Gnosis of Life with God as Love

This book is about 'you', who 'you' are, and who 'you' are not, and it is for what 'you' really can be.

It is the start of a spiritual analysis that we need to do in order to understand our psychology and thus ourselves. As Freud was stumped on in psychoanalysis, we are defining the 'Id' (that primal chaos within the child that is not understood), as that where the 'seed of the soul' resides and where divine energy will come into being through a spiritual-analysis, awakening and enlightenment. In psychology the Id leads to the ego and then with society (parents, family, culture) it leads to the super-ego.

Einstein talked of us only using 3% of our brain and the rest is untapped. We will try to explain and point out a way that you can tap it all, as, most of us do not have any real inclination as to what spirituality is about, much less how it ties into psychology and thus life itself. We have seen so many of these words and did not understand them, so we left it to the theosophists to figure it out as we went on our merry way. The problem was that, they, never told us what the words meant as they had their own bickering to do and we did not want to get involved.

It is not complicated, nor does it take a 'rocket-scientist' to figure it out. What it takes is Love for yourself and for those around you. With love you can do anything you want, but it must be a conscious love. So where do we start? How about, neuro-linguistic programming? Funny word or expression, is it not? Without exploring this a little, most of us will be put off with the use of certain words. (You may want to refer to the neuro-linguistics page for the words that are confusing you and how we are meaning them).

As children growing up we learn the meaning of words from those who teach us, and, often they teach us what they learned and thus not necessarily the intuitive meaning of the word. Take evil as an example, what did it just conjure up in our head, bad demons, terrible people or something just as frightening? But what if it simply means something like, ‘that which is moving away from God’? Then we need to think of, well, what does God mean? A biblical person, a gray bearded man or a universal life energy that is all around us and is ultimate truth and unconditional conscious love. So, if God is that, then what of ‘evil’? How about defining it just as we said above, ‘that which is moving away from God’? Thus evil is not of God, but a creation of man in as much as we ‘are not moving towards God’ and thus we are being ‘evil’. Or is it too hard to take that we could be evil and not want to admit it. There is a whole section further on that deals amply with this 'evil'.

Suffice to say that anyone in that realm is not going to read this, or will just pull it apart, or worst, stop reading right here. Please, try to understand that it is not 'evil' in the religious sense of the word, but in the psychological sense, as applied to our Id, which does not know that it does not know what it is or is not doing. It is the greater part of our brain and our untapped unconscious. It is unconscious as we have yet to awaken it.

Slow down and take a deep breathe, this is not too complicated, just a deeper insight to life and love which in reality is God. We just need to think of the words and how we are using them and in what manner we mean them. Remember 'they' said 'they' would create a multitude of languages to confuse us, well guess what, they sure did.

All around us is beauty and love, yet without the truth to it, we just use it at our disposal as society has 'learned' us to do. Why just take it, as ‘it is mine for the taking’? Why not share it, grow it and make it more beautiful?

Venus (Love) would be so happy and Anibus (Truth) would be grateful for our trying to be better at life. It is our life to do with of our own free will. But does that mean to misuse it, to be 'evil'? We now know from all sources that, that is not the plan.

We just need to raise our consciousness and enlighten ourselves and to see what can become of all of this. As the saying goes, ‘The truth is out there’. Funny thing is that we seemed to be looking for it in the 60’s and 70’s, only to trade it in for a fast car, fast buck and a fast mate.

All of this was done without Love (God), unconditional, conscious, truthful cosmic Love. Not the kind that is made up of, ‘I love you’, which really means 'I like what you do for me so you can stay and I will stay'. That really interprets as, 'I will have physical contact with you, as you are what I want'. Wants are moving away from God as they are of the egos/sins. Needs are what we have in the soul to grow and be a better spirit for our next incarnation. And the next. And the next. Yet we must realize that needs are guided by our divineness and not by our animal instincts or our childish (and many times messed up) wants, reactions and desires. Learned behavior patterns that we could have done without. This however is our penitence, by 'Fate', being extracted until we wake up to it all.

Quite simply put, the egos/sins (those problematic behavior patterns) are like the ones talked of by theology and not the id, ego, and super-ego of psychology. The latter ones do have a tie in with the former ones, but for now let’s focus on the religious ones, as we have all had some exposure to them. Like it or not, please always remember that just because we do not believe something is true does not mean it is not true, it just means that we have yet to experience it.

In psychological parlance the Id (which in the books sub-title is formed by the intersecting of Life and God) is considered our original chaos at birth, that seething energy within us. From our point of view and analysis it is our Godliness ready to jump into action. It cannot be measured by science, nor can the psychologists and the like really put their hands on what is inside it, for it is the total unconscious part of us that we must make conscious via annihilation of the egoic ‘defects’ or ‘sins’, by replacing them with our virtues or at least really strengthening the virtues, thus weakening the egos.

The process: karma, reincarnation and penitence from the rulers.

It is known and has been told for eons that the process is always karmic, until we wake up to the law of cause and effect (world of dualities) and transcend it.

Without getting to technical as you can investigate it all for yourself, the process is one of: as it is above so it is below. So whatever we contemplate happening with God and the energies above, is in fact within us here and now. How the injection of our soul into the physical body happens is a matter of metaphysics, which you can study at anytime from the writings of all the great masters. What is important here and now is to understand what is really going on.

God being un-manifested unconditional conscious truth and love seeks to be within all beings, to manifest. Given we have the seed of a soul within us it seeks to be germinated and thus manifested into God. We need to be consciously and unconditionally loving with pure truth in order to grow our soul, which is presently sleeping within our Id.

Being an experiment of the Sun (total loving light and energy, Sacred Absolute Solar system) we can transform all energy into whatever we so choose. As we have fallen into a deep sleep from lives gone by, we need to take stock of what is going on, wake up to ourselves, if we wish to be all we can be from the transformation and transmutation of the energies.

We erroneously believe that we are this and that. We make ourselves feel this and that. Yet we choose to ignore the totality of who we are and thus just live the wheel of Samsura and its' karmic process. We will repeat all events and happenings until we choose to wake up our soul, germinate God within us. We need to finesse the law of karma like in a card game; it can be done and has been done by many. There is an internal karmic court with judges where we can plead our case, if we so choose.

If we think that we have awaken to our Godliness, then just take a look around and we will see, how things really are. Who are 'they' that kill, maim and lie? We always say 'the others'. Yet our own slate is not so clean. So how can we go about saying it is the others when we are just as at fault? The egos. They will make us believe whatever they want in order for us to function (their way) in this world here and now. They keep us asleep with our fascinations of our material world, without any consciousness of our soul's growth. We give our freedom of choice over to them.

We see calamities and we cry out why God what is going on. Where are you? Help us! Yet we do not even help ourselves be Godly, so how can God live amongst us. Look all around us and at our self. Are we truly a Godly person, or is like most people saying I am good, I am loving, I am peaceful etc (actually I am ambivalent), it is the 'other guy'. But where is our Godliness. 'We', as in a loving God 'got' changed for the 'I' in the ego.

God being the totality of loving conscious unconditional truthful energy, is all around us, to be transformed, transmuted or not. Think of it this way. We have maybe 10% of the world's population as so called spiritual leaders and maybe 10% of people trying to be consciously loving, unconditionally. So what is the other 80% doing? Making bombs. Making wars. Making money for its' own sake. Making lies to hide their fears and their other egos. Making whatever they can to be happy, which they really are not (as the ego will not allow them to give up the right to be unhappy), and so who is making, or germinating, or growing, or transforming God within themselves. Not many. So if we have 80% doing nothing, then we are surely going to end up with 80% none Godliness and thus evil. We are in a world of duality and if God is there so is evil. If we choose to ignore one then the other is not and then we only exist for a life with no after-life, no heaven, no anything once we are gone. Thus we substantiate our ego, selfishness, etc. and our right to be unhappy as it is all 'futile' anyway as there is no God.

But it does not have to be, or does it?

When we are born we are given our 'Fate and Destiny' to play out based upon previous lives and all of our actions. We are placed with egos/sins that tempt us into whatever we must overcome. We must pay penitence for all our egos/sins just as we receive good things for all our virtues we develop. 'Fate' demands that we wake up or repeat the actions all over again, the next time a lot harder. Our egos make sure of that for they are what the system, cosmos, hierarchies or whatever you want to call it, use to extract the penitence.

So unless we wakeup, germinate God from within, be that totally conscious loving person with unconditional pure truth (no lies at all), then we will just create a harder cycle for the next life, if there is one. As we revolve around the wheel of Samsura, and do not wake our soul up, we end up condemning ourselves to the abyss. Some call it 'crispy critters'. This happens at the time of a cataclysm that we have heard of before, just look into the evolution of our earth and we will see it all.

Some do not care or choose not to believe, and yet call themselves loving and thus think of themselves as Godly. How can they be when they will not germinate the soul and awaken to God, love and truth. We are all different characters on the path of life, and we have the free will to follow our egos or our soul. As our soul is bottled up inside, asleep, as it has been for many lives, how can we really be anything but egos and thus our sins? They are one and the same. We are in need of looking at our character weaknesses and changing them into strengths, just like changing our egos/sins into virtues. The personality characteristics are the same as the ego/sins and virtues. We can be a positive charge or a negative one. We all have free will, but for most that was handed over, sold out to, the one that pays us our asking price.

Penitence is extracted by the process, which we live in and it must be paid, consciously or unconsciously. One leads to freedom and enlightenment the other to allowing the egos the control and thus the abyss. Those who chastise us lovingly are trying to help us grow, awaken and germinate the soul. Those who chastise us for control do so for the egoic selfishness (narcissism) that most of us are actually living.

Narcissism is part of the psychological process whereby we realize that there is some power stronger than us and grow into it, thus transcending the narcissism (self-love). If a problem occurs at that infantile stage then we will develop a degree of narcissistic behavior. This is a disorder of low self-esteem (which attaches itself with greed to satisfy its wants). So in order to offset this weakness we create a larger 'self' and pump it up whichever way our egos can, justifying in a way that we are omnipotent and therefore raising the question, where is God; I am God. The seed is still asleep in our Id as it is not yet awaken. As we grow and find ways to feed our narcissistic self-centeredness wants, boosting our self-esteem, we end up truncating the seed, the soul within and appeasing ourselves (egos) in whatever manner we can. It becomes a total lack of consciousness and we perpetuate the evil that narcissism is, pride, lust, gluttony, envy and any other part the ego can get us to swallow, that is to live, in order to pay penitence or retribution for unjust deeds and actions. So the ego is good for those who choose to stay asleep and pay penitence unconsciously. However, as we can see this takes us into an endless loop, whereby we are presented with a situation of penitence and instead of being conscious to it, we react with another ego and this creates another 'karma' to pay, and so on and so on.

Control your egos or be controlled by them or those of others.

Our spirit (soul's Id) enters the fetus in the last months of pregnancy and comes and goes at will. This is to allow the connection between the bio-psychological brain of the fetus and our eternal spirit to create our soul. Something strange but think on it and intuitively you will see what is happening here. Until we are about 5-6 years old our spirit comes and goes as our body sleeps. This sets the pattern for our life of astral travel, which helps us grow and understand. This is the time when children are learning psychological traits and yet are the most attuned to the realities of the world. This is when they see things that we do not, yet we did at their age but forgot it all.

