quite a bit better than you have.
A cloud does not know why it moves in just such a direction and at such a speed…it feels an impulsion…this is the place to go now. But the sky knows the reasons and the patterns behind all clouds, and you will know, too, when you lift yourself high enough to see beyond horizons. You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true. You may have to work for it, however.
The world is your exercise book, the pages on which you do your sums. It is not reality, although you can express reality there if you wish. You are also free to write nonsense, or lies, or to tear the pages. The original sin is to limit the 'Is'. Don't.
If you will practice being fictional for a while, you will understand that fictional characters are sometimes more real than people with bodies and heartbeats. Your conscience is the measure of the honesty of your selfishness. Listen to it carefully.
Every person, all the events of your life are there because you have drawn them there. What you choose to do with them is up to you. The truth you speak has no past and no future. It is, and that's all it needs to be.
Here is a test to find whether your mission on earth is finished: If you're alive, it isn't.
In order to live free and happily, you must sacrifice boredom. It is not always an easy sacrifice.
Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends.
The mark of your ignorance is the depth of your belief in injustice and tragedy.
What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.
Sex. What a word. It denotes for some the satisfaction of lustful desire. It is seen as the release of inner stress (as Freud mapped out) for many others, falling asleep right after release to the sadness of others. It is mostly the simple rutting and behavior patterns that we have made it into. And for just about all people it means 'I love you', conditionally of course.
Researchers know and have shown us how we all emit chemical smells that attract a mate, and now they are realizing that perfumes used by most alter that smell and thus give off an altered or false signal. This altered signal then masks the real fact of weather or not that the other person is for us. It falsifies their message to us. Oh well, life happens, Fate is our comptroller and so divorce and all the problems we live on our journey, happen. But even without all of this process going on we still manage to get into trouble.
How can we not even live what is our Fate to rebalance and why does that in and of itself create more and harder karma?
Pulling into the picture our learned behavior patterns and the various traumas or abuses of life, done by others to us and expanded upon by our own egos thereby hurting ourselves, we have a starting point that is not soulful, but egoic.
Remember Fate is given to us as our karmic process before birth and we either make it better or make it worst along our journey of life. We are sure that if you take a detailed inventory of your life from all points right now you will see what side you fall on. Detail of even the littlest situation contains insight as to what we hide inside, on purpose even if it is our egos doing the hiding. Unfortunately most people (north Americans at least) have a narcissistic disorder and that has been augmented by 'ambulatory schizophrenia' so that is why the sages say, 'that we do not know that we do not know, this or that about ourselves'. Giving you a hint to help out may make it easier. Listing the seven sins and being totally honest with yourself, to what degree are those egos still within you and how are you doing at dissolving them? Another hint is that 'lust' is the one buried the deepest and thus the last one to be totally dissolved.
So along our road, too often having been traveled before by others, over crowded now and into the foreseeable future, we have our relationships. That is to say we are looking for our sex-ships and how to dance that dance. The energy of sex, and it is an energy of creation by transformation, is the strongest one in the known cosmos, and propels us left and right until we find someone. Mixing in all the egos to this process (not to mention Fate watching over us all the time) we find ourselves, as all would agree, not looking for a sex partner but for a mate. What we all fail to seize in this is that we are fueled by the energy of sex, yet controlled by the egos/sins, which are under the vigilance of Fate. Fate does not do it for us, all it seeks is to make sure that we all rebalance anything that we unbalance. If we are still living on earth and not 100% conscious then we are under its' karmic influence and thus we are paying debts and in some cases collecting receipts. Yet the most interesting part of this process is that we do not know that we do not know that we are doing it. We lead ourselves into temptation by our egos and complete the wheel of Samsura (around and around) through our sexual energies.
Sex is not an evil thing, only evil people are evil. But working backwards we find the following to be true:
Evil people are narcissist as they lack real Love, they play God and they have no real emotions of their own. Narcissist people are self-interested (for some gain, usually some sort of power). The strongest power is sexual energy. So they seek for their self-interest (misuse) sexual energy and use it for their selfishness and make it evil. Not very complicated when we take an honest look at it and ourselves.