Unfortunately most children, due to cultural and parental habits, are exposed to a great deal of problematic behavior situations. The spirit was cognizant of it all, and tried, and is still trying to help to fix it, to get us to wake up to it all. What a learning process; undo the bad and keep the good. So as we grow from one stage to the next, we bring along our childhood psychological problems, learn some more new ones and , thank Fate, fix some of the old ones.

Our challenge on the journey is who or what is in control, with the first answer as a child being, the goodly instinct, a virtue of our spirit/soul combination. Later we grow into our egos, good and bad, learned from caregivers and society. Eventually we try to spread our wings and be ourselves. The question then becomes 'who are we'?

In the psychological sense, we are our 'unknown Id' that chaos of energy that created an ego from an error in the 'narcissistic' process and then ended up somewhere in the super-ego. The super-ego is that part which is really the subconscious of ourselves that has a set of morals and beliefs spoon fed to us by our caregivers and society, yet was never tested, experienced by us as 'real or ultimate truth'; but that we had to accept as fact in order to survive in this egoic world. Within the sub-conscious space we will also find the energies of all our childhood traumas, abuses, crisis and things that have yet to be resolved, but that were buried in order to cope, to survive. As are Id was not parented, we became our ego, which was.

As we move into early adulthood and sexuality, we start a family not even knowing if we are ready or capable. And given the state of all of our societies it is apparent that we were not. But why? Transference is the simplest way to teach and learn. So the older transfer their psychological songs (egos and learned behavior patterns) to the younger. Now this is not so bad if the old teaching us are conscious, non-evil (that is working towards God not away from) or they had a good upbringing themselves. 'Introjections' is the term Freud coined for this transference in that it is injected into the ego and super-ego of the child.

More often than not, what happened in our male dominant society, was that seeing how men controlled women and how women accommodated men, (giving in and just allowing things to continue due to fear etc), the child while growing picked up the same patterns as the parents. In other words, the egos of the parents transferred (were injected) into and became those of the child, through obedience and fear, and of course guilt, which was itself strengthened by most of the religious or cultural systems around.

So to answer the question; 'who or what is in charge', we need only look at the psychological egos and/or religious sins within ourselves, to see that it is they, and not really our soul that is in control. This answers in part the problem of the issue of control for so many women as it is the men that are doing the controlling in one form or another.

If we are conscious of these facts, if we can see a little past our egos, where the essence of our soul tries to shine through (tap into the Id), then we can see what is really going on. For it is only being conscious of cause and effect that we can start to awaken to 'what and why' things happen the way they do. It does cause a little bit of suffering to be diggin around inside our psyche and seeing the truth of ourselves, but then again most of us have been suffering inside, in one way or another most of our lives. It is always the ego and not the soul that suffers, and remember that the ego does not want to relinquish its' right to be unhappy. This is how our mid-life crisis comes to be and how the change of life at 50 sends so many of us for a loop, only to finish at retirement with a lot of unresolved issues. If we think that there were some crabby grandparents back when, just wait until the boomers hit old age.

Let’s face it, we have all had or still have feelings of impotence and seek an expression by controlling something, even our sicknesses can be traced to it. So why let anything that is not love (unconditional, truthful, conscious and Godly) control us? Why not live, that which we know intuitively inside ourselves who we really are, but have not been able to express? Why not live that which we have always felt yet seldom understood? We have been doing things the same way for so long that it is just repetitive actions with no thought or consciousness in it. Try another way, at least to see that it is better. Or as they say 'are we waiting until it hurts enough'?

We were not really taught by freedom of thought but more by control on what and how to act. Thus propagating the egos from one generation to the next. So, we already know whom or what is in control, it is just under disguise, which is actually under our consciousness, thus unconscious to us. We have to find ourselves and work on being all that we can be, for ourselves first, God/Love second and then humanity. We are first, as we have the choice or not to follow Love and God to the highest points, that is if we decide that we are worth Loving. But do we really love ourselves enough, or are we fearful enough to give in, give up and just live egoically?

Jesus Christ Historical and Metaphysical

So, as the story goes (mostly from the Masonic and other such groups) JC was born into the top ranking family of his day and was privileged to access many of the ancient mysteries since forgotten. Like the arc of covenant and other ancient texts explaining things that Buddha had access to as well as many others before and since.

As the eldest son (although some say he was a twin, and the other one was crucified) he was heir to a very powerful position. However, having raised his consciousness to the ultimate truth, and knowing God as conscious unconditional love, he was not going to accept the propagation of falsehoods that would continue to allow the less fortunate to be controlled. With freedom in mind he set out to right the wrongs and share the gnosis of being one with God, as is everyone’s right. In essence, to die for our sins, no matter what they are, but he did not say to us that we should keep on sinning, as many believe, from Monday to Saturday.

Reading the various books on this subject will give us much clearer insight into all the BS that the system has handed down to us since then, including ‘Who Wrote the Bible’ and what they left out and why. How Mary was impregnated by one of the elders called Gabriel and how the resurrection worked for all concerned. When all the narcissists are fed, nobody complains, but truth seekers never stop seeking. (This is actually part of our karmic rebalancing), but they usually somehow end up dead. Then again we all will one day, so that we can be reborn again and again.

We can see how politically corrupt it was in those days, just like today. But moreover, it ties together all the loose ends of the period and gives us back our right to ask questions, and be one with God, without laws or dogmas to control us. Read the Ancient Dead Sea Scrolls and the Nag Hammed papers to see what JC really said to the disciples and why it has been kept away from us.

Conspiracy theory? Why not? It is of an advantage to the pure narcissist of the day, and best of all, we have been living that part of the movie for 2000 years. He did have all the metaphysical aspects, but even these where diverted to underground Gnostic lineage in order to protect the truth and convey it from generation to generation. The bad guys in those days had an easier time to wipe out their targets. Today given how things are, who is going to believe any of it anyways.

We know he studied in Alexandria Egypt the site of the best libraries that the world had to offer then. We know that the books were mostly in Greek, which was the language of government and religion at that time; too bad they were all burnt. More important, we learned that he was in India and the east learning all the esoteric things it has to offer. Thus, the metaphysical part comes into the picture. He literally did become one with God, for he attained the Gnosis of how all things on earth and in heaven work and thus ascended to the levels of energy that only a true master/blessed one can. Remember, it is inside of us all as the Id, asleep, unknown yet there, just like magic. He and the others (masters) now reside in Agartha/Shambhala, which is known as the 'cosmic mirror' beyond time and thought. It just is. He was born on the same day that all the great messiahs before and since have been born; Dec 25^th, which is chosen day for a multitude of reasons and from this he knew that all of us could touch the divine as much as possible, given the merits of our heart. He managed to spread the word to those who would hear, and thus propagate the ultimate truth and conscious unconditional love. God.

Much was written in parables as he tried to circumvent the system that was 'out to get them', yet many of his and other groups sacred teachings still exist. But, sadly as he said 'be like the money changers and learn to take the good from the bad', so much is used in a corrupt manner. Thank you, that you have intuition and a soul to separate the wheat from the chaff.

Scholars and the like may not want to agree on many of these facets, yet each knows the gnosis of it all and has an interest that it goes their way and not some other. Yet the truth is what it is and not what man made it to be, or molded to what he wants. That is self-interest and thus narcissistic. Many have been privy to a lot of those secrets and yet most have not wanted to share it, for they could have competition in their realm of narcissistic propagation and control. Why would anyone want to hide the arc of covenant that is said to contain a great type of thermal energy source and the ways for building the pyramids, cathedrals and a host of other mathematical processes?

Many times it has been said that ‘They do not tell us the truth of this or that for our own good and some to protect us as we are not ready’. Not ready for what, we are all in the same movie and trying to listen to the director (the Boss) but can’t hear him as we have our minds full of BS, and really don’t know which way is up with all the narcissists yelling go this way or that way. We are all humans, living the same experiences of life on earth, and have a right to know the gnosis of it all, if we are interested and work to it. Some of us need to know, as our soul cannot be made quite by anything but the ultimate truth. They just want us to be the players in their movie and do not like it when we try to direct. God gave you freedom of choice, use it or lose yourself, your energy, to the one you submit to, for a penny or for an awakened conscious.

JC both historical and metaphysical left us many great things, but the most cherished would be that we need no one between God and us for we have God within, waiting to be germinated, grown and lived. And God will wait and wait and wait and wait until we act first (not react, which is from one ego or the other) and ask for help, for God helps those who help themselves. Follow the path of JC and the other prophets and you will find God, yourself. After all it is the greatest story ever told and it is a Love story at that.

The metaphysical part is more obscure, especially in the west, as we do not have the same openness to intuition and mysticism as they do elsewhere. Nonetheless it can be investigated and understood with belief and faith, in ourselves first and then in God. For as we start to fully love ourselves unconditionally and truthfully, we start to raise our awareness (consciousness) and be all we can be. We can then start to undo the egoic entanglement in our minds and thereby live as that unconditional love we all are.

When we give all to God before ourselves (which by the way when it says ‘have no other Gods before me’ means that Godly part of us and not someone outside of us that many try to make us believe) we are not helping ourselves but just asking to be helped. This is a type of process of narcissism in which we center on our problem and then on our pain without taking a look at our self first and saying, 'let me get to the bottom of me' so 'I know myself and thus a part of God'.

If we know 'It' in us, then we can see 'It' in others. If we know 'It' in us, then we can see when 'It' is not being lived in us or in others. Just like child development, when we copy those who nurture us or at least train us and grow us for the first 6 odd years. Baby steps at first and like in the movie ‘What about Bob?’ we will be on the road to being all that we can be. Better for us and better for all those around us.

As Matsuo Basho said ‘Seek not to follow in the footsteps of men of old; seek what they sought’. Freedom of choice as it was.

Sex: Tantric (or how to transmute our energy, if we want to)

We are not ones to be crude, but to get a point across allow us this one: as humans we are literally screwing our brains out. How? We all know basic chemistry and evolution, which is to say that at least we understand transformation of one type of energy to another type. Just as a log burns to create heat so does the nutrients we intake transform to create all the physical parts that we need to live and be, our own inner energy.

It has been written of over and over that passion is the animal nature of man and has been related to the Satan, the devil. The part that they are actually talking of is that which we allow to take over us instinctually and not consciously. Our egos. So each time that we have an orgasm (expulsion of energy out of our body) we are literally reducing our state of consciousness. In psychology the biological process has been studied, measured, and they know that it is a manner of riding us of our aggression. Why? Think of a battery that is fully charged and functioning normally, then start to overcharge it with impulses (in our case all the sounds, sights, and touches of more than romantic/erotic nature) and it will over heat and blow up. The pressure build up prior to blowing up is at that point uncontrolled, just as we did not consciously want it to blow up, we just did not pay attention to it. Now bring together a concept of our aggressive world and the current state of decline to decadence and we have a problem. If an orgasm can curb aggression then why are we so aggressive? Simple. We are addicts. Sex is just like a drug we need more and more to attain the same high or result. Worst, as we get older, use to such and such a method or stimulant, we need to seek new ways to attain the same old want, for that is all it is, a want, not a goal/journey like life, not a method of communication like intimacy, but just as many have said, rutting.

So then how does the brain get affected by all of this? By lack of the strongest and most powerful energy in the cosmos feeding it. We just expel it and instead of feeding our consciousness, our soul, our love, our virtues, we feed our egos. Many have told us that too much 'passion' was evil, and that is precisely what we are feeding them. The 'passion' in most cases is just egos of lust, desire, pride and we imagine the others as well, for they are all interconnected somehow, somewhere, in our psyche. So what should we do, stop-making love, many would ask out of narcissistic frustration in condescending attitudes. Thus the ego is getting hyper and not wanting to believe what it is reading, hearing or thinking. Lets get it straight, most of us are not making love, but are in fact having sex, or just rutting. Making love is something divine and something that requires, intimacy, nurturing, caring, tenderness and most of all communication. Consciously. So what have we been doing all these years? Be honest and tell the truth! Don't forget, we were all injected with the egos of those who cared over us, and thus if they did not have it within them and showed us, then we had to find out all about nurturing intimacy ourselves.

So what can we really do to stop the tide from drowning us? Well how about by stopping what we have been doing up to now, re-examine the meaning behind it all and start to communicate with our mate. We will be surprised at what we find. Most of us have the same issues, same egos and thus keep the same things hidden or buried for fear or shame of guilt, ridicule and pride.

Transmutation is a word that has been around for eons, and simply put means the process of changing willfully something into something else. It has been used in the context of our inner energy in esoteric writings for the practice of moving our energy from our genitals (think of our inner hormones and how they are made and act) consciously up to our head. Sort of like giving ourselves hot flashes of the erotic kind. This transmutation has little to do with erotic stuff, but is simply the opening of your various energy canals by conscious breathing and focus, as acupuncture does with the chi in the body. There are books and books written on this process and many talk of the fantastic benefits it brings. Remember that 'truth can start to heal all wounds and Love does heal all wounds'. Yet there are also dangers that lurk behind as well. They are called our egos.

If we undertake to work in this process with our mate, we need to understand that if we start to play with it 'as a new toy', a new way to reach greater orgasms etc. then we can be assured that we will get burnt. We know that our soul wants to get out from under the egos, but it is so bottled up, that it needs a super charged power, sexual energy to be freed. But if we are just doing it for fun or joy and not really trying to raise our or our mate’s consciousness, then all we are really doing is feeding our egos, in mega doses that can injure and in some cases kill. Lust is the first in line and all the other egos following in line for their morsel of it as well. Remember who is controlling whom? So what happens? The same as before only worse in that we are now looking at an overfed, hungrier ego that is starting to think it is God, invincible, all-powerful and dominant over the mate. Thus, if both are not on this path, it is most assured that one will be even more dominant over the other. The battery at some point will explode and injure, perhaps profoundly just as some types of child abuse and trauma, so buyer beware.

On the other hand, if we are willing to communicate, to create intimacy, nurturing where only egos once ruled, then we have a chance to really raise our consciousness and be all we can be, for ourselves, for God and for others. Remember that God is unconditional love and ultimate truth, consciously. And, that is what we will be creating within our couple, a Godly union of two energies, just as the cosmos is. But please let us not fool ourselves; beware of the ego, the narcissism. We know that in order to attain this type of consciousness raising we need to withhold the orgasm. Yes we did say withhold it. More to the point, we need to be transmuting it from the genitals to the brain. Just as we fed our egos up to now with the expulsions, we need to transmute the energy up to our brain. Some maybe shocked to hear of this or see it written, but just look at it as magic, we did not know it before and now we do. And, if we are in doubt of this or want more concrete data to satisfy ourselves, then all we need do is research it from the Buddhists, the Taoist and the Gnostics. They all knew and now of this part of the enlightenment process and just how hard it is. But, they also know that the benefits are far greater than the work at doing it right. Besides, if we ask our mate and they are truthful, they will most likely admit that many a time they did not have an orgasm, but felt rested. Try it and see if you happen to notice a difference thereafter, just one try is all that is needed. Why not try it first thing in the morning before starting the day when the energies are all waking up and you are sure to find the day, exhilarating.

Sounds difficult. It all depends on how strong our egos are and how hard we are willing to try. Let’s face it, we have been doing as we have been doing up to now, and it is not making or getting any better. Something is wrong. Try investigating and analyzing it and then we can decide for ourselves what it really is. If anything we are sure it will bring a lot more harmony and joy back into our lives, not to mention a lot of happier relationships.

Evil and Narcissism

First of all let us use the word evil to mean ‘simply that, which moves away from or is not actively moving towards or acting Godly’. Gods means unconditional conscious love. Added in is always ultimate truth, our soul's and not the egos. Of course there is the whole cosmonology of our souls (which you can glimpsed at in 'Karmic Balancing'), if you want to read about it check out 'Pista Sophia' by Samael Aun Weor, father of modern Gnosticism.

We learned from our elders, they learned from theirs and given that man is more apt than not to lie for gain, it is reasonable to accept that non-Godly actions are done in the name of gain, one type or another. So with this inner built self-interest comes self-centeredness, which is also known as narcissism (which is itself a disorder of 'self-esteem'). It is at the bases of all things evil and egoic, from both the psychological level and the spiritual point of view. When we grow up under the control of others, they can either form us into goodly people, or we can be exposed to their own egos that will in fact turn us into not so goodly people, into acts of self-interest, self-centeredness and ultimately narcissistic evil.

Just as from olden times, man has manipulated the truth of most things, thereby creating a narcissistic process that was in fact handed down from generation to generation. Some cultural groups and some religious ones are better at it than others, but suffice to say that they are all affected, except the ones that are not. Since this self interest and self centeredness really got out of proportion in the peace and love era, when all we did was for instance gratification and for the continuation of our consumer society, we created the ultimate disposable, ‘relationships’. Not to say that that had not been in existence before, it is just that we popularized it, as we have a so many things, like narcissism. Think of it, we propagated evil ourselves, just as those before us. Unconsciously, perhaps in some cases, but in most, just a cause and effect of the egoic wants, forgetting the soulful needs.

Within our family units, we find that this is most prevalent when we get into situations that we refuse to see or admit, as those that may have nurtured us cannot be evil or do evil things, therefore, how can we be if we are doing just as they did and are still doing; just as they taught us. We choose to see only what we (the ego) wants to see, and depending on which ego is looking at it, what we don’t want. Thus, self-centeredness is back at play and teaching us gratification from egoic thoughts. So we merrily go along feeding our narcissism (there is a whole story in itself of this process worth understanding) and literally being evil. Supported by like people of like minds (the ones that taught us and put all the stuff that is in our heads, in our head) we believe that we are strong (actually we gave our strength and freedom to the leader who has the strongest control or narcissism over us) and all that we do is right.

If we should encounter someone who is conscious and questions what we do and why we do it, we feel that they are not part of our family or group and thus they are wrong with their questions. Don’t forget at this point if we were to accept their consciousness, then we would have to question ours and it may mean that they are right and that we have been living a lie (albeit a family taught one) all along. So by rejecting them it is easier to stay unconscious and not face reality, the ultimate truth, and thus Fate keeps on extracting its' penitence.

Just as it goes inside of us, so it goes around us. The business world is a reflection of our personal lives. Problems at home, problems at work. Bad relationship at home, bad ones at work. Lies at home and you can be sure lies at work. So the wheel of Samsura takes us around and around. Until we wake up to our divine self, no one knows when it will stop.

Thank God that our spirit and Fate are always there to guide us into being stronger and more awake, like it or not. Did you ever wonder why there is so much substance abuse? It has to do with living reality without God. Like it or not, let’s face it; while we were brought up with ‘I love you’, there was always some condition attached to it. 'If you do this or that, if you say this or that, if you give me what I want or if I want what you give'. So in reality we say I love you but it is without God and just a type of abuse to our soul. It is very rare to see an ‘I love you’ for you and your Godliness, for the respect of you being who you are and not what your egos try to make as an image. That is the way we need to love life, beauty and thus ourselves. That is to say we need to be unconditional, conscious and truthful.

Narcissism does not like this. It cannot control that. Therefore it rejects all that comes to it and that will not feed it on its' own basis. So the wheel of Samsura goes around and around. We are living the lies and thus the evil taught to us and we choose not to wake up to it. What will our generation do when they retire, once they have more time to really think? Try peace and love again. That would be fun instant gratification, but will surely have a lot of problems with it, medical and psychological. So, given our upbringing, our lack of real love, and our move away from Godliness, what can we do? Well firstly, don’t sweat the small stuff, as we will sooner or later learn it all (Fate knows how to extract penitence and teach us). Our spirit will make sure of that. Thank God. Secondly, we need to revisit ourselves and all that we have done, and see if we can wake up to our own causes and effects, we all have them and all that is required is belief that we can do it.

But most of all we need to learn to love ourselves, in the divine way we were meant to. It is all up to us to choose what we want to know and see what we don’t. Until this happens, until we really do care for ourselves and thus for God and others, we cannot be free and happy with who we are. Because quite frankly we are not who we are, but who we were taught to be, just as an animal was taught so were we. Egos, mostly of the instinctive nature, but nonetheless what we are and how we act. So in fact we are no one, not a soul, not a real human being that has a soul, knows Love and thus God. So, where do we want to go today? Nowhere that causes problems, so let us just forget it or brush it off.

Ambivalence

As a modern day propagator of evil, we see ambivalence just about everywhere, and we have all been affected by it and worst have fed into it. Just look at the home life we grew up in and that we formed our egos around. It was when we should have done well and did bad, without any guilt or remorse over it. It was when we saw others doing not good things and did not point it out, without at least keeping evil via narcissism in check. We have all been a party to both of those situations, lamenting that there is nothing we can do about it. Just as we lament, that there is nothing we can do about repeating all the patterns that we were taught, and that we have blindly kept as we were told to do. We were made to believe that what we were stuffed with, spoon-fed with, was alright and not to argue about it. Whatever happened to free will ours and that of those around us? Actually we do know what happened, we gave up our free will to the one that was stronger narcissistically than we were/are. It was/is probably some family member, like a spouse or a parent, and as such the wheel of Samsura keeps turning and turning. Thus we fed into narcissism, which must be fed, by being ambivalent, just to survive. Ambivalence today creates more harm than a lot of the nuclear weapons, in as much as; it is one of the main problems of us all. To one degree or another. Such as it does come in degrees from some little white lie to some out and out fraud.

So why is it there and why does it persist? Three little letters will answer it very nicely and directly. S E X. We all know how to spell; we all know what is meant. Think of all the energy we expulsed from our body and did not use for conception, nor for transmutation of consciousness. Why? Instant gratification. So we became tired and lethargic because we achieved that which we (our egos) were seeking, an orgasm (actually from the biological standpoint we just made ourselves tired physically). That lasts for how long? Good thing we have freedom of choice to do that, just like the animals are doing, rutting. As it has been said, we all have sex because ‘I love you’ means just that, I want to have sex with you, or in the least if you stay around because I say it, then I will have that chance and thus we go on rutting just as the animals do. Just as the animals don't 'talk' during the act it is a none fact that most do not either. Yet that is one of the main things that separates us from the animal kingdom and brings God into the bedroom. As we hear those protest to this, we also now that without that Love in us God is not about to make an appearance, just because we use words, actions always speak louder than words and that is were we find the vibrations that are needed in order to hear properly.