Look around at all the narcissism you can find and see, which is not to hard unless you are yourself and do not want to see it, that it is never happy with what it has attained, it needs to control all the things that surround it at all costs. It is the real perpetuator of evil. How? By using the sexual energies of those around them, from a simple big smile to a secretary (lust at work deep inside) to an out and out rutting session of power over their mate. But why? Because they have a weak or non-existent self-esteem carried over from a childhood when they did not completely go through what is known as the 'narcissistic stage' of development. The parenting, care giving that was done to them had flaws in it, and these were not corrected by others nor themselves as they grew up. Truthfully, they did not develop a healthy reverence for God, as they became God themselves.
They take the energy of sex and fuel/fool themselves into thinking that they are the strongest, they are the best, they can have and get whatever they want. They are egos playing a mind game against others at first and then eventually against themselves. They are usually emotionless towards others from the intimacy point of view and only know what the sex acts give them in all manners of satisfaction. They are not looking for a loving, heart filled relationship; they are just looking for sex. Just take a look at all the politicians through the ages and what they had been notorious for. Just as most relationships are turning out to be here and now, without the real Love that is already inside us all, waiting to wake up.
So along the road we go till we meet someone that gives us an unconscious signal that we can be together. If both are unconscious people then the mating dance starts and the weaker ego gives into the stronger one. The one with the most sins wins, just as in the 'boomers' bumper sticker, 'the one with the most toys (egos) wins'. Thus, off they go to start the process that they were taught, that was cemented into their sub-conscious, all over again which will then filter down to their own offspring and those of others.
They are fueled in the earlier days by the sexual energy and feelings of having conquered the world (actually only the egos of the other one) and end up rutting as in the animal kingdom until a child is born. Up to this point, the young couple has more likely than not been experiencing whatever they could in the realm of what they called 'love-making', but which is in reality discovering their sexuality. They just do, act, probe and find out what things are all about. Based upon their inner beliefs (which most likely was feed to them erroneously) they setup a pattern that will be the underlying manner for the rest of their relationship. I love you means lets have sex and having sex means I love you.
Men usually have the upper hand here, and as they are the stronger one, especially narcissistically, they do everything to control the situation around them, actively or passively. Women are still in most things, subservient to the man and thus have no control, other than the occasional no sex (no food, energy power) for the mate until he does this or that. He does do this or that for he wants the sexual energy, he wants his gratification so he can sleep better, feel better about himself and thereby strengthen his self-esteem. At this point, along comes a newborn child, the sexual energy changes for some women to a real breathe of a new chance at life, to make it all right. Things will always get better tomorrow, is the oldest egoic song within all of us. To others it means more responsibilities and thus less time for sex. To others, it is a new one to control and unconsciously tap into as a new sexual energy supply. And for a lot, it is a new way to avoid sex altogether as it has not turned out to be what they thought it would be.
Sex for most females, is the feeling of closeness, tenderness and caring. Just like the feeling that they have with a new born. For most males, it is the wanting of, acting in a manner, that will satisfy their lust, give them the energy power of and over the other and make them sleep better. The energy is all around both of them, yet it is not being used jointly and for a common good. Thus God is not in the picture for it has been said ' Any two people coming together with a common goal and with God in the picture will attain it'. They got the child but did not get each other. Somehow the energies were wrong at some point.
Remember, the mission inside yourself for your life, it was to do what and attain what? Without it we all are just adrift in the same sea of egos with the others. We have no real control over ourselves and thus we default to being controlled by others, which is our own egos to start with. As we have no control, we seek desperately to control the other. At this point the female is by now aware of being unhappy and starts to seek a way to fix the problem. She sets up the situations (consciously or not) which the male will find stressful unless he wakes up to her needs, but then he can also manipulate things and make her ideas back fire on her. She falls in love with her child, and this is pure unconditional love, perhaps not too conscious, yet aware of what it is and knowing that it is not sexual at all. She diverts her own sexual energy towards the child in a nurturing manner and thus there is less of it for the mate. He sees a decline in this energy and starts to force the issue more instead of working on his inner being and understanding what is happening. He feels cutoff from her as she loves the child, and he is still looking for sex and not transcending it all into real love.
As he starts to feel the decrease of the sexual energy within, he starts to become more stressed. She on the other hand, is saying that she is more stressed with the new responsibilities, which is because he is not helping her keep her energy level up with unconditional love consciously. He is just saying ' I lost something and want it back'. This then leads to arguments, strife and various manners of abuse. It could be he just takes her when he wants or it could start him foraging into the other pastures. The lack of sexual energy is affecting his brain and his actions. He is living as many say, from his pants and not his soul, and with this many laugh and say that is how men are. Yet what it is really doing is allowing narcissism to continue to expand and infect other people. Ambivalence is not an answer to this situation, as it only allows it to continue through our own avoidance and unconsciousness. If we all remembered that ignorance of the law, manmade or cosmic, is not an excuse, then this type of perpetuating would not continue.