Yet those conscious of their ambivalence come to find that making love with God as the union of the two, after communicating with their mate is what unconditional love, consciousness and truth is all about. They do not allow the ego to take over too much, or in some cases at all. They try their best to be the best they can be and awaken as much as possible to who they are and what they are. They do not fool themselves into false thinking, they just try their Godly best to be, real unconditional conscious love, making things better for themselves and all of those around them. They try and live life with as much truth as possible so that they do not have to maintain ambivalence in their life and thus propagate the evil within. They really do live life to its' fullest potential, or at least they try as hard as they know how. That is what love is all about, trying to the best of our abilities and knowledge. And don't forget that just as with our justice system, ignorance of the laws it not an excuse.

So where do we go from here?

We have the freedom to choose that which we want, that which we decide. When it is the ego of this or that deciding what we do then we can at least thank God that our spirit will always one way or another get us back on the right track. The only thing is that it is the hard way, for it is not voluntary suffering as is growing up and having a disciplinary person help you be all that you can be, for and of yourself (the chastisement of nurturing); then they try and help you realize that you to can make a difference to the love of life, through God. Which simply means being unconditional conscious love, truthfully. Most of this stems from our inner psychological song that has been played over and over in our head, as we have yet to re-write it. As JC said, 'be like that money changer and keep the good but reject the bad'. So we have to do the same thing we all the spoon-fed or stuffed into us reactions to actions that we learned by rote but never experienced ourselves to know if it is a real truth. We learned a lot by trial and error of what was real bad, but very little on what was a little bad and next to nothing on what was real good.

Psychology as started by Freud mapped out the thinking process and the effects that all things had on us, sort of like the matrix of our mind. We are helping to map out the method of repair from the weaknesses to the strengths, by being consciousness of ourselves, our Id and by dissolving the egos into virtues. Spirituality is just the continuation of psychology, with God in the picture. That is to say, why we are…Love, unconditional, conscious and truthful. Without God in the picture, is when we made ourselves God, as Freud points out in the 'narcissistic stage'.

The term psycho-spiritual very well describes the path that we are on, learning to see the entanglement of our egos into our Id.

Sexual Analysis to Sexual Healing

As Freud worked out, 'discovered' in his work on our psyche leading to psychoanalysis, all of our challenges and problems of the mind have their base in our innate basic sexuality. This is mainly, as he pointed out, due to the fact that as an organism we seek propagation to continue ourselves. He never managed to tap into the 'Id' and just called it our primary chaos of instincts and the subconscious. To us this is the very seat of the seed of our soul that lies wanting to be germinated and awaken. This in itself can be understood on both the psychological side as well as the spiritual side. If as Freud said, the Id is the basic chaos of our inner workings as well as our instincts, and as we grow we can experience many things others don't (due to a variety of reasons, such as awakening our conscious) then it holds to the fact that as the soul must be grown and must be awaken, as it is with us at birth, thus, for our analysis it is inside the Id which is the chaos and basic instincts. This can be viewed as in the duality in egos and sins, as both are the same. So our Id in psychology is our soul in spirituality.

When we are newborns the only thing we seek is nourishment and this develops into a love object. The love object could then be male or female, as we know no difference. At this point Fate is already at work as we interface with our caregivers who are good or bad towards us, based upon what Fate attached to us as we were born and what karmic situation we must live with those caregivers. This karmic process is either the receiving of payment for past and present virtues or the extraction of penitence for unbalancing the universal harmonic energies in previous incarnations. So, 'do unto others as you would have them do unto you' comes into play as we repeat the actions of past lives, this time perhaps the karma is being done us.

As we grow through our psychological situations and thus into our own psyche creating our future behavior patterns we also experience areas that are problematic, with the most common ones being 'under' or 'not developed' and the next being erroneous methods that will stay with us for a life time, unless we become conscious of them. As it is stated in 'Pista Sophia Unveiled' (ancient esoteric wisdom), we must pay karma for past deeds and thus Fate has attached itself to us in order to make sure that this is done by using the egos of the mind in performing this function and thus as spirituality says, 'leads us not into temptation' and tests our resolve to wake up from our 'sins'.

Added on to this, is the fact that in more situations than we want to believe or accept, are the really tough problems that have in fact created a trauma, an abuse of some kind. What ever the manner that the parent (as it usually is, but not always) miss treated us to the point of our needing to setup a coping mechanism, it stays with us and becomes repressed within, externalizing in many different ways, which is just as detrimental to our mental health as the act that was done to us. From all of this we have the present state of decline within our human race which, as the number of beings grows, so does the number of these kind of situations, and it extrapolates from there. The sins propagate themselves simply by the fact that as egos, which we all have and understand little of (or use to defend ourselves with or cope in the world), we believe that we are good and all is well within. If what we grew up with is bad, how would we know good? The only real way is the soul and its' mission of total enlightenment.

With all of this, when we arrive into teen years, the bases of our sexuality is created. From this point on we then act out and further pursue the same line of discovery, investigation and ultimately our behavior pattern for life. As we have setup our values, morals and the like from our caregivers, which were their egos injected into us, we now have a super-ego of parental and society authority telling us what to do. Right or wrong, as un-awaken beings we just repeat by rote which we learned through what was taught to us without any analysis of good or bad, right or wrong. If they had such and such sin, we mostly likely have the same one because of transference of the ego and thus the perpetuation of erroneous behaviors, known or unknown.

If we have been exposed to inappropriate behavior from someone during this time, it registers in our psyche as a pattern, as we learn things and then repeat them as being ours.

We will also, if the Id, ego and super-ego are in conflict; create a coping manner such as repressing the action into our sub-conscious. This repression will stay locked up until it is worked out. Sort of like the soul is made aware of the situation and has been given the task to watch over it all and figure out a way to make that which is unconscious, conscious. At this point it would seem that the iceberg is getting bigger at the bottom and not at all smaller above water.

As we are not conscious of what has gone on with us, all we can do is live the best way we can and to the best of our abilities, carrying the repressed stuff as a backpack. This in itself leads us into further kinds of 'wrong' or 'erroneous' and 'egoic' actions. Egoic because it is the ego that is dictating what we can and cannot do. From a humoristic point of view, it is as if Fate gave a job to the ego to do but even the ego will not listen and do it. But as Fate must be, we can be sure that it will figure out a way to do so, that is if what the ego is doing is not what Fate needs it to do. Awakened a little and knowing what is in the backpack, we can transcend it all, which is the mission of the soul, and awaken to become fully conscious.

Given the conflict that is built up between the ego and the super-ego we become unstable as to what is right and what is wrong. Even though the material maybe repressed, as with all psychoses, it must externalize itself somehow. Thus we develop character 'flaws'; that is to say psychological characteristics that are not strengths but weaknesses. This is the coping mechanism. However, it does not heal itself and we can literally live our lives in a state of instability from our psychological manners. This conflict is really the want of Fate due to our sins and will remain as such until we change, which most of us do not want to do. Most of us are not conscious of our sins just as we are not conscious of our own egos, only of what we (the ego) wants us to be conscious of. The externalization of the psychoses is in fact the soul trying to get a message to us that it is bottled up inside and that something is wrong with us. As we age the externalization can change from one thing to another, but it will still be there, nudging us and gnawing at us, something is missing, something is not right.

This instability in the case of our sexuality is usually manifested in the ways we have heard of or seen ourselves, and from all points of view, is what has given women a very bad rap and some men as well. If women were miss treated in some way and grew up believing from the super-ego (were parental and society morals are) that this is the way things are and everyone will treat them as such, they then come to expect it, come to seek it out and thus becomes it, for they doe not know anything else, anything better, or at least any change is not acceptable to the super ego and the coping is necessary. The soul is not in the picture of this instability as it is of the mind and the heart is hurting and thus paralyzed. Women are easy prey for a lot of these problems due to the sexual energy that they contain, being the bearers of children and thus more refined. They will act from the ego as all damage has made the soul even more of a prisoner of the Id, the subconscious. Remember the ego can only repeat things, it cannot use logic as the soul does, for God is not there, as God/Love is conscious in the heart, which is hurting or damaged and sent into the subconscious to cope with it all.

In all parts of behaviorism we could say that if we treat someone as the image they portray, then they will not disappoint us and thus act as that image, which most likely was a coping mechanism in the first place. Things are not always as they appear to be. When we awaken our soul, even a little, we start to see the soul of others and thus we can see the difference between the ego and the soul. The image is of ego; conscious love is of the soul. Just as many a man shows the image of a tough guy, he can just as easily be a softy inside but the coping image of a tough guy was needed in order to survive some wrongdoing towards him as he grew up. He was shown the egos of another, learned to repeat them and then did not allow for the soul's growth, awakening. Those teaching him had the same phenomenon growing up themselves.

So we have a matrix of people that were in one way or another problematically raised and portray images of what they really are not deep inside, their psyche. Look at ourself in the mirror and we can understand what is meant. Many actors play the movie of life, and those are of the ego/super-ego mix. It is not the real self, but the one created by the growing being in order to cope and do the best they could. At this point we actually have the blind leading the blind, for the parents are just repeating in some form or another what happened to them and what their egos dictated. 'Thou shall not create false images' is one of the commandments and this in and of itself refers to our 'God' (Love) that is within. While we do manage to cope through most of this, we also manage to keep the soul asleep, as we do not take any direct action to awaken it. 'Let those who have eyes see, and those who have ears hear' was meant to be of ourselves (as do most of the sayings) but we have been too busy living our egos to be ourselves. Just think, somebody starts an ego and then 2000 years later everybody in the world (just about) is doing the same. What power, what control, what unconsciousness.

So our sexuality becomes one based in the ego and thus of instincts, of what we learned and were taught to do, willingly or not. It is not of our free will, for that is still un-developed within the Id, which is the unknown chaos within all beings. We did not learn to attach our sexuality to the soul's awakening for consciousness and thus have rutted and thus sinned, (fornication is the sin and even if we are married we can still end up doing the fornicating with our wife) perhaps unknowingly as many believe, but also with a gnawing feeling that something is not right. Sexuality when used and of the soul can set us free from the bonds of Fate. So far we have just become as sheep, following one another and not really knowing where we are going, unconscious and without our inner guide in full state of awaken-ness. We just repeat whatever and ultimately create our own unhappiness. So we need to be as lambs with the Christ as our guide, helping to awaken us from our egos. This will give us true happiness, as we will then be our true selves and thus a true being, not an egoic one.

So now we know that something is wrong and as long as we just say that it is all this way and there is nothing we can do about it, or that just as the others are doing so can we, or worst, that because our caregivers taught us it must be true; we cannot accept (as we do not understand) to change it that is to make it right. Jesus the Christ said 'leave your parents/rulers and follow me, for if you do not believe in me you do not deserve me'. What is meant to our soul by this is that as we know something is wrong, not right, we need to look at the way we got to this point, how we formulated our egos and super-ego and whatever is bad/weaknesses we need to change it into good/strengths. Just because someone taught us something, does not mean that it is right, unless we have investigated it using our soul and not our egoic mind and thereby experienced the truth of it. The mind will make us believe whatever the egos need it to in order to keep control and perhaps cope psychologically against the truth. Yet as we all know that the truth will set us free and allow the healing of all wounds to start, we literally lie to ourselves and believe that we are not suffering inside. We just pull it all in and say that we are going to be happy. Just remember that the egos want to maintain our unhappiness, so that they stay in control.

As many so-called human beings miss treated those in their care, we have a number of generations that have a lot more psychological problems than in the past. We have too many people acting in manners that are not conducive to their own mental and physical health, especially were our sexuality is concerned. As it goes, 'lust is the path to evil' and this can be seen as we ignore our soul's awakening and growth for the sake of a few minutes of pleasure instead of days of ecstasy and years of bliss. If we stop the transference now, then we will be able to build a better tomorrow, for tomorrow is now.

Sexuality is good and with sensuality first leads to the road of discovering our real inner being and waking up our Id to re-write our ego and super-ego as we would have it, lovingly and not as it was fed to us, controlling us, then it leads us to the divinity of ourselves, to God/Love within that is waiting to be recognized. Duality exists and it is what we really need to understand within ourselves so that we can shift over into that which is consciously awakening our soul within, as well as that of our mates. The egos are fighting tooth and nail and betting that we do not wake up. How do we know that we have a problem and how can we fix it? From the spiritual point we know things are going downhill fast and thus something is wrong, something needs to be fixed. What?

Take your pick, psychological egos or spiritual sins, both one and the same. The first part is somewhat straight forward, behavior patterns are the first give away and then if we venture into some psychological character testing we will find the things that are not within what the system calls the 'norm'. The norm being made up of those with and those without problems and thus looking at the details of what makes to two different. If we look at those character tests, we will see that a lot of the questions are of a moral and thus a spiritual nature. Now the psychologist is not going to have you think in terms of 'God' when answering, but as you do you will notice the duality of the ego/sin situation. A lot of us that have left the religious system, or attend in body but not really in mind, did so as it did not fit our egoic conception of what we could or could not do, and what we wanted to do with the soul awaken or not.

As for the fixing part, this is where sexual healing comes in. As we know, sexual energy is the strongest energy around as it is what propagates us, and the universe around us, and as we mentioned before, most of us are in the instinctual level and thus just sexing with it and nothing more. At least with birth control we have a lot less people on earth than without, given our behavior patterns of rutting. Tantric/yoga sex practices are specifically what we are talking of. What is needed in this process, is a very loving and understanding couple that is really in love with each and are willing to handle any difficulties that will arise during the healing process. Each will more than likely discover things that they did not realize existed either in themselves or in their partner, especially in the case of abuse or trauma in upbringing. We need to create what is known as the 'Perfect Couple' as it exists within us, but we are just asleep to it. Our soul knows it is there and is waiting for its' chance to make it happen. This conscious love can move mountains, or as it says 'the one with as much faith as a mustard seed' can move mountains. Faith in your soul's divinity to do what true love can do, heal. The soul knows all and with help from the energies of Love/God, it will be revealed as we awaken. 'God/Love will not try/give us more than what we can handle'. Without this commitment to help ourselves heal we cannot heal the other either. We need to be in unison as both energies are required. What this allows for is the fusing of two loves that will overcome the blockage, as it is an energy blockage from repression and once unblocked, healing can begin. As the saying goes 'any two people meeting and acting in the thought and action of God, will have it done'. If we do not awaken our own soul, then we cannot help another awaken. 'First take the thorn out of your eye so that you can help your brother'. If we are two consciously loving soul's with faith, in ourselves and in the other, then we can move that mountain.

Once the focus is set on what we are trying to do then we can start the process. Without focus, as with the focus of the soul's mission to awaken consciousness, where are we really going, what are we going to work on? There are a number of self-help books out there that deal with the art of sexuality between two lovers from a vast array of manners and ways to proceed. What is not wanted in this process is to make it a focus of a sex practice for whatever better 'rutting' manners you have been doing up till now. We want to find 'intimate sensuality leading to sexuality' and this will allow for the opening of the energies that are blocked by the repression and thus bring out what was repressed. The art of tantric yoga/sex is the bases for all of this healing process and once we become exposed to it, we will begin to see what it is all about and why it works. However, buyer beware as it can be misused for unscrupulous ways.

At some point a mental health professional maybe needed in order to deal with the new realities that have been exposed. This will necessitate a commitment from both parties to under go whatever is needed in order to understand what has happened. If either of the two have shown an interest in psychology, then it is possible to at least get things underway and start the development, as when we are conscious, we become our own best psychologist.

In the practical aspect of the healing process; that is as the couple in loving embrace, what we need to do is listed as follows, in general terms. It is not all-inclusive and we should consult one of the many great books written on sexual intimacy that will get us on the road to healing. The soul is waiting for just such a chance at being one with the us, that is for us to be our real self, as such we will be making the 'Perfect Couple'.

Build a loving trust with each other by sharing our deepest darkest secrets, that way we will be totally truthful and loving to each other. When two souls talk it creates divine guidance from the energies.

Create a ritual around what we would like the encounters to be like; bathing, oils, perfumes, location, music and all the things we can think of that are not obtrusive to either one. Sacredness is a home for each one's soul.

Make a point of having time first for our self each week to meditate and then for the couple to do as well and begin talking in an intimate manner. Our own meditations will allow us to learn to relax and listen and talk from our heart, our soul as it were.

Using one of the many workbooks available on this matter, start to work through them, remembering to follow the steps and when they say no 'sexing' then please adhere to the process, for this is how the trust and intimacy is built up and maintained. We will be on a process of transforming our 'learned' behavior patterns of sexuality into a pattern that is our own (and our partner's), that is from our soul and not from our egos. It is easy to slip back into old patterns, but do not give up and do not beat ourselves up over it either, just keep trying.

Be sure that we do all the touching and caressing in a non-sexual but an erotic manner and stop when the book says to stop. Please do not step over the line that they have so carefully analyzed. Energy being as it is, our soul's enlightenment comes from feeding it to our soul and not the ego. To know the difference when feeding the ego, that is sexually instead of erotically, you can be sure to become conscious of the line between the two.

When it tells us to start with the actual acts, please pay attention to making sure that the calm and that the energies are properly flowing, any interruption or excess will lead to a new blockage, or the blockage simply transferring from one place to another. This transference is also part of the protection/coping mechanism, for the psyche will not allow the repressed material out unless all is in order. The ego senses this shift in energy to the soul's awakening and unless it is done with great conscious feelings, it is easy for the ego to find a new hiding place as it tries to survive the lack of energy feeding it, till it can figure out what to do.

We will notice that the part for the healing of women involves the mysterious or infamous G spot and we will be guided in how to find it and how to massage it while soul gazing into each other's eyes. If we feel that we cannot do this, then we need to get help so that we can, before we start. As the Id contains the seed of the soul, so does the G spot contain the built up of inappropriate actions that were done to the being. The eastern practices will fill us in on all of this. Gazing into the eyes of each other will allow for a full connection of the souls and coupled with prayers or mantras will allow us to have the energy of God with us. (God being total conscious truthful and unconditional love, which is a must to heal). The easiest place to find help is within our own being, asking those that we believe in for help, whoever they are as they are just waiting for a chance to help.

This is the point that when in each others arms, lovingly looking into each other's soul, creating a joint energy that is the strongest known to man, that we are actually opening up the memory into the sub-conscious to allow it to filter through into the conscious. This can be felt as a jolt at times and the couple must not lose eye or touch contact. The ego could create a sense of fear or angst at this time, as something new is entering into the conscious, which was in fact repressed for coping reasons, and thus this act requires a lot to loving energy to calm and keep calm.

This is where the valley of tears will start a flood. This is where we will find the hidden meanings to so much of the person's being. This is the tip of the iceberg of our consciousness. As Einstein said, we use 3% of our conscious and thus below in the unconscious we will find the 97% that is latent, waiting to be awaken. When we gain that consciousness, then we become real beings following the road less traveled, that of Jesus the Christ, tears will always be there as a prelude to great joys in our world of dualities.

We may not always succeed in tapping into that inner mystery the way we would like to. We may not be able to fully unblock the repression. And, we may not get to the bottom of our process, as the ego is strong and has many manners of fooling us and staying in control, thus alive. But, what we will get is a better understanding as to who the two of us are, a better appreciation for each other, more reverence for each other and thus more real conscious love for each other. We will in fact start to become enlightened beings, real humans. It is not a failure not to get to the bottom of the psychoses; it is a failure to not create that intimacy that is so lacking in just about all relationships. If anything we will have built a better couple and that is success in the process, the evolution of life. Thus, creating or working on creating a 'Perfect Couple' can only bring about great things for all involved.

Apology From Women to Men

I was born to live life, which is love. Therefore I was born to live love. I have been looking for it always, and from what I have found, I have been looking in all the wrong places. Yet I was not able to look elsewhere, I was frozen by my father's egos which you have inside of you. Why did I think that you could bring me love, when in fact I did not really love myself? Why did I think that you learned from your mother what love really is, when in fact my mother did not really teach me? Why did I think you learned from your father when he did not respect women, because he really did not respect himself?
I am really sorry to have put this burden on you. I am sorry that you do not realize that you do not know what love is. I know what it is not, and that is what we have been doing together. All I understand that with love there is life and life is respect and reverence for it and each other above all else.

I am sorry that I did not teach you enough by the fact that I did not love myself enough and just accommodated myself to you and your way for security. I am so insecure as I was parented that way. I am so afraid to be alone, poor, without, that I let myself fall asleep to life, thinking I was doing it for love, when in fact love had no place in it at all. I was never told of my soul and how to germinated and nurture it. If I tell you that I love you, but I do not respect myself, it means that I really fear you as I do not respect myself. I want, so I say those words for I do not know what love is. My soul needs, but I have not been conscious of it. If I accommodate you, it means I sell myself short for what I believe to be security, safety and three meals a day. I do not want to be a harlot, I became one by default of my upbringing, of not being parented and nurtured correctly.

I never knew a love that is divine to start, love from God or that universal energy. I forgot the reverence for life, my life, my offspring's life and thus your life as well. I fell into the abyss and could not find my way out. I always was awaiting a white knight to save me and those that came I sent away out of fear, and those that did not come knew that I was not ready as I did not love myself. I did not set out not to love, and sometimes I believe that I really do love, but without the love of God or that universal energy, without the love for myself in the ways of respect and caring of myself, how can I say that I love. Love is conscious, love is the truth no matter what, love is unconditional. Who taught me who taught them and so on? Did somebody miss something somewhere?

I should have known that just because that my mother did something in a certain way, or that your father did something in a different way etc. that it did not make it right; it did not make it divine. I should have known that divine love is innate in all of us and it is up to us to live it, to be it. After all it is life.

So please forgive me for all that I have done up to now, for my lack of respect and reverence for myself and therefore for others. From now I will live my life based on the divine love from God, the universal energy, respect of myself and thus for others; reverence for every life that is. This will be done by the fact that I will be more conscious of myself and secure in the fact that as God feeds all the non-humans, why should I fear that he would not feed me? And what does God feed us but Love, real and pure forever.