Meanwhile there are other couples living similar situations so they get together, lament, and then decide if they want to give each other, some of that 'seemingly' missing energy or if they want to go out looking for some, somewhere else. Thus the wheel of Samsura keeps turning and turning and as the egos are being fed in steps Fate to do it its' job by making sure that what gets unbalanced is rebalanced. Without conscious love the sexual energy becomes heavy water in the body with nowhere to go. (This heavy water turns into sicknesses if not dealt with). So we seek an outlet of any kind. Without unconditional love the sexual energy becomes a control mechanism that one uses over the other, therefore there is no goodly-ness from within. So the female can now control the male with sex in order to get some form of intimacy. The male controls the female with projections that he may go elsewhere as there is an abundant number of 'fish in the sea'. Fear to fear. Oh well the egos are playing with themselves and no one is awake to 'mind the store'.
As the miss use of sexual energy continues to weaken the brain (by sending the egos on a rampage of sorts) and keeps the soul bottled up inside, more of the deeper problems start to surface as the cooping mechanisms become mixed up. These problems are the real life issues that need to be dealt with, yet the egos had not allowed them to be seen and worked on up to this point, as the being was not ready. As the ego is not being fed, as it wishes, it starts to weaken and gets angry with the truth being exposed in hateful manners. Had the same process of sex since meeting as a couple been kept up, one way or another, then these issues would not be known as the ego would not allow them to disturb its' control. So the sexual energy can be used to cover things up or to keep them buried.
The covering up is exactly what most people do when they have sex. They cover over the real feelings of what is buried inside by saying to each other; I will forget this or that as I have my desires fulfilled and my energy moved around. The only thing is that it is around in circles and up and down, with no mission purpose. As the womb cries each month for the unborn chance, could you imagine the population if birth control was not available. Where would all the sperm end up, how many more problems would we have and where would we live. One thing for sure we would end up draining all the energy of the cosmos to earth (in making the new born) and we would not have enough to support us all. Death and decay, just like the sperm and ovum.
So further along the road we go with a stop off at mid-life crisis. The male is not happy with his sexual life (or other repressed emotions he mostly denies) and seeks stimulation from where ever he can get it. His brain is still in a state of control by the ego and seeks only to re-charge the battery, by taking the stress away, not knowing really why it was there in the first place. He goes outside the couple for love, that is he seeks new and what he thinks are better but are just different manners of sex. The female handling all the things she can and getting more stressed by the in actions of the 'jerk' ends up re-evaluating her life up to that point. She is not happy, has not been happy since young adulthood. As the responsibilities grew so did her unhappiness. So she seeks outlets.
If either of them has unsatisfied egos they usually through in the towel, unless their egos under the watchful eye of Fate has other plans in the hardships and lessons to learn of life. The school of hard knocks is the slow manner of overcoming the egos. But, usually this just means giving control of our egos over to someone else, thinking and believing that they will make it all better. Sooner or later we wake up to the truth, which has a lot to do with becoming conscious as to who we are. One thing by then is that we realize that we are lazy and don't want to put in the effort as we are tired (mostly from too much rutting) as we still have not found real love to allow us to live in harmony with the cosmos.
The sexual energy at this point is just spinning around and out of control inside of us. It means that we have not been working with it, nor have we been working on the couple, for when we do, we find that the energy is transmuted into the unconditional love that it really is, and then we are capable of having a conscious truthful relationship. This is the time of life when we are apt to do the stupidest of things and in many cases regret it later. It could be divorcing when we should not have, or not divorcing when we should have. What a paradox.
Fate is at hand waiting for our action and we are further tempted by Fate through karma to meet people that we have through out our lives and really start to pay the debts that are due. We also have the chance to collect a lot of good things through out this process, if we are choosing to be conscious of our own sins/egos and ask for help while sincerely repenting. We need to realize why we are meeting so and so and doing what we are with them in our life at that point. Our energy then starts to really get mixed in with the energy of another, let's say the newcomer into the picture. At this point if we are not careful, meaning conscious, we can literally end up taking on some of the other person's karma. This is actually what pure conscious love does, take on another's' karma, but it is more often than not just our egos leading us into and succumbing to temptation. Transference of egos work from parents to offspring, just as it works between people. This new comer is the narcissist food that we need, and as the old food has gone stale we seek a fresh supply.
When we interact with them, they give us something new and thus something our ego is happy with as the game continues and it can play with some new friends, for a while at least. For as time goes on we start to discover that we are just repeating old patterns and bad habits and that we get stuck in the same rut of not being happy. We thought we could be happy if we changed the sexual energy. This is not to be as it is not the changing of the energy that is really needed, but the growth of our mind, the expansion of our inner being. Becoming conscious of who we are and how we tick inside. We walk away saying all the positive things to justify why we are breaking things off, yet we also know that we are filled with the negative stuff as to why we are in fact leaving. This negative energy doesn't just go away, and unfortunately unless understood it just interferes with our sexual energy.
When we are in this new relationship we have brought all of our baggage from previous relationships with us and thus we manage to sabotage the new comer and ourselves. If we do not get full control over this, we end up cutting off our narcissist food supply and have to start over, with the same mindset of egos, only more determined than ever to succeed. When our supply of food (sexual energy) is threatened we turn to all manners of finding a way to keep it or get it back. For narcissistically we say to ourselves, how can that person not love and want to feed US. WE are the best. WE are great. WE are whatever. Thus we are just seeking to feed the self-centeredness of our egos. Thus a sin is committed thanks to our egos and unless conscious of it we injure our soul, and as we usually do, delay the awakening some more.
As the ego works in wily ways we succumb to things that we never thought of as it seeks whatever manner to express. It makes us do things that would be horrible under any circumstance, but now it is situation of life or death of the ego. It is losing yet again a source of narcissistic food supply, it is panicking as to who will replace it and we are still devoid of God and Love that can easily help correct it all.
We never knew real love, so we have given up by now on ever being happy and just give into, accommodate our egos by being in a situation that is not were we really want to be. And so Fate sits there waiting for us to do something else, sending us some good situations and some trying ones, and we either jump in with both feet or we pull deeper into our shell and hide from it all. At this point, as in many times in our life we feel as if we are buried deep inside and there is some actor that is playing the image part that we project. There is, and the actor's name is Ego or any one of the sins that you care to be honest about.
We are still seeking a perfect relationship, yet the sad facts are that we cannot have a perfect or even a good relationship with another if we first do not have one with ourselves. If our egos control us, and if the other is controlled by their egos, then who is it that is having the relationship. The truth is inside each and everyone of us, if we care to see it consciously now. If not then we can rest assured that Fate will be waiting for us in our next life seeking to rebalance all that has to be.
We have heard the term used many a time and it is one of the things that is
the most romanticized in poetry and literature throughout the ages. When our
ego gets into the analysis of the relationship that we are living with another
person, we cannot really be sure what or who they are. On one hand we think
soul mate and on the other we think, 'why are they not doing what we expect and
want them to?'
Mating of our soul is a simple process once we reach the stage of controlling our own egos for their dissolution; the understanding of ourselves and the other person is at least within our general consciousness level and is a minimal requirement for that to happen. We may feel that a person is our soul mate however this 'feeling' might be a bio-chemical reaction in ourselves or a karmic situation. To really know we need to ask for the gnosis of the situation from the Boss and await clarification.
To really feel the clarification, do the mantras necessary to activate your chakras and you will 'know' the gnosis of what is going on between your soul and your mind. To remind you, the chakras are as follows:
I I I
Doing the mantra 'ON' will call up your intuition to give you a sign.
This practice will give you some divine insight and help clarify the reasoning behind what you are feeling. Then you can move onto the next step, which is subtler. We need to see if we have any wants or expectations concerning the other person. Do we want them to be our soul mate, do we expect something from them, because we want or think that it is so, even though we have gone through the practice. Because, really finding our soul mate means tuning into vibrations and energies that flow throughout the universe and not the bio-chemical ones, we need to practice and become more conscious.
A soul mate is that person that God already knows is our other half, but due to egoic problems on our side or their side, we have not yet connected in this life and may end up having to wait till next. Even if we have the gnosis of who they are and where they are, there may be some blockage at the Universal Karmic Harmony level that postpones it. Fate is taking its' toll because we have not become conscious of what we need to be conscious of, and that is inside each and everyone of us.