I promise to dissipate the fear that has keep me frozen with in-action; in disrespect in 'sleep mode' to make the pain go away. I will embrace the pain that I have caused to others and myself and by really loving, divinely, consciously and respectfully, I will make restitution for all and any selfish, unconscious acts towards you.

As love is life and life is love, respect and reverence for both is of the utmost importance to all beings. If I should slip, please lend me a hand, for you are stronger than me and I do love you, even though I am only learning about it all, as Love is innate in me as a child bearer. Please work with me on all this so that we can share that road less traveled together, healing one and all, without selfish considerations, for the atonement of our souls. If you watch over me, and I you, then we are in communion with the Divine.

I know that I have a powerful energy (known as Kundalini) that you need to live your life to the fullest, and I know that you have that same powerful energy. By making our love Divine then we will have fused our energies and, by osmosis, we will become that love which we seek. While you may have in the past miss-used and abused that energy, I apologize for not having been assertive in making sure that it is worked with and used properly. You may have felt the need to attain this energy via other means or from younger and younger females, knowing that the more innocent the energy the stronger and more powerful it can be. And I know that this type of energy does not last, for the fire is quickly extinguished when it not kept fueled with Divine love. And I know that you may have gone through one then another then another, all to no avail for it never was Divine, only egoic. I promise you my Divine love that is un-extinguishable; for it is based in that single spark of essence we all have inside of us. I have learned the hard way through traumas with other males in my life, through abuses of all kinds, from not being parented and nurtured properly. But now I know that with Divine love all is possible and will allow us to live life, which is love, and to love each other, which is life. I will be stronger and just do it.

Forgive me for my unconscious re-actions, I promise that they will be no more.

Live Love
Love Life

Forever and ever...together

Conscious Love a divine godly relationship…

Believe it or not it is right inside of you now. It always has been, is and forever will be. You just may not be awaken or conscious to it fully. It has been very well described that 'God is love' at its highest level of vibration and life is living that love. So all we need do is live love and we will be living life at its highest vibration level. We will be our inner soul's God, manifested. If you are skeptical, then contemplate the following:

For x number of years you have lived the way you have, struggled the way you have and coped with the way you have. You have chosen, consciously or not to be exactly where you are. Thank yourself for you. You are O.K. in the eyes of your supreme being. You are on your path to enlightenment, when you do not forget your soul. Given that you are not seeking the Holy Grail, which is already in you and not yet awake, try vibrating at a higher level than you have. As everything we know (and don't know) is energy, it vibrates. Even egos vibrate, usually faster than our soul for they do not think per se, they just re-act, based upon some pre-conditioned programmed behavior pattern that we made over a given time line. Just remember that just because you may not believe it, it does not mean that it is not true. Consciousness has different levels and degrees.

So try vibrating. At a faster rate than you have been doing up till now and see what happens. Be conscious of God our Creator and all that has been done for us. Do not get hooked on semantics. Just try and be conscious of the vibrating. Then the lights will start to go on and while bickering of the egos may start from time to time do not stop. Just allow yourself the joy of flowing with the universe instead of against it. Allow yourself to be part of the universe and it will allow you to be a director of it sometimes (known as synchronicity) and thus do the will of universal karmic harmony for that is within your reach, if you choose it to be so, so will it be.

As you vibrate you will raise your conscious and thus be more aware of all that you do and that you should do. You will have a closer connection with your loved ones and that itself will help you develop that deep inner part of you which is unconditional love and therefore universal God.

Love is what it is all about. Don’t ever kid yourself or let someone try to tell you otherwise. The love we are talking of is of course, unconditional in all aspects and most of all it is conscious. For how can we really love if we are not really conscious? Try by asking your spouse, friend and children what love is and you will get as many answers as there are their numerous matrix of egos. For most of us are unconscious to ourselves and thus unconscious to the other. Unconscious in the sense that we do not really know what makes them tick, only what egos we can please with this and that, or which ones we can agitate with that and this, but not as far as love goes. Pure love that is and always will be truthful and devine. They will talk of what the TV taught them or what they saw in a movie. They may talk of the spiritual side or part, but look a little confused about this. All of these answers are pre-packaged by the ego, from growing up with a conditioned cause/effect, action/reaction or stimulus/response. Where is the divinity that it really is? All the great sages, saints, teachers throughout the ages tried to teach us of love, of God, which is what love really is. For in God/love contains the totality of consciousness and life itself without the baggage of the ego weighting it down.

So as you become enlightened/conscious, your virtues transform your egoic responses into a new experience that is quite otherworldly. It becomes what is called transcendental, that is to say it transcends the ego and attains the purity of the soul in its externalization. Love to most people is what mom or dad or other adults did to us. Thus with their pre-conditioned responses or with their own egoic situations problems etc. They taught us only what they knew and nothing more and then it was up to each of us to find the truth of love, the true meaning and feelings of love. The divinity of it and thus, yes finding God.

To many, love is what is said or felt during the physical ‘love act’ or sex. In many write-ups today we are starting to realize that in most cases the act of ‘making love’ is actually just having sex, like rutting. So we need to revisit our inner mindset and see if we cannot rectify this misunderstanding. Love has been, is and always will be the answer to everything that ails the human soul or spirit or psyche. Conscious love, without putting conditions on it like, 'if you do this or that I will love you', or worst, 'if you don’t do this or that I will not love you', which is all pure egoic garbage. Love is what made us and what propels us forward, God our creator. Love is the energy of the cosmos. Love is divine, as it is the greatest manifestation of the divine. In fact Love is what we are meant to be, God energy itself, living life as the love life for all that it can be. It is up to each and every one of us to maximize this process. It is our only real 'raison d’etre'.

Love is not sexual, as that is for procreation of the animal kingdom. Love is physical when in the greatest energy field and when with the greatest reverence and the greatest respect for each other. In other words if you and your mate profoundly find the divine depth in each other then you will have found true pure love and you will in fact start the dance of the universe. Think about it for a while. Why does having sex only give limited pleasure for a limited time and usually to only one of the two? Why does it leave you tired to want to sleep and why does it make you a little wobbly or unbalanced after or the next day. Your energy was zapped in the mating ritual of rutting. Why? Sexual energy is the energy that makes us live and grow. It also makes weak people strong and strong people weak. For it is used incorrectly. People usually have some inner ulterior motive for having sex other than for being love itself, and thus call it love to camouflage the truth. Thus we always need to make sure that we are communicating with each other, truthfully.

If you where to approach it as really being ‘making conscious pure love’ with God beside you all the way, (remember God is in you and has plans to help you be the best you can be for yourself, for God and your mate and all others) then there would be no sense of an act but of communicating with the divine, in you and in your mate. Sort of like a God making conscious love with a Goddess. Makes you wonder what you have been doing all along. Yet the worst part is that you then really realize what you have been missing ugh. Thank God, thank you, that you have now awoken to what is really going on inside and what it will bring about is nothing less than miracles. It is said in the holy writings that when two people are of a like mind, with a common goal, having included God in their quest, then the most favorable outcome is assured. For it is the unison of the two energies, the duality of God that is at work, and with this miracles do happen. Try it and see. With this you will find, improved relationships (you really need that first to get somewhere in trying this all out) improved health, as you will not be trying to steal or lose energy but work with it, and most of all you will be starting to be all that you can be for yourself, God and all others.

So don’t let them say what is love, or did you make love, or I love you, say it always as ‘conscious love, profound, divine, Godly, unconditional as if the cosmos is speaking’. Because in reality it is as you are the creator of your part of the cosmos. So make conscious love, not, 'have sex'.

While we were told that the mythological Gods where male and female, the happiest ones where those who where making conscious love, the ones having sex where always having problems and a lot sadder, even if seemingly more powerful. Things are not always as the appear to be…

Control

In neuro linguistic usage, to us it reads as the CON of a TROL. You know those bad ugly guys from the fairy tales that would trip up and frighten the travelers, especially young innocent girls. As for the con, well let’s face it, it really is because it is not the truth and that is how we are fooled into it.

It has been the most problematic word and action since the beginning of time. Who controls who or who controls what? And yet when we really dig into it, we find that it is not our soul or the other person’s soul, but in fact just our little (or big) egos/sins looking for attention. We all need control in many ways, from controlling bodily movements to thoughts that allow us to do our job. There are good uses, but the complication arises when we use it in communication with other people. Try a little test by using your soul to communicate with someone that seldom does. See how they react to your action while you continue to act from your soul and not react from your egos. At some point you will get into a discussion or worst an argument and then who wins. The one with the stronger ego usually wins, unless you allow your soul to transcend the situation and step back and out of it.

We have seen over time how men control their environment and put women below them. We have seen men do the same with their families and anybody else they can, control. Men often say it is just survival of the fittest, and therefore accept that they are just like the animal kingdom. We have seen how women, controlled by men (starting with a father and maybe a brother and ending up with the mate) control their own children and not in a good way. This is the pecking order, whereby the one at the top dumps on the next one and they dump on the next and so on. Women often do this out of frustration as their mate controls them as their parents did and they have no sense of control over another and thus feel they have no control over themselves.

Control has shown itself time and time again to be tied into a lack of a mission in life. A lack of a fixed purpose and understanding of the answers, in whole or in part to, ‘Where are we from? What are we doing here? Where are we going?’ When we are focused on a mission, we know where it is we are headed and have a good understanding on how to get there. Without this we are just drifting along the journey of life living whatever people and situations have to through at us, doing it all as a reaction from our egoic mind. Thus, others who are more fixed in what they want to do can easily sway us, and we think to ourselves, ‘let me follow that person it looks interesting’. In doing so we will at some point give ourselves up to them and let them lead. As they lead they can easily have power over us and thus do end up controlling us. With our own vision of our own mission, we will be less likely to get side tracked by anyone or thing that will control us and at the same time because we are in fact focused, conscious of ourselves, it is highly unlikely that we will seek to control another for we have our peace of mind of what to do and our work cut up for ourselves. We do not need to control someone else to do it.

Without our own mission and the mini goals that go with it, we feel lost and drifting aimlessly in the sea of live with no direction, without a wheel to steer our boat. Literally out of control. So our egos set in motion to seek control of a situation in whatever manner possible, or even give it over to someone else. This then clicks on to the learned behavior patterns from the ego/sins of those that brought us up and that we just repeat. Repeat what? Control they had over us we continue to seek over others, just like the pecking order. The ego reasons subconsciously that if we cannot control ourselves, maybe and for sure like others did to us, we can do to others. So as we allowed others to do unto us, willingly or not, we seek to do unto others to give ourselves the satisfaction of controlling something or someone else. Usually that control means controlling someone else’s egos, which in life today is usually not to hard given that we are living 80% ego and maybe 20% soul. This does lead to problems of all kinds and strife of all kinds and yes it does lead to fighting and wars. The fighting can be a simple argument and the war can be simply between mates or friends, it does not have to mean world wars etc. yet it all does lead to that one way or another.