Remember that living life is just that, living it to the fullest and without egos, to be and do the best we can for all souls, not just someone special, who may end up not being that special someone in this lifetime. All souls are created equal, how you wake it up, or up to it, is your free will and of your own devise. At least if we remember to say 'Namaste' to all souls, we are heading in the right direction. Read up on Edgar Cayce and this 'sleeping prophets' explanations, details, and examples of soul mates and all that it entails, you will find a treasure trove of insight. 'Journey of Souls' is also another place to find some great insight as to what is really happening out there, that is to say within our soul's dimension.
The Tibetans have had
many a thing to say about the feeling of suffering and referring to the
Buddha's teachings on the subject will be of great enlightenment on the
profoundness of its nature and reconciling with it. From a simple gnosis point,
suffering is the result of a domino effect of egos acting out against each
other with 'fear' being the main one. When fear kicks in our psyche we then
have a choice of actions. We can either use our higher being and analysis why
we are fearful and proceed to recognize it for what it is, a lack of love in
all cases. For love is the opposite virtue to fear. And when we approach the
same fear that entered into us with love we can then proceed to be fearless.
Once fear, takes the other route, that of an un-watched reaction from some learned behavior pattern, we automatically step into the next phase, which is 'anger'. This is somewhat relative to the fight or flight response. Thus with anger taking over we no longer feel fearful and our ego makes us believe that we can handle the situation and win the situation without giving into the fear. At some point in this process our conscious says a few words to calm us down, which, unless understood we end up in the domino affect of reacting to this anger with hate, weather it be for the situation that started it, or for the fact that we were asleep on the switch and did not pick up on the fact that we were reacting. Reacting with hate towards the situation does not allow for a conscious moment, but, rather a negative sense that we are doomed and thus if we hate it we do not have to face it, understand it, nor embrace it for being what it is and inside of us.
All of this process could and sometimes does pass in the blink of an eye, and as such we do not even know that we do not know what went on and what was happening. So we need to wake up to our selves and to know what can happen in a split second and stop the reaction. Think of Pavlov's situation of stimulus and learned response. This is how the egos control us. So once we have reached this point, all we can do is 'suffer'. Whether we are conscious about it or not we cannot stop the suffering that was caused via an egoic domino effect from the situation as it started out inside of us. The suffering is usually something that lasts longer than the egoic reactions and is something that we feel right into our soul, for it is under the gun of the egos and at this point cannot escape, nor awaken us to the reality of what happened.
Suffering is not meant to be, (unless Fate knows it is our only way to learn at that point) but is due to a lack of vigilance on our part to automated reactions, responses and the like from within us, based upon what we learned growing up. By this point we realize that all of this is devoid of love and as such is the case, we need to meditate on what happened, why we suffered and seek out the dissolution of those egos. We need to take our becoming conscious serious at this point, if we ever want to be able to properly deal with these egos, in whichever way we need to. Just remember that Fate is watching for our decision and actions.
Long ago, it is
written, sexual union between two beings, was a very sacred process and ritual.
The elders gave theoretical training and then they encouraged the physical
practice in divine sanctity. Along our evolution of anthropology we moved away
from these feelings and towards gratification for gratification. We no longer saw
lovemaking as the sacred and divine act that it is, we just turned to sex and
thus to the rutting aspect of it, which belongs to the animal kingdom and not
our so called human one.
Egos, or the sins of the mind as theologians call them; are a part of each being. Some have more (those whose vibrations and inner harmony is at the lower Chakras levels) and others not as many; yet all beings contain them unless they are really angelic (could also be called Buddhic), at which point they may very well not be visible to our eyes. But we can still hear and feel them. These egos are what really keep us from living/being the sexual union as that ultimate sacred act in honor of our God or Goddess that it is within ourselves. No matter what the ego(s) inside each of us want we cannot attain peace of mind, total enlightenment, if we are not working together as a divine couple, jointly against the dissolution of each other's egos.
It has been known for aeons and still understood by a few today, that sexual energy is the most powerful energy in the universe. It is what fusion (nuclear or other) is all about. It has been the root of man's greatest and, yes, worse deeds. For the energy knows no right or wrong, only what it is and can do when transformed. When a couple sincerely loves each other, and when they will do all that they can for each other, then you have the making for the possible dissolution of egos. For without this common goal how can one partner try and succeed at dissolving an ego, while the other partner takes no interest and may even severely hamper or even prevent the other one from succeeding at the dissolution? The egos (sins) seek only to be the master and control whatever power is given to them. Thus, if the source of power is diverted and focused elsewhere, the feeding stops. Praying is the first step in stopping this. Couple practice is the next when at all possible.