Control actually comes from our cosmic inner process. We have egos/sins within that drive us to do certain things. This drive can be viewed as our karmic penitence dealt out to us by another person as they have to put us through a test, and for ourselves it is a test to see if we can detach from the egoic strangle hold. Thus as much as we may think and believe that we are in control, the controlling is actually being done to us, by our egoic mind. That is where all of the sins reside. When our society created the phase ‘being of sound mind’ and used the so-called ‘normal’ person to make the average, they should have termed it ‘being of egoic mind’ as the egos/sins are the ones in control. So the only ones ‘being of sound mind’ are those that have worked on really understanding themselves and their egos and how they acquired them. They have been able to attain consciousness of themselves and of their egos/sins, and if not completely dissolved at least more than less, and totally under control of their soul. So we can see how the saying ‘Why are we here?, to raise our consciousness!’ rings true for all of us.

We actually give other people the control and thus the power over us. So when someone complains that so and so is controlling me; it can mean one of two things, that the other person was given permission (albeit unconscious) to control us, or that we are not in control of those things that we want to be and so strike out at the first target we can. Believe it or not it is usually a combination of both. For we usually give the control to the other hoping to gain something and then try to do the same thing with another which is just the pecking order of the egos. This works when everyone is in the same game and no one is conscious of who is doing what to whom, it just happens. But as we look at all of society around us we can see that with all the problems, disputes and unhappiness, there are more working with their egos than there are not. Thus if we could only tap into our understanding of our own egos, be conscious of them, then we could get out of this mess and at the same time, end the paying of karmic debt and penitence.

How can we really get away from the control of the tyrants (or whatever you want to call them) when they are all around us? First start by looking deep into yourself and finding out about your own issues of control. He may have had a tyrannical mother he copied from and she may have copied her dad’s. In any case you usually only need to look at your parents to start with, to see what you most likely have buried inside yourself.

The next part is that of your own spirituality. Your own God (not creator) that helps you every day get more and more connected to your soul and be all you can be. It is pure unconditional love and conscious truth. Remember you are not in a courtroom to beat out the other guy on legalities that do not require the truth at all costs; you are inside you and must give the complete conscious truth for your enlightenment. Otherwise why bother trying to figure it out when you are just going to end up lying to yourself. Lying is a sin so it is better not sin and just stay as my brother likes to say 'stupid'.

Given the fact, that all the great messiahs died one way or another for us to be forgiven of our sins, rest assured that as soon as you embrace the path, ask for forgiveness of your ‘stupidity’, you will start getting answers. It is a little bit of work and sometimes we cry over it all, but that is just one of the egos looking to take control or change our mind. The real crying is one of joy when we open up ourselves and start to see the real beauty that we have inside, warts and all. We are a manifestation of God and we can be a God (not a creator) if we so choose. Or, we can just let the control issue be a problem that we carry around just like a backpack, taking it out once in awhile, or a lot, to see what it looks like and how it feels and let it control us, because it does and not, we it. Only our soul can really control something of us for it is of God; our mind, our ego, our sins are just the penitence that we have to go through to see the real beauty and fuse with it. You are not your soul until your attain consciousness of 'It' and that means first knowing your egos/sins consciously and truthfully. As you are on the path, the journey of life, define a mission and see how much easier it is to live without the issue of control cramping your style. Ask God and JC for help, they are waiting 24/365 and the cost is free. For all the best things in life are for free, we have to pay for our egos/sins, and we know that they are not the best life has to offer.

Cutting your losses…karma is at work

Being what it is, karma can come to you as an ego transferred from another person when we are young, or even stranger yet, from cellular and molecular remembrance as in family lineage. Wherever it comes from, you have to become conscious of it or else you get to spend time on the wheel of Samsura going around and around, repeating the same actions and reactions to the situation at hand. It is the manner of extracting penitence for our miss-deeds now and before, yes, previous lives. We broke something so now we have to fix it, make it right, rebalance it.

But the ego loves this roller coaster ride and does not want you to get off. It just wants to continue turning and avoiding anything that maybe considered by it as 'uncomfortable'.

While our soul and intuition may already sense that something is wrong or at least not

quite right, we just continue to go and go without a conscious thought of what is happening. The perfect Groundhog Day movie, only we are the actor and we get to do the repeating. Thankfully we can wake up and find a way off the ride. However, first we must take stock of what is happening.

When the egos were formed in us at an early age, they set patterns for the rest of our life. We do and will repeat that which we were taught, knowingly or unknowingly for it is imprinted into our psychological song and unless we re-write the tape that is playing in our head we cannot get off the ride. To re-write the tape, we must necessarily first look at it much as a scientist would examine some object. We must ask the multitude of questions, with 'why' being the most common next question. We must look at our own psychological monsters in the eye and see what it is afraid of. Once we see it then we must come to grips on how to cut it off, that is how to stop feeding it and thus how to get us off the ride that is going nowhere but around and around.

J.C. was one of the most learned men of his time, and in many cases he was more adamant about keeping the laws than many of the ‘elder’ religious people of the time. However, one thing that is known today of his manners is that he would not accept any law or administration of it without question, especially if it interfered with the person accessing the divine. God. For he knew that it was the ego that stopped man from knowing God and it was man made things that tried to stop people from doing anything about it. How could a devoted believer of God, of a deep religious faith continue to live with another person as a couple, if the other person interfered with their attaining God? How could one person ask or demand obedience of another if it took away their religious and spiritual freedom to find God for themselves? As it is said in the Bible, any two people that agree on some common goal in unison with God in the picture will have it attained, as it is in fact a Godly process.

How can one person give up their God given right to freedom of thought and action (Godly for sure) to another who is not seeking God but seeking to control the other person or coheres them to abandoning the search? It is not acceptable or lawful in any Godly manner. To some man made ideas it might work, submission and control over the weaker, but not by God's standard. So when someone is not on the same track as you, when someone does not hold your beliefs, you are just stunting each other's growth, you are just holding each other away from what both are really looking for. Cut your losses, or you will not attain your goals this life. Unless submission to what is not godly, is your goal.

It is not an easy process to go through, for sure. The egos will fight it tooth and nail till the bitter end. Your own egos will be full of fear and give in so many times that you will have lost count, lost heart and given up on your own soul's journey to enlightenment. Ask for divine help and guidance and it will all come to pass. No problem, situation big or small is too much for the Boss. The energy of cosmos will always help those who help themselves, especially to find God. So the breakup can be viewed egoically as very frightening, or it can be viewed divinely as setting each other's soul free to find what it is looking for. Often the irony is that the egos of both people involved would rather be set free unless the fear of one is greater than the other, and in that case you have a lot of praying for divine help to have it all worked out in due time and circumstance, after paying penitence to the other that is.Just remember that when we consciously choose to stay in an un-Godly situation, we should at least protect our soul via our psyche as much as possible. It is for the love of life that we do this. And the love of life is God.

Then again many of the mystics also know that if a conscious person gives to and feeds an unconscious person, then it is there own Fate that is being pulled into the other person's karma and thus their wheel of life.

Gnostic Movement

Copyright Samael Aun Weor

Chapter III of the book "Esoteric Schools", 1st edition, January 1985, Barcelona, Spain.

The Gnostic Movement is the synthesis movement of the new Age of Aquarius.

The Seven Schools of Yoga are present in Gnosis, but in a synthetical and fully practical form.

There is Tantric Hatha Yoga in Maithuna (Sexual Magic). There is practical Raja Yoga in the work with the chakras; there is Gnana Yoga in the mental tasks and disciplines we have been cultivating in secret for millions of years. We have Bhakti Yoga in our prayers and rituals; Laya Yoga in meditation and breathing exercises; Samadhi (Oneness of mind) in our practical work with Maithuna and during deep meditation. We live the way of Karma Yoga in fair action, thought and feeling.

The secret science of the Sufis and dancing dervishes is present in Gnosticism, as well as the secret doctrines of Buddhism and Taoism. The Sacred Magic of the Nordics is also found here, as is the wisdom of Hermes, Buddha, Confucius, Mohammed, Quetzalcoatl, and so on. The Doctrine of Christ is Gnosis.

Jesus of Nazareth, is, in fact, the Synthetical Man. He was an Essenian who studied Hebrew knowledge; he had two rabbi masters during his childhood. Moreover, besides his profound knowledge of the Zohar, the Talmud and the Torah, he was an Egyptian Initiate, an Egyptian Mason, who studied in the Kefren pyramid. He is an Egyptian Hierophant, who also traveled to Chaldea, Persia, Europe, India and Tibet. These journeys of His were not pleasure tours, Jesus traveled for study purposes.

Secret Tibetan documents indicate that Jesus, the Great Gnostic Master, was in Lhasa, the Tibetan capital, and sacred seat of the Dalai Lama.

Jesus visited the sacred Jo Kang Cathedral in Tibet; he acquired magnificent knowledge in these countries and all those ancient Schools of Mysteries...

The Great Master handed us all that Yogic wisdom, all those Buddhist, Hermetic, Zoroastrian, Talmudic, Chaldean and Tibetan teachings in a condensed form, "digested" in His Gnosis.

Jesus did not institute the Roman Catholic Church; He established the Gnostic Church, the one that existed in the times of St. Augustine, to which belonged Geronimo, Empedocles, Saint Thomas, Marcio of Ponto, Clement of Alexandria, Tertulian, Saint Ambrose, Harpocrates and all those early priests of the Church, which, at that time, called itself the Gnostic-Catholic Church.

The Roman Catholic Church in its present form was not established by Jesus; it is a deviation or corruption; a branch detached from the Holy Gnosis; a corpse. The human race needs to return to the starting point; to return to the sacred Gnosis of Jesus the hierophant, to primitive Christianity, the Christianity of Gnosis.

Jesus Christ's teaching is the Doctrine of the Essenians, the Nazarenes, Peratisens or Perates, and so on. In the Doctrine of Jesus Christ there is essential and fundamental Yoga, Tibetan magic, Zen Buddhism, practical Buddhism, Hermetic science, and so on. In Gnosis, all ancient wisdom is fully assimilated, chewed and digested.

Jesus, the Divine Master, is the Instructor of the World. If we truly want inner Self-realization, we should study, practice, and live the path of the gnostic arhat.

The best statement of the Secret Doctrine is found in the Gnosis of Jesus Christ the Hierophant. Gnosis saves us work and study; if it weren't for the synthesis of the Christ, we would have to memorize millions of volumes and travel around the world in search of the Way.

Fortunately, however, One (Man), the Christ, has already done this; He studied in the Buddhist Jo Kang Cathedral, researching ancient Tibetan texts. Why would we need to undertake the same investigation? He has already done this and brought us the whole Yoga, the complete Secret Science under a synthetic form. What more do we want?

Our duty is to study Gnosis and to live it; this is important. That we are laughed at, attacked or slandered, what does it matter to [the] Science, or to us?

Be assured, dear reader, that the best of Yoga is in Gnosis. The best of Buddhism, of Egyptian Science, Zoroastrianism and Caldean teachings is found in Gnosis; so, what more do we want? What else are we looking for?

The Gnostic Movement is the revolutionary of the new Age of Aquarius. At present there are many reactionary, ill-timed, inconvenient individuals and many latecomers who call themselves "gnostics" and who excommunicate us because we teach the Great Arcanum, the Maithuna. They say we are involved in pansexual, sinful work. They do not want mankind to receive the key of inner Self-realization. The Secretary of the Gnostic Institutes has received letters from one of these pseudo-mystic, pseudo-gnostic individuals, who claims to practice Gnosis and Sexual Magic (Maithuna); yet he does not want this key to be delivered to the poor, sickened human race. He says people should be prepared and instructed before giving them Maithuna, etc. Nevertheless, this so-called leader contradicts himself denouncing the Gnostic Movement and the Great Arcanum to certain students, and accusing us of pornography.

Actually, this "leader" does not want other people to enter the Path of the Razor's Edge. These are the people who do not enter, and who will not allow others to enter. He knows the sexual secret, he knows Maithuna, but does not want others to know; he is committed to hiding the truth from the poor human race.

Quite frankly, we have decided to go into a battle without frontiers, a battle to the death in order to bring about the new Age of Aquarius. It makes no difference that we are criticized or betrayed. Gnosis should be delivered to the mankind whatever the consequences. Jesus taught Gnosis and we will deliver it to the human race, whatever the cost.

The Gnostic Movement presents its knowledge in a revolutionary way; it is one hundred percent revolutionary. The Gnostic Movement was formed in order to start a new era, directed by a revolutionary planet, Uranus, the planet of sexuality, of revolution in progress.

In this year of Aquarius, the Universal [Christian] Gnostic Movement must fight strongly the good battle for the new Age of Aquarius.

Each Gnostic Sanctuary should appoint a missionary, and all missionaries should commit themselves to a battle for the victory of Jesus, the Christ.

Each Gnostic Lumisial should undertake the most intense advertising for the Movement, involving leaflets, papers, invitations, lectures, books, communications via radio, TV and so on.

Whoever wants to become Christ-like should be willing to give until the last drop of blood for Christ and for the ailing human race.

The egotists, those who think only of themselves and their own progress, will never reach such a Christ-like state.

At present [N.T.: 1970], the Gnostic Movement has over four million followers throughout America. However, it needs to grow more, to become powerful, massive, and ready to transform the world for the new Age that has already come about.

Last year was terrible ... we were betrayed by a pretentious villain ... but we were victorious, we have won the battle. Now we are more powerful, stronger, more numerous; last year came to an end with complete success for the Gnostic Movement.

This year of Aquarius requires a battle to death against ignorance, fanaticism and error. It is necessary to involve ourselves intensely in the Great Work of the Father, and to bring thousands of people to our ranks. We need to strengthen the World Salvation Army.

Remember, Gnostic brothers and sisters, that the Gnosis of the Cosmic Christ synthesizes the practice of all Yogas, Lodges, orders, religions, schools, systems, and so on.

Our Great Master Jesus Christ studied this Yoga deeply, along with all of ancient wisdom. He immediately delivered his gnosticism to us - already digested, simplified to perfection and under a totally practical form.

There is Gnosticism in the Buddhist Doctrine, in Tibetan Tantric Buddhism, Japanese Zen Buddhism, Chinese Chan Buddhism, Sufism, in the dancing dervishes and in the wisdom of Egypt, Chaldea, Persia, and Pythagoras, in the Greeks, the Aztecs, the Mayans and the Incas.

Studying the Christian Gospels closely we will find Pythagorean Mathematics, the Chaldean and Babylonian parables and the formidable Buddhist ethics.

The system of teaching adopted by Jesus was that of the Essenes. Certainly, the Essenes were one hundred percent Gnostic in nature.

The Four Gospels are Gnostic, and cannot be understood without Maithuna (Sexual Magic). It is absurd to adulterate Gnosis with different teachings; the Christian Gospels forbid adultery. It is absurd to conceive Gnosis without Maithuna.

We may drink the wine of Gnosis (Divine Wisdom) in a Greek, Buddhist, Sufi, Aztec or Egyptian cup, but we should not adulterate this delicious wine with foreign doctrines.

The Gnostic Movement embodies the Practical Synthesis of Gnosis under a totally revolutionary form.

The Gnostic Movement corresponds to the zodiacal sign of Aquarius and is, thus, totally revolutionary.

Gnostic Lumisials should be esoteric academies and Temples of Solar Liturgy.

The Gnostic Rituals are really Solar Liturgy. Humans do not have, up to now, a Solar Body (Astral Body); this is a luxury for the very few. Presently, man, that is, the "intellectual animal", only possesses a Lunar Body (Molecular Body).

The intellectual animal is a slave to lunar influence. He carries the Moon in his Molecular, negative, ghost-like body. In fact, humans are presently a hybrid mix of plant and ghost.

What the intellectual animal carries within his Lunar Body is only the Legion of the Ego and the sleeping Buddhata.

The Gnostic Movement teaches Maithuna so that humans can fabricate the Solar Body. Man must break free from the Moon to be converted into a Solar Spirit.

The Gnostic Rituals identify us with the solar force. We need to fight the lunar force, to become really free. This is the aim of the Gnostic Movement.

The Moon is death, the Sun is abundant life. The Moon is materialism, drinking binges, banquets, lust, hate, greed, envy, vanity, laziness, disbelief, etc., etc.

The Sun is Fire, Wisdom, Love, Divine Spirit, Splendor, etc.

The Sun is the Cosmic Christ, the Word, the Great Word. The four Gnostic Gospels embody the Solar Drama, the Drama of the Christ.

We must live the Solar Drama; we need to become the center of this Cosmic Drama.

It doesn't matter if we are criticized, detested, hated for teaching Maithuna (Sexual Magic) for the sake of this poor, defeated, stranded human kind.

The degenerate infra-sexuals will never forgive us for advocating Supra-Sexuality.

It is truly painful to see these poor infra-sexuals in the Molecular Worlds after their death. Their lunar bodies turn them into lunar women who wander in the Molecular World like sleepwalkers, asleep, cold, unconscious.

What use would be to these poor infra-sexuals all their subjective practices? What use are to them all their Creeds, Systems, Orders, etc.? In vain will the infra-sexuals search for liberation while they despise sex and renounce Maithuna (Sexual Magic), abstaining from sex or abusing it, following the degenerate way of homosexuals, masturbators, etc.

In vain the sincerely mistaken will try to create the Solar Bodies practicing breathing exercises, Yoga without Maithuna, other exercises or vegetarian diets.

It is totally demonstrated that we were born from sex and that only through sex one can create.

In fact, only through sex we can engender the Solar Bodies. Only the wonderful force of the Third Logos can turn us into Solar Spirits.

We want to teach mankind the Solar Religion. We want to hand over to these lunar ghosts the Solar Doctrine of the Cosmic Christ, with the sole objective that man can Christify himself.

It is urgent that the Christ be born within the heart of Man. Each human being must be turned into a Solar Angel.

The Gnostic Movement has a titanic task in the Age of Aquarius, which we have just entered. We have the Sacred Mission of teaching this poor human race the Doctrine of the Solar Logos.

We should fight to the death to make the Gnostic Movement more and more powerful. This Movement must become Omnipotent for the sake of so many millions of humans who are on their way to the Second Death. We must be compassionate and hand over to Mankind the Solar Doctrine, whatever the cost.

God-Sins/Egos and Bill Gates-Viruses are they the same…?

God created the world and all that is in it…but what is with all the egos and sins? Why? Why? Why?

Bill Gates created mass computing and all that it allows us to do…but what is with the viruses? Why? Why? Why?

Did God create the sins/egos?????

Did Bill Gates create the viruses?????

Interesting paradox given that in all esoteric studies we learn that the Gnosis of the cosmos is 'as it is above, so it is below', sort of the duality of 'good-bad' 'up-down', God in heaven God in us…Bill Gates computing, we are computing.

Put it into perspective; the human machine is really a massive highly advanced computer system that is has one extra thing, God and the soul essence. Our brain is the central processing unit, calculating massive amounts of data per Nan-no second throughout the hardware, our body. The Taoist call the organs the software as it has writings from the planets. The PC is the same thing processing mass amounts throughout.

Both are only as smart as the user. Both can be foolish depending on the reason for using it. Both can receive garbage in so naturally garbage out. Both need to have maintenance done once in awhile and of course the CPU must be upgraded regularly as the brain must be cleaned out of old stuff or it does not evolve.

So along comes the sins that sit inside the egos waiting for a chance to muck up the system. Along comes some viruses that if not caught in time muck up the system.

So what is it that allows this to happen? Problems where not created in order to live and run our lives, we created problems based on too much focus on our being God and not allowing our God within to be conscious, unselfish, unconditionally loving and thus too egotistical. Bad or evil as they call it is just the disorder of the order that we should be living as and under.

So as we decided that we are God without being Godly, we started to create our inner sin network of what psychologists call egos. We take it from the Id, Ego and Superego to the egos of Desire, Bad-Will, Fear, of Anger, Envy, Pride, Greed, Lust, Gluttony, Sloth or the seven deadly sins for they corrupt our environment just as viruses corrupt the computers environment. We will most likely find that upon tracking a virus maker and analyzing them, their internal mechanism has been corrupted by some ego(s) or sin(s).

Narcissism being what it is, ones egos will take control over the system (as a virus does) and will created havoc, problems and some type of destruction. They do this for the want of the materialism of the world, which is the activator and catalyst, and the fuel that propels it. The virus is less damaging as it will only follow its' program. Then again, as we have our own unique genetic programming, can the ego manipulate the codes to its' advantage once inside, sort of like the super-bugs of late, re-writing code and taking over the system?

But what is there to do about all of this???

Well as with the anti-viruses, we first need to stop the bug from entering the system. In the case of humans we need to stop feeding the ego or sin by being virtuous and conscious of what is happening within ourselves. We need to stop all images, thoughts and contemplate the gnosis of them. Then we need to find their origins and completely understand how they where created if we are going to be successful in deconstructing them. Be sure at least that they do not to file themselves away somewhere and hide thus leaving us out of the light. If we love ourselves consciously enough and with the belief in a higher energy than us, we will be able to enlighten ourselves and continuously fix and upgrade ourselves, just like the monthly anti-virus upgrades do.

The higher energy has many names, symbols and manifestations, but on the top of it all is the infamous 'conscious love', Godly and unconditional. Without this love we have a chaotic environment as the world is now and we have no support for our CPU and internal systems that allow for evolution. If we all work in harmonious conscious love, then we will be able to spot the narcissistic ego before it enters the system. We will then be able to activate the anti-virus that can bring about a cure for what is already inside and for what new things are trying to get in as well.

In essence God did not make sins/egos just as Bill Gates did not make viruses. We did with our own narcissistic ways and thoughts.

We are lazy and not diligent.

We are gluttons and have not temperance.

We are lustful of a lot of things and not chaste.

We are greedy and not unselfish.

We are proud and not humble.

We are envious and not altruistic.

We are angry and not loving.

And we live:

Desire instead of aspirations.

Bad-will instead of strength.

And most of all,

Fear instead of courage.

Thank God for all the love, and thank Bill for making a system that helps us better understand our own inner workings, and thus helps us attain consciousness and with the grace of God, enlightenment. One thing for sure the Internet sure does pick up where the churches all ran short.

BOOK ONE

SPIRITUAL ANALYSIS

Back to Basics with Egos and Sins

Ultimate Truth, Unconditional Love…Consciously

BOOK TWO

GNOSIS: A HANDBOOK TO BEING ALL YOU CAN BE