By working in unison, a couple will find that they start to become more tuned into each other and on the same wavelength or path. They start to focus more clearly on common issues, goals and lessen the egoic process within the couple. There is less control of one over the other, less dominance over various matters, less dis-harmony in the 'partnership', and greater joy in all that is done as a couple and family. Instead of having egoic reactions bouncing back and forth in their communication, they have harmony in a common goal of dealing with a given ego. To succeed, each partner must really want to be all that they can be and have this goal in focus always. Not at the expense of another, but in unison with another. All must be harmonious. Remember one loves better and the other loves more. God helps those who help themselves.
When retiring to your sacred space with your loved one, feel the romance of the time and space, not the unbridled passion. See your loved one as a God/Goddess and treat them as such. Jointly decide on which ego you will focus on, for the betterment of the couple/family. This is usually started with the most obvious one that each could easily agree exists. Say whatever prayer you feel most comfortable with and hold each other lovingly. When the breathing of both is one, when the initial passion has transformed to genuine caring and tenderness for the other, then you should agree at that moment on which way to proceed with the actual physical union.
Once united together, stay relaxed and focused on what you seek to accomplish, the understanding of an ego. At this point you may want to do some mantras or some simple breathing in unison. There are many techniques or ways that all of this can unfold in your sacred chamber. You can even have a cup of tea together. Try not to let an ego take over the act or it will assuredly end up being just sex for sex, without any benefit of those energies for the couple/family, but in fact, more often than not, one person stealing the other person's energy. Once you are in harmonious union, start to discuss the situation (ego) that you have agreed upon. Agree between yourselves that neither party will take it as an offense. You are simply trying to discuss an egoic matter in each others loving arms where the ego cannot reach you nor harm you. You are giving each other the security of your love, caring and tenderness, without any battle for control or dominance.
Ask each other where you think the ego (learned reaction) first came into your life and what affect it had on you then and over its evolution. Refer to Ego Busting page. While in your state of union remember to breath deep and pull the energy up from the gonads to the pineal gland, this will have some interesting effects on you and you will definitely approach the ego with a clearer understanding. Remember to maintain the loving caring tender attitude to each other for the 'gnosis' of the situation.
This process will in effect re-energize your body and raise your consciousness, provided that you do not simply finish the act in the so-called 'normal way'. Doing so, will take all the energy that you have been cultivating and dissolve it outwards. Tantric sex tries to send the energy inwards and upwards to where it can best be used.
psychology, we learn that we have a finite need to change - a definite problem
that must be faced and dealt with. In cultural cosmology, we find that this
same problem to be faced is our final test at seeing our true inner being and
knowing that we are totally loving and not just playing psychological cat and
mouse games. The egos (sins of the bible a.k.a. learned behavior patterns that
are bad) have their root in all that chaos. These egos are fighting for their
survival and will do all they can to hold onto whatever little bit of thread to
our mind that they can grasp, even if it is very weak. For they are the master of
deceit, and know how to really play our emotions and nerves like a fiddle. They
are going to do what they want and feel that nothing can stop them.
Unfortunately for us that is true, as we do not really understand how to dissolve them, nor do we know how to love them; which we must do in the final show-down as they are a part of us and have pushed us to be who we are, good or not so good. In the day to day affairs of life, we do so many things mechanically that it is almost impossible to become cognizant of who is doing what and why inside of us. It is our automatic reactions that where programmed into us as our psychological song and that program just keeps on running. When we try to stop the process by some other means than love, we just start a vicious circle of fear, anger, hate, etc. that gets us feeling worst than before, so we start to feel bad for ourselves and thus our self esteem suffers, etc. We just keep feeding our dislike of ourselves and when this happens our narcissism which is evil, increases. Thus we have created a circle or cycle of torment. If I had not done that, then this would have been better; if I had tried this first then it would have been better; if I try that now then maybe it will be better. On and on we go in an endless circle of doubt (thus fear) self pity (thus anger) and hate (of ourselves).
But your poor old soul did nothing to deserve hate towards it. It did not cause nor feed nor encourage this process of cause and effect until you disliked yourself, more than before. Why? It is always lack of love for who and what you are. Preference to torture yourself and feel bad for yourself, so that you can get yourself back into the circle of feeding the ego to disliking yourself even more and on it goes. So what happens when you have a good knowledge of what your egos are, where they hide and when you have so thoroughly understood them that you are now ready to kill them off and how?
Which ever method you use, your torment of yourself will be a test, for as you seek that inner peace and enlightenment you will find yourself going through a doorway on total calm and bliss, only to come face to face with all the monsters of the egos that were ever inside of you. You will have to decide how to act upon them and how to get rid of them forever and ever. If you do not know love, pure and unconditional; if you do not know unselfishness for all; how will you get past these monsters of your own minds creation and life's karma? Try and proceed ahead to their total annihilation, without first giving them the kiss Judas gave Jesus before he denounced him to the soldiers. They need to know that you love them no matter what the outcome for them. And then they can die and become the pure child like virtue, that they were always want to be, but where never taught to be.
There are times when we need a reality check to help us focus on what is
really going on. We can easily turn away from our goal of consciousness (also
known as universal truth), for when we wake up to ourselves, when we wake up to
all that is going on around us, then we can say that we have attained our goal,
made ourselves aware of what and who we are, found the Gnosis of ourselves, the
truth of our universe, weather it be a small part, or a larger part that is all
The truth is the truth, but is sometimes treated as being different things, depending on which angle we are looking at it from and what it is we are really looking at. However, the profound reality of it does not change and it is what it is, when you see all sides.
We can look on the surface of it or we can look and look all around hoping
to find what we are looking for, our image of the truth, and our belief of it
as the truth. But we cannot create something that is not there. We can allow
our egos to create an image or a view of something that is or can be considered
as the truth, for it actually covers up the reality with a smoke screen. Thus
what we have is known as the truth from the egoic side of the coin. That is to
say, when it all comes down to the bottom line, we have two sides to each coin
of truth, the egoic material side and the spiritual metaphysical side.
Which one is right? Both of them are. For anyone can see and understand and believe either side as being the real truth. You could argue a case for each side and each side would win. Why? We live in a realm of levels and degrees, in our world of dualities. While everything is easy and simple, things are usually black or white, thus dual for each side. If you only look at the front of the picture you will not believe the back and if you only look at the back of the picture, you will not believe the front. Thus, two ways of looking at something, leading to two realities and two truths. But which one is the real one? They both are and are not. For they each have their truth based in their vision of what is seen and understood, that is on only half the picture.
Enter universal truth and consciousness.
If you allow yourself to look at all the picture, from all sides and angles, you will see that there is more to it then just the two pieces, you will see the depth that was not there before. For all things are made up of a multi layer process, that can be easily captured by our intuitive sense. Remember now the process of cause and effect that so nicely describes how things usually come to be in this life. If you examine the picture keeping this in mind and asking why to the various processes, then you will come across the only truth that can be for such and such a situation, given all the variables. This situation would in fact be the total cause of what was and is the truth at hand. It may not be very pretty in some instances and it may in fact be very ugly, but it is the truth and the whole truth.
So if you really want to know, ask and someone will answer, and do not be
afraid, for if you miss it this time around, it will keep coming back until you
can get it right. For the consequence of ignoring, refusing to look at or
refuting the ultimate truth of a situation, is that, you will re-live and
re-live the situation in the same or slightly variable forms until it is
understood. So don't worry if you miss it the first time around, you can catch
it the second time, just as long as you do not mind repeating history over and
over, sort of like 'Ground Hog Day' the movie where at 6 am it was always the
same day over and over, until he woke up to the truth of what was really
Also, remember that unless we see and experience the truth of what is going on, we can end up with a repetition of the programming that is handed down from one generation to the next, with all the same situations and pre-programmed meanings. If we choose not the see what is there, then it, with the help of Fate will choose how to best show us what it really is. Remember the universe is perfect and knows how to teach us learn. It all has to do with Love and God, the ultimate consequences of the truth.
With these two aspects gnawing at us from inside, then we will not seek the truth ourselves and just continue to live the lies that we have been for generations and thereby feeding into the system of evil, for it is devoid of the real truth and only wants it's version. Any justification comes from avoiding the ultimate truth and simply saying that there are many truths to this and that. The consequences are then that we just continue to live as our egos dictate and perpetuate the power of evil from within